
*Reiya's point of view
10 Years ago, when I was 6.
"Well, this is the second princess?"
"Yes. Reiya, say hello, she is a friend of mother"
"Hello aunt, I'm Leiya"
"He's lispy? Can't say the letter R?"
"Yes. It was a bit slow compared to my first daughter"
"When you look again, the first princess is more beautiful than the second, yes"
In-house....
Because my parents were so busy every day that they didn't have time to educate us, so my parents decided to call a private tutor for me and my sister after school.
"Well, Lina's very smart. It's 7 years old, but the writing is very neat. No wonder, the daughter of two great men"
"Thank you, teacher!"
The teacher who had originally looked at my sister's desk now turned to my desk. And the teacher who originally put on a bright face is now a little sour.
"Reiya, what did you write? The spellings are still wrong. The writing is also a mess"
"Sorry, teacher! I'll try harder!" Shouted
"Basic... Though born of the same parents, but they both can be this different. It's only 1 year different, but the distance between the two of them is very far" murmured the teacher
"...."
I have an older sister who is only 1 year different from me. Her name is Lina. Just as her age was above mine, her ability and beauty since childhood was already far superior to mine. Therefore, since childhood I have often been compared to my brother.
*
When I was about to turn 11, my brother left home because he got a scholarship abroad when he entered Junior High School. Now my brother lives with my grandfather and my grandmother.
Maybe it was because my parents missed my sister so much, so my every move would remind them of my sister.
"Reiya, your way of eating is less graceful. Your brother when you were your age could already eat without making the food fall"
"Quick study, Reiya. You didn't see your brother get a scholarship abroad. Your brother is still a child but can live independently. I'm ashamed to tell my friends about you"
"Reiya, I've never seen you with a friend. Play with your friends sometimes. Your brother used to invite friends to study together. Getting along is important"
Everyone, whatever I do will be compared to my brother.
I'm not really a stupid kid myself. I was a normal kid in general. But since I was in a neighborhood of great people, it made me look stupid.
I'm like grass in a flower garden. Considered a bully among beauties.
I was a normal kid. But because I grew up compared to my brother and did not get support, I became easily insecure with others.
That's what made me so much less want to socialize with friends my age. I was also afraid that friends would be compared again and afraid of being insulted.
In school I used to do it myself. Sometimes I get tired of doing my own work, but no one helps me.
Then one day when I was in 2nd grade Junior High, that was the first time I met my current friends.
"Yahoo!"
When I came home from school, I was unexpectedly chased by a dog that had appeared out of nowhere.
Then they appeared, 3 girls who were also in the same Junior High as me. He showed up and drove the dog's way to chase me.
"Hey, stupid dog!! Where are you going, huh?!" Yells
"Let's torture him~"
They beat the dog with a tree branch and made the dog leave.
"uh? Already gone? Not at all exciting! I want to torture that dog even more!"
"It's okay, we'll find another animal for us to hunt"
"Yes!"
For the first time, I felt so grateful to someone. I knew that they didn't mean to help me, but because I felt saved, I subconsciously liked them even though I knew they weren't good girls.
I kept staring at the three of them, then before long, they glanced at me.
"Hm? Who her? Why keep looking at us?"
"Not knowing"
"The freak"
Even so, I still wanted to be friends with them, because they were the first ones to help me.
I forced myself to approach them.
"Anu... May... I'm friends with you guys?" Much
The three of them looked at each other and seemed reluctant to talk to me.
"That's... As a thank you, I brought a cake, would you like to eat together?" Much
The three of them were immediately excited and willing to accept me as a friend.
One day passed since I was a 'friend' among them. They don't think much of me.
a week passed, they were still acting awkwardly towards me.
A month passed, they started talking freely with me. And I keep trying to get close to them. I treat them, keep smiling, tell them good things, and I do it to get closer to them.
A year passed, and now they really think of me as a friend. At least I think so. They were already very free to behave in front of me without feeling awkward.
I thought we were going to be close friends, but it didn't seem like it.
Not long after, they began to insinuate me subtly on various occasions.
"Eh, you know what? I know the son of a rich and great man. He was so arrogant about showing off his things in front of me. Peeve"
"Ah, yes! I know him! He was like that to me too!"
"Wah~ I thought he was like that only to me, but it turns out to you too?"
"...." - ".I just kept smiling in front of them
"No, I must have misunderstood. That wasn't me. I never showed them my stuff either, I just showed them so that if they needed it, they could borrow it from me" I thought
Things like that don't happen once or twice. I started to feel uncomfortable with the relationship, but I kept thinking positively and not wanting to have feelings for my friends.
"Reiya, we're friends, right? Can I borrow your money?"
"Reiya, I saw a famous pastry shop there. Wanna go together? You're the one who bought it, yeah"
"Reiya, you're close to that popular guy right? Get to know him, dong!"
"Reiya, look at your PR. In my class there is also the same assignment as that of your class"
"Reiya, your mother was a teacher at that elite High School, right? You must have the key to your mother's answer to getting into that high school. Don't forget to give it to us. We are friends"
They started blackmailing me, but I still wanted to hope with them.
"All right, I'll do it for you guys"
And until now, they keep asking for things that only benefit them, but I still want to believe in them.
*
A few months after entering High School....
"Eh, Reiya. I was very upset with my classmates. He dared to take my pen, but I bought it expensive and it was still new. Help me get revenge on him!"
After that, my three friends and I disturbed the man until he prostrated himself crying in front of us for forgiveness.
At that moment I felt guilty for him.
"Have my friend and I been bothering him too much? It shouldn't be like this" I thought
But on the other hand I also want to defend my friend.
"No. He stole a precious pen first, so he should have been prepared for the consequences" I thought
After that, it was not uncommon for me and my friend to bother the other students as well.
*
1 Week before the semester increase...
"Hey, Reiya, you're in the same class as the girl who was ranked 19th that year, right? She's also ranked 1st in your class, right?"
"Oh, you mean it's Yurin? Asahi Yurin got that scholarship?" Much
"Yes! I mean him! Isn't he very cunning?"
"Sneaky?"
"You don't know when you're classmates? I know from 10-4! I heard he was mopping and coming in here for bribing"
"..." - ".I just kept quiet not responding to it
"Because of class, so I know with him. He was smart from the beginning. Even though the desk's behind, but he's still active in the lesson, which might be mopping" I thought
"You don't believe me, Reiya?" Ask
"No. Yurin could have done it. He asked the teacher for the subject matter first, so he could be active in the classroom"
I blame something right, and justify something wrong. I'm looking for excuses even if it doesn't make sense because of my selfishness. I kept defending them because I thought they were friends. Really stupid.