Give Me Hope

Small Time

Hi this is my Nolife story "at the age of 20 years'ana" and soon my age will increase to 21+ years.

Maybe this post is a bit long. But I really appreciate you reading my writing to the end.

My name Rindaman likes to be called Inda, call me a weak man who started my nolife story since graduating high school, surely you guys ask what is nolife.?

"Nolife means describing people who have no life or who are less involved in social life around them."

Exactly 3 years ago until now I prefer to be alone in the room, spending time every day just to read manga, watch anime, and play games in the room.

This is My Story I

"My story began at the age of 5, where I knew the meaning of this cruel world, and still asked many questions to my grandmother and grandfather, I asked about my father."

- Me

grandma where my dad, why I don't have a father like everyone else and why my mom works and comes home for so long, I also want to be like my friend's friend, can you joke with mom and dad ?

the grandmother replied (with tears)

granny

My dear granddaughter, why ask that? there is the same grandma grandpa who is always there for you, just assume grandma is the same grandfather is your mother and father well

answer me

ko is a grandmother, and who is the same grandpa his grandmother? later Inda gapunya grandpa with grandma if grandpa and grandma become father and mother inda

"we laughed together, it was nice when my grandfather and I laughed together, like the world was peaceful without any burden, and the day went by with part , part , but a problem happened.

When my grandmother was out shopping and I wasn't invited by my grandmother, I was very sprained and very angry with my grandmother, because she didn't invite me, then I asked my grandfather while being angry".

- I

Grandpa when is grandma coming home? long time (with angry).

grandfather also answered

grandfather

"means Inda is patient yes, do not fuss grandfather again headache inda do not fuss yes".

I was really really impatient and angry, I immediately randomized the contents of the house so upset her, and in the end my grandfather was furious at me.

grandfather

I'm in a position not to know what - can I just cry and stand "what my father is in the eyes of my mother's family."?

To the day, I also fell ill because it became a big problem yesterday with my grandfather, my grandmother continued to get angry at my grandfather, while slapping my grandfather.

I could only see her from my crumpled blanket hole "for fear of my grandparents arguing." Then their debate was over and my grandmother came to me crying and hugging me.

granny

" sorry your grandmother and grandfather well inda, (whilst crying) yes it is true that in your grandfather's words, but grandma does not look like father inda ko, grandma even very dear to inda, want the best for inda, because inda is the pride of grandma and grandpa "

" And grandma told me all her stories from the beginning until I was born. My grandmother said, My parents divorced when I was born, there I was immediately shocked and wanted to cry, in my mind just crossed one question.

Why was I born into this world, and why was it that when I was born my parents had to divorce, how miserable I was, when I set foot in this cruel world, when others give birth.

her son with happiness while I? I was born with "a broken family."

" But this is the story of my life, I grew up without the guidance of a father, I like to think in my heart like to say, 'why did my father leave me when I was born'? 'Didn't he want me'? 'I don't know either."

"Time passed by I passed with this spirit of small stature, who wanted to make my grandmother and grandfather happy when I was successful.

After that when I entered the age of 6 years I was raised from the age of 2 years until entering elementary school/sd by my grandparents, my grandmother worked as a traveling merchant, and my grandmother worked as a traveling salesman, and my grandfather was a farmer.

Because my mother was working at the factory so I could not take care of me, because of the cost of living, well I also know this for the betterment of my family, and on the one hand I was also sad not to be able to share a laugh with my mother, because my mother worked for a living.

"When I was 6 years old, I was sent to kindergarten school, I was very happy to learn, plus I was able to make new friends, and the teacher who guided me was very kind to me.

but the spirit of learning was extinguished, like a candle that breathed the wind, during school graduation, my friends with their beloved parents, while I? I can only look at the happy faces of my friends, and I can only hope.

God when can I be like my friends later, I also want to feel proud by my two parents, I continue to hope to you God.

With this little body that was looking forward to the answer from God, while holding this envy in my friend, my friend,

I can only close to that sadness with a smile

"And I was 7, and my mother came home, so happy and happy, wanting to tell my first school story to my mother, my mother kept saying:

mother -

Now you are an adult well, grow healthy yes son, don't forget to eat, continue to mother has a surprise for you, mother will enroll you to school sd.

when my mom said I was going to be enrolled in school I was so happy 'cause why ? Since my mother had come home, and could enroll me to school with my mother like any other child, and could laugh like my friend's, I kept answering.