Ghost School

Episode 1: Book

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I was still sitting quietly in the middle of the forest. I stopped crying, but my heart still hurt.

I daydreamed for a moment, then looked at Kagusa and Kei who were standing not far from me.

And slowly, the bodies of the two of them also began to be transparent.

"Kagusa, Kei, why is your body transparent?!" Shouted

They saw themselves and answered me.

"You are no longer bound to Izumi, Yurin. Although you have the power of the 6th sense, but it's not enough for you to see spirits. So automatically, you can't see us anymore"

"After this, you may never see us again"

"So... I'm really back to my normal life" I thought

Before long, I really could not see them anymore and I was alone in the middle of this vast forest.

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I went back home and searched for Izumi's book.

The originally empty book does not contain any writing, now full of typical Izumi writing.

I read those writings.

...25 March 2009...

...Today is my 8th birthday. Today I got this book gift from Mama, and also the first day I met Papa. But... The next incident was inversely proportional to what I wanted....

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...3 April 2009...

...Mama kept on rampaging as soon as she saw me. I was so scared and confused......

...*...

...15 July 2009...

...Again I was gang-raped by a group of class thugs. Their eyes when they looked at me were very creepy. I don't understand why they beat me....

...*...

...27 January 2010...

...I was forced by my grandfather to move in and live with Hazuki's family. I can't do anything to fight....

...*...

...25 March 2010...

Today is my 9th birthday, also coinciding with Miss Hazuki's death. His kids are mad thinking I'm the unlucky bearer in their family.

...*...

...16 June 2010...

...Enough already!! I can't stand all this!! I just want to live a quiet life, but why is it so hard?! I can't keep going like this. I want to disappear completely from this world....

...*...

...1 June 2012...

...I had planned to kill myself before, but I was still able to control my senses and I was finally able to survive until now. Then, I met a strange blue-haired woman. He kindly asked me to talk. There has been no one like her other than Mama....

...*...

...28 July 2013...

...I like that girl. But I don't like him either. The previously very soft feeling now began to feel hollow. I don't want to be around him anymore....

...*...

...5 March 2014...

...I forced Mr. Hazuki to enter prestigious High School. The thing is, the principal is Hazuki Maeru's father. I can see my path in the future is very dark and full of painful thorns....

...*...

...25 August 2014...

...I'm tired of this horrible life. There is nothing good in my life. Whosoever... Please save me... But... Is there... Who wants to help me?...

...*...

...1 December 2014...

...I don't care what about my future anymore. I just want to get out of this godforsaken house....

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...15 January 2015...

...Again and again... I got a lot of injuries from Hazuki. My whole body is in pain and pain. My skin was also full of cuts and bruises so I didn't want to see it....

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...5 March 2015...

...Tomorrow's repeat. At first I wanted to try as much as I could in the years before. But for tomorrow, I don't care anymore. All this misfortune starts with me always in first place. I'll be the last rank. That way, they... Maybe not targeting me anymore......

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...17 March 2015...

...Mama, I'm sorry if I let you down this year. L'm... I can try next year. But for now... I just want to survive... As long as I'm alive, maybe... I can try. And... People don't hurt me.......

...*...

...25 March 2015...

Today is my 14th birthday. I hope nothing bad happens.... My head was so dizzy that the previous wound was infected. I hope I don't pass out again this time...

...*...

And, that was the end of the writing in Izumi's book. There is still a lot of paper left empty...

I turned over every piece of paper Izumi wrote. And if I look at it again, almost every piece of paper has blood stains. On the other hand, the paper is slightly yellow and slightly wrinkled in a small round shape, also the pen ink is slightly overflowing like a splash of water.

I can imagine Izumi writing in this book full of hurt and pain. He had nowhere to pour out what he was thinking, only this book was his savior to tell him a tearful story.

I paused for a moment to calm my broken heart. I looked back at the book, but I looked at the back of the book.

And sure enough, it's not like in a neat front yard. In the backyard is very messy and full of scribbles. And almost all the paper until the back cover stained with blood until the writing became a little less clear.

I saw every one of those short letters.

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...Be ill... It hurts......

...Wh why? Am I too greedy if I want to live a normal life? Wh why? Why should I be of so many people?...

...I'm so tormented......

...I just want to die...

...No one sees me as a human being. My existence is worse than animals though.......

I really don't understand... I try not to make mistakes, but why.... Everything was... Hating me...

...Please! Please don't hit me again... I may look ordinary, and you may think I'm used to being hit. But I'm still human! I am human like you!! Being used to being hurt doesn't mean I can't feel pain... I go on, go on, go on, go on!!! Feeling sick all the time... Why can't anyone understand my feelings......

...I'm human too... I want to be loved too... Am I so greedy to expect mercy from all of you?...

...I want to scream. But my mouth is locked. If I make a sound... You guys are gonna beat me up even more......

...L'm... Want to have friends... I don't want to be alone. But it's not possible....

...If one day I die, will anyone cry and kill me? No. gabe. There won't be. Even they will feast on my death like a victory....

...I don't care about my life. Everything feels empty. What is the reason I live? I don't know...

...*...

I came back crying to see it. Her writing full of heart-wrenching expressions of Izumi's feelings plus a book full of blood added to the impression of pain that Izumi had endured all this time. Izumi was great at staying this long and being able to maintain her senses.

I hugged the book with my eyes wet again.

"Sorry, Izumi... If only I had known sooner..." Mumbles

"Iuzumi's... Happy as long as it's with you. Please don't worry"

"Thank you... Been with Izumi 1 this year... His life is very dark. Although not willing, but with Izumi no longer being a spirit, this was also the best path for Izumi"

I faintly heard Kagusa's voice. It turned out that even though I couldn't see it, but I could still hear his voice.

I immediately wiped my tears, then straightened my head with a faint smile.

"Thank you, Kagusa..."

I stood up and walked out.

"Where are you going?" Ask Kagusa

"Hospital" I answered

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I went to the hospital, where Liliana, Izumi's mother, was being treated.

As before, I brought apples to Izumi's mother.

"Iuzumi's... At least, I'm helping you reconnect with your mother" I thought

Tok, tock, tock

"Please enter"

I also opened the door to Liliana's ward. Liliana was sitting on her bed as usual.

"Ah, it turns out Yurin!"

"Hello, Aunt. How's Auntie doing?" Much

"Oh, I'm fine now. Let's sit next to Auntie"

I followed his instructions to sit on the chair next to the bed.

I was silent for a moment, and then started the conversation.

"Look, Aunt. Actually I came because I have something to say"

"Yes? What'sthat?"

I hesitated a little, but I rounded my throat and looked into Liliana's eyes.

"Before that, what did auntie know about Izumi?" Much

"Ah, of course I tah--- Eh?... Who's she?"

"Don't you know who Izumi is?" Much

"The... Who her? A... I don't know her" muttered Liliana nervously

"That's the name of 'He'. 'He' was named Izumi"

"Oh... Be... Didn't he? So, what do you want to tell me?"

"It's about the old 'She' who disappeared and didn't see Auntie"

Liliana was immediately shocked mixed with pleasure. His blue eyes instantly widened and his pale red lips instantly smiled.

"really? So why hasn't he come all this time? Why?" Tanya Liliana was curious. So excited, he reached out his hand to hold my shoulder.

"He's... Died 6 years ago" I replied, causing Liliana to gasp in shock. He pulled back his hand slowly and still could not believe what he had just heard.

"A... What's..." Mumbled

"He's... Died already..." I muttered while lowering my head

Sontak Liliana immediately held both of my shoulders and brought her face closer to me.

"What did you say?! You're kidding me, right?! No way!!! He is young!!!" Liliana Shouted

"But that's the truth, Auntie!" My words are firm

Liliana's hands immediately limp. He immediately bowed with a pale face.

I was silent for a while, then started the conversation again.

"Tante, 'He' is Aunt Arato Izumi's son!"

"Auntie... You know that, right?" Much

Liliana looked at me sharply.

"You keep saying shit! 'He' is alive, and not my son! I don't have any children!!"

I immediately took Izumi's book from my bag and showed it to Liliana.

"Aunty's seen this book?" Much

"It's..." Mumbled

"The aunt who gave it to Izumi on her 8th birthday, 12 years ago"

Liliana's face grew pale and her countenance grew increasingly tangled. He immediately clutched his head firmly and shouted loudly.

"I don't have any children! That black hair, those blue eyes and that pale white skin.... He's not my son!!"

"Auntie... Remembering it" I muttered

"The aunt called it Izumi's character. 'He' met a brown-haired aunt, but aunty said black"

Liliana immediately flinched.

Slowly Liliana lifted her head and looked at me expressionlessly with wide eyes in disbelief.

"What... What you're really saying..." Mumbled

"I... Previously related to the ghost of Izumi, Auntie's son who always came here first. And what I said when I first met Aunt was a lie. Ever since he didn't come here again, he's been dead. But even so, he still routinely came here in the form of a ghost"

"What's the evidence of what you're saying?!"

I handed the book.

"Please read, it contains the suffering of 'He' all this time without Aunt knowing"

Doubtfully Liliana picked up the book and stared at the old cover of the book.

Liliana opened the book slowly. When he opened it, he was shocked that the book was full of blood.

"That's real blood 'She'. Every day 'She' writes a diary as a place for her to talk about her life. And of course, the condition of his body is not always good"

Liliana seemed hesitant, but ended up reading it.

He looked shocked, and incessantly continued to read it with tears in his eyes.

I kept waiting until Liliana finished reading the front of the book. When I finished, I turned to the back page of the book.

Liliana cried even more, and she accidentally dropped the book because her hands were shaking violently.

Liliana clutched her head while looking down regretfully.

"Why... He never told me? No. gabe. Why didn't I realize it?...."

"He's... Every time he comes here he gets hurt, but why don't I ever ask him how he is?..."

"Aaaaaaannrghhh....."

Liliana shouted loudly and lowered her head until she almost touched her thigh.

"Iuzumi's... Izumi's... Izumi, Izumi..." Liliana

"No way... Her... Izumi?...."

Liliana took the book back and stared fixedly at the book.

"This is really the book I gave her before... No. gabe... Something must be wrong... I must have remembered wrong... Yep!! My memory must be wrong!!"

I just stared at Liliana concerned. However, Liliana is Izumi's mother. Between the two of them there is still a bond. Although Liliana forgot, but she must still feel the presence of Izumi in her life. And once Izumi knew she was dead, she definitely couldn't take it for granted.

"Izumi told me everything, Auntie. Auntie does not remember wrong, it is true this book Aunty gave to Izumi as a gift for her 8th birthday, exactly 12 years ago"

Liliana held her head back and tried to remember. A few seconds later, her tears flowed back.

"Iuzumi's... My son Izumi..." Liliana

Liliana quickly looked around the cover of the book again, and skimmed through the contents.

Liliana cried again and hugged the book tightly.

"Iuzumi's... My boy... How could I forget you..."

"You're alone and hurt at a young age... It's all Mama's fault..."

"It's my fault for being too weak... I should have only focused on raising you after Kirein's death, but I was getting more and more dissolved in grief. It's my fault..."

Liliana fell silent and only cried while remembering the time when Izumi routinely came to the hospital to visit her.

"I... Though all this time I knew 'He' was Izumi. All this time I knew the boy who always came here was my own son, but I didn't want to believe it and pretended not to know..."

"My dear son killed my beloved husband in front of my own eyes... That fact left me devastated and ended up hating Izumi..."

"I know Izumi didn't mean to kill her father. I know Izumi did it to save me. I know that even if Izumi did not kill Kirein, Kirein would still die in the near future with his poor condition. I also know that boy Izumi"

"But I pretended not to know all that, and continued to lie to myself if everything was Izumi's fault. As soon as I saw 'She', I didn't want to believe that she was Izumi"

"Because of my irresponsible mistake, it was Izumi who again received the impact..."

"Iuzumi's.... You've been so good all along, but why is your life so miserable..."

"Just try... Mama didn't do any 'mistakes', you won't feel the cruelty of this world..."

I gently rubbed Liliana's back.

"Tante, Izumi's life is difficult, but now she has calmed down. Her.... Now I don't feel pain anymore..." Mumbles

Liliana was crying again.

"It's my fault. I'm really not responsible for Izumi..." Shouted Liliana sobbed

"Then... How about Auntie go see Izumi?" Much

"Walking... Izumi?"

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I took Liliana to the grave, the place where Izumi had previously invited me to come to her grave. Surely after getting permission out of the doctor who treated Liliana.

After walking in a bit from the public cemetery, I stopped walking.

"This is the grave, Auntie..."

Liliana immediately crouched down and rubbed the tombstone with her hands shaking violently. His eyes were also back in tears.

"Izumi, it's Mama..." Liliana

"Mama... Really sorry. Mamma... Everything's wrong Mama... Mama didn't take good care of Izumi, but it made Izumi more hurt..."

"Everything... Because Mama's the one who blames Izumi..."

"I'm sorry... Mom realized it too late.... Mama's also late to come here...."

Liliana again cried loudly while hugging the worn-out tombstone.

I stroked Liliana's back slowly, trying to calm her down.

"Izumi never blamed Auntie. For Izumi, Auntie is a priority. Several times Izumi tried to kill herself, but as soon as Auntie remembered, she undoed her intentions and persisted. Izumi loves Auntie so much"

"Now either... Izumi must be happy to finally remember and meet her. But, Izumi might also be sad once she sees Aunt crying like this"

Liliana managed to catch her breath and tried to stop her tears. After she calmed down enough, Liliana looked back at the tombstone in front of her.

"Mama... Come to see Izumi. Now change, before Izumi kept meeting Mama..."

"Mama is proud... Having a son as good as Izumi. Hopefully calm down, Mama will be even stronger in the future, so don't worry"

I smiled at this scene.

I took Izumi's book in the bag and thrust it at Liliana.

"This, Aunt..." Mumbles

Liliana just kept quiet while staring at the book.

"Izumi earlier did ask me to keep this book. But it seems better Aunt who is his mother, who keeps this book"

Liliana shook her head slowly, and held both of my hands while slightly pushing her back towards my body.

"I don't deserve to keep it. I'm his mother, but I don't play the role of mother to Izumi. And again, Izumi has asked you to keep it, so please take care of the book"

"And... Thank ye... Been with Izumi. The boy had been bullied since childhood by his friends. You must be an important person to Izumi so that she can tell you many things, and entrust her precious things. You're really nice, Yurin. I owe you one"

"No, Aunt. I just did what I was supposed to do"

Liliana smiled gently.

"Thank God... At least there are still people who care about you even though the people around you hate you, Izumi..."

"Let's go back to the hospital, Yurin. The doctor will be mad I'm out for too long"

"Yes"

We prayed for Izumi, then prepared to go back to the hospital.

We walked back with Liliana walking first.

Suddenly, I felt a familiar aura coming. As I look back.

Faintly, I saw the shadow of Izumi standing under a tree near her grave, with a gentle smile typical of Izumi she stared at our departure.

I stared for a moment, then returned her smile and walked back to Liliana.

"Iuzumi's... I'll try too. I'll get stronger!!"