
*
2 days later, the test for admission to First High School began.
In that week we continued to come to the school for school entry.
Then, a week later, there was already a list of people who were accepted into the school.
The total number of people accepted was 175, each class containing 25 students.
Among those 175 students, who were ranked in the top 75 would be taken for admission to special classes.
Me and the young lords of Hazuki were among the top 75 students. They were all willing to enter that special class, but I refused it and entered the general class.
I did that because in a special class it must be full of kids from important people, and they must know me.
I had a trauma to people who knew me. I don't want to meet them, because all this time people who know me will hate me. Therefore I tried to avoid a place that most likely met them.
In the test I deliberately answered some questions with the wrong answer, because I did not want to attract attention at the beginning of the school entrance test and made me 9th, under Kirian and Maeru.
Even though I was under Maeru and Kirian, it still did not mean that I was in a safe position.
"You're cheating, aren't you?! How can you be above us?!" Shouts Rio
"Basic disgusting man!"
Other than to avoid the people who knew me in the special class, the main purpose I did not want to go to the special class was to avoid the Young Taun Hazuki.
Indeed, they could have been angry just as an impingement because of the death of their mother. But I, who has experience of being bullied for up to 4 years, already know that this torture will continue.
I also kept my distance as far as possible from meeting anyone.
But it still can't be done, because we're home.
*
At the beginning of our First High School, Young Master Hazuki has immediately attracted the attention of people, whether it is the same age as us or the upperclassmen.
"Look! Sister Hazuki's sister also attended school here!!"
"Yeah! It's not in vain that my struggle continues to learn while in Elementary School!!"
"Seeing those who walk together is so dazzling!"
"I want to know Kirian's favorite type of woman. He's very handsome~"
As everyone watched them, I took the opportunity to run away from the crowd and hide.
I sat behind a tree reading a book until I fell asleep.
And unbeknownst to me, while I was sleeping, there were a lot of people passing by to see me.
"Well! He's a freshman in 7th grade? Even when sleeping is handsome..."
"Where is Young Master of the family? I want acquaintances..."
"He looks so elegant even while sleeping"
Because of the noise, I woke up.
As soon as I opened my eyes, they all immediately pretended not to know and walked back.
*
After the new students went around for the introduction of the school environment, we went back to our respective classes.
I was in the 7-1 general class, while Kirian, Maeru, Rio and Rusen were in the 7-1 special class.
Because I was in the first grade in the general classroom, so there were still a lot of people I knew in the class.
One of them was the guy who bullied me when I was in Elementary School, Kenzo.
"Hi, Arato! I can't believe fate brought us together again!" He said while grinning
My face immediately paled in remembrance of the dark and painful past from her.
Besides him there are still some people who like to bully me first.
In fact, even in Junior High I still have to survive for 3 years of them all, because for 3 years the students in the class will remain the same and will not be randomized.
*
The second day of school, the bullying began.
Brak!
Kenzo slammed my desk upside down.
"Yeah!"
The disciples started to stir because they were a bunch of people surrounding me.
"Teacher! Call the teacher here!" Shouted one of the men in the class.
The man was captured by Kenzo's entourage.
Buk up!
The man was immediately beaten until his body hit the wall behind him.
"Hey, you know who we are? Don't try to report if you don't want to be hit like him!!"
Since then, the students in the class just kept quiet despite seeing me tormented. From the look on his face, I knew that some of them had pity on me but he couldn't do anything.
I'm a little happy, at least not everyone hates me.
But still, the feeling of pleasure could not cover up the pain and trauma I had been attached to all these years.
Byurs!
"Haha!! He's wet!"
"What are you doing, Ian? You should be more careful when carrying a bucket filled with air~" Rusen said
Kirian walked over to me then brought her face closer with a cynical look.
"Aah~ I 'accidentally' spilled it. I'm sorry"
"Oh yeah, I just remembered there's a job I have to do. Izumi, you spilled water mop, yeah"
"...."
Whether at school or at home, I always get physical torture to my mental state.
I can't do anything for self-defense.
I thought, if I fight back, it will only make matters even bigger. Therefore I just follow what they want without a fight.
If I rebel, no one will be by my side.
No one will defend me.
I act like water in a river. Walk with the flow without a fight.
Even so, it would be a lie if I told you I was okay after everything I've been through.
I'm tired to the point no matter what my future will be.
In fact, when we were about 3 months of school, there was once a crazy thought on my mind.
*
"Aratos! You're reading a book?"
Kenzo immediately grabbed the book I was holding and tore it right in front of me.
"You're a genius~ Why still read books? You better clean my shoes" he said, throwing pieces of my book at the table.
It was one of my favorite books, but it just broke in his hands.
Unknowingly due to the emotion, I scrunched my forehead.
"What's? You mad?" Ask
Brak!
Kenzo immediately lunged at the chair I was sitting on until I fell.
"Do you have the right to be angry?! If you don't like it, get out of this school! From the beginning this place wasn't for a lowly person like you!!"
As usual, as I glanced around, the other students pretended not to know as if nothing had happened in the classroom.
My brain was empty at the time and I subconsciously asked him.
"What... My fault that I deserve all this?" Much
Kenzo immediately grinned while looking at me cynically.
"You're asking because you really don't know?" Ask
"All right, I'll tell you! That's because you took everything that's mine!! You continue to be at the first rank that should be mine, even though you yourself are a lowly person! You're shameless enough to get into this school!"
"Ah, I almost forgot to say it. I've heard before that your father died not from drugs, but because you killed him"
"You're the one who killed your own father! A disgusting monster that could kill his own parents! Do you deserve to ask why karma came?"
I was immediately shocked the moment I heard it. The other disciple who previously pretended not to know now slowly glanced towards me while whispering a little.
"Eh? That right? When I was in SD I heard that the former CEO died suddenly"
"But Arato Izumi it doesn't look like such a child"
"We don't know how he was before. It could have been that she was calm after her father's incident to remove the trail"
"Well, what a shocking conspiracy!"
They started whispering to each other, and I panicked in confusion.
"How is... How could he know?! The only ones who knew about the incident were me and my mom. I never brought up papa all this time, and mom kept in the hospital. How did he know?!" Thought
I was also jerked.
"Doctor! The doctor who took care of Mama was the only outsider who knew of the problem. Was he the one who leaked it?!" Thought
"No. She's been paid by my aunt to keep any secrets related to my family. He couldn't possibly leak it"
My head kept spinning trying to remember if anyone else knew of the problem, but there was nothing else in my memory other than the doctor.
"Was... Someone eavesdropped when I told the doctor back then?" I think panicked
"Now do you understand, right, Arato? You deserve all this. This is karma for an ungodly child like you" cried Kenzo
Afterwards, the rumor about me killing my father spread instantly in the school.
In class everyone looked at me cynically while whispering as soon as they saw me.
The rumor even went into a special class and was heard by my foster brother.
"I didn't think you were so disgusting that you could kill your own father!!" Shouted Rusen
"Get out of this house!! After your father, are you now aiming for our papa to kill you?!"
"Don't destroy the image of Hazuki's family! You fucking carrier!!"
My mind was completely destroyed back then.
At night when Mr. Hazuki didn't come home from work, I was locked out of the house by Kirian.
Everyone blamed me so much that I thought I was wrong as they said.
"I... My existence is not expected anywhere..."
"I don't want to feel pain anymore... I don't want to continue like this..."
With bare feet I walked into the garden and found a small knife that Akane and Akihito had previously used to cut leaves.
I picked up the knife and pointed it at my neck.
"Yes. Let's get out of this world like everyone wants"
"I am a disaster bearer. My existence will only disturb the others"
I confidently prepared to stab myself in the neck, but I hesitated immediately.
"How is... With mama?"
"If I wasn't around, mom would be alone"
"Mama is sick. If I didn't exist, who would see him?"
My body immediately trembled violently and I fell down because my legs were no longer strong enough to hold my body.
My tears flowed without my control.
I was not strong until I wanted to die, but as soon as I remembered my mother, I wanted to survive.
Both feelings are in me.
"What am I supposed to do?"