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The Story of a Disabled Child

Why until now my mother even more affectionate to my stepbrother. While me? Seems discarded, my mother does not pay attention to me anymore, eat even I have to take it myself with my circumstances like this. I'm paralyzed, I can't walk, I can just sit in a wheelchair all day. I was abandoned by my own mother. If only my brother Aisyah had not noticed me, I would probably be starving to death by now. My mom rarely asks ‘what has she eaten yet?’ or any other word that shows that he cares about me. I was sad and I was hurt, it turns out that I was abandoned by my own mother who got affection every day my step sister even my sister Aisyah rarely noticed as well. He was trying to live independently he said and he wanted to take care of me with his patience.

I am proud to have a sister who cares for me. My sister does not have the heart of anyone let alone a child who is not physically perfect. I admire my sister more than any Indonesian artist or any outside artist, she is very meritorious in my life as well as my mother.

My 15-year-old brother, he's a hard worker, he likes to study, do homework, read books every hour, he says, every time he fills up with good things and with positive things. He never went to play all day, at least went to an internet shop to do his schoolwork, it was only a few hours.

My mother and sister are strong women. However, now that my mother is there to accompany again and I categorize that sister Aisyah is the toughest woman. She's still a teenager but she still wants to babysit me and feed me, feed me, bathe me, clean my shit. I was weak helpless, unlike my brother who was physically perfect. God is fair enough to me he has created his creatures in such a way, he created imperfect humans but some have to perfect them. Like me, for example, God created Aisha for me, so that I could care for and care for me tirelessly and tiredly. He also studied all day to become an outstanding student at his school. Aisyah is good at managing time. Aisyah also really likes to exercise and it is healthy, he said. If my physique is the same as Aisyah's sister maybe every Sunday we jog together, play badminton together, play basketball together and others.

If only my parents were able to support the needs of our lives, maybe Aisyah is now the best athlete. But unfortunately the economic stability that makes us unable to develop our respective talents. If I don't have any talent, my talent is just that of Aisyah and my mother. But I really like to paint, often I paint the face of Aisyah's graceful and beautiful sister. Her head that was always covered by a veil, her beautiful face, and her skin that was not so white, she said, not so black, but I think it is a gift that God has given that has made Brother Aisha perfect in my eyes.

However, my mother's nature is now much different since she married again. My father is now far away from me, I don't know where he is. My mother always scolded me if I peed dicelana because I couldn't stand it, I scolded her. He said I am a useless ‘child and can only trouble parents. God, if my mother's heart is still as soft as it used to be maybe I'm not too hurt over all her words. If my mother hadn't remarried maybe I would have continued to be noticed as before. His attention has now faded since the presence of the children of my stepfather.

I was like a candle that ran out of its trunk because it was melted by fire and now I am useless, I am very useless. My mother always said be a useful child despite your physical condition like this. But what can I do? Nothing, I can just sit in this wheelchair given by my father's mother who died about 5 years ago. I can only sit in this old wheelchair and I have no power to push this wheelchair myself, sometimes I tell Aisyah to push it. I didn't dare tell my mother, because I was afraid my mother would get angry. My mom's not really like before. Am I so disgusting that my stepfather and my own mother would not give me any attention. I just need the affection of my two intact parents, who are like before. I really don't want to have a stepdad and I want my mom to love me the way she used to. When I was a baby and so on.

Brother Aisyah where I complain, ka Aisyah who hugged me when I was about to sleep, sister Aisyah who kissed my forehead when I was asleep in my sleep. I can feel the sincere affection of Aisyah ka. My mother's love for me has now faded, I don't care about me anymore. O Allah, open the door of your heart for me. I pray like that every night before I go to sleep.

Every morning, I could only look at a scene that was not pleasant to me. My mother who used to make fried rice and one cup of sweet tea, now everything has been transferred to my step-sister. One mouthful of mother never gave it to me again.

“Ehhmm, have already eaten aja fried rice Brother Al, brother can not nyuapin you. Brother hastily left school, sorry really yes.” Said Aisyah while keeping one plastic plate of fried rice on my thigh. I just smiled looking at Brother Aisyah, she cares a lot about me.

“Hati-heart brother.” I shouted while waving my hand.

Well, now deserted without brother Aisyah. No friends talking, no friends telling stories. Fortunately God still allowed me to speak, after God's love I was this physical imperfection. My eyes are open only one, my eyes are not there since the moment I was born. Aisyah's sister told me about me when I was a baby and was still in the womb.

He said, I used to be caressed by my mother when I was still in the womb. I was taken care of with all my heart by my mother. I was taken care of completely by my mother, with all her affection even though I was still in the womb, I hoped to bring out the daughter so that Aisyah's sister had a friend to play with. But everything was different, my mother fell while she was mopping the yard.

Mother mopped with a handbag, mother said the same brother Aisyah that mother is careless because Mother is also not careful. Mother slipped while cleaning the floor in the yard and mother immediately fell on her stomach and after I was born my physical condition like this. After she took a lot of effort and put half her life to get me out of the womb, she cried when she found out that I was disabled. However, mother hugged me mother is grateful at least I am in this world and can accompany mother. Mom said you'd take care of me, even if I was handicapped she said. She will always love me and always give me her attention.

That's what Aisyah's sister told me.

But, why since there is a stepson her nature and behavior to me Mother is very different. Mom doesn't seem to care about me anymore. The days that I lived were filled with ENVy because my stepbrother was lucky to get affection from my biological mother. My stepbrother does need to be given affection and because his birth mother is dead. I always try to tell her, I try to be patient, maybe there will be a time when you can pay attention again. Even if not now.

That afternoon I approached Mother who was sitting facing the sewing machine, my mother was proficient in sewing. You also do not need to go all the way to the market to buy new clothes. Mother always uses the remaining fabrics to make clothes or other items, because the rest is also not too much. Most mothers like to patch it with other fabric colors, but mothers patch it very neatly like not a shirt patched from the remnants of fabric. I approached my mother at that time, it had been a long time that my mother and I had not spoken.

“Mother.” Call me while pushing my wheelchair slowly and approaching my mother.

“What's Alya?”

“Mommy has lunch and prayers dzuhur bu?” Much

“Not yet, responsibility. This afternoon the clothes that mom sewed must be finished soon. If you want to eat, eat. Don't mind mom!” Jerk My Mom.

“A..aaa.. anuu Bu, I can't take it myself.” I said nervously. Mom's gonna be nagging soon.

“Aduhh, cute son of kasian once you.” Mother said while stroking my chin “Take it yourself, mother is still busy Alya, please understand!” Spontaneous mom immediately snapped again. I was shocked, my mother was not like that. Mom was willing to put off her job first to accompany me to eat. But now my mother often scolded me. Perhaps my mother was already affected by her stepson and her current husband.

“Ii.. iyyaa bu, I'm sorry Bu.” I said straight down.

All of a sudden..

“Assalamaicum.. Ibu Aisyah home.” Shouted sister Aisyah who had come home from school, sister Aisyah approached where mom sewed and kissed mom's hand and I kissed Aisyah's brother's hand.

“Walaikumsalam. Take care of your sister there, do not let her disturb mother again gini rich work!” Excited Mother.

“Iya ma'am. Yuk Al, to brother's room first.” Take my foot while pushing the wheelchair.

“You were why the same Mother Al?”

“No why-why brother. I just misunderstood, Alya asked the mother had eaten and prayed dzuhur not yet. I was just trying to remind you that I don't want to ask for food.” Said explain.

“Heum, yes after all mom is working, so mom is rich. Have you eaten?”

“Not yet kak.”

“Yes have been waiting for ya, brother change clothes same prayer first. Not for long, we ate together. Okay.” Says Brother Aisyah and we tos.

I am really happy with Brother Aisyah, sister Aisyah is really good. He always looked at me even though I knew that Aisyah was tired. Aisyah always patiently takes care of me, even Ayesha who often makes me laugh. Aisyah's sister is very smart as well as making jokes. I waited 20 minutes for Brother Aisyah and it was time for lunch with sister Aisyah.

“You want to eat where Al. Outside or inside? Maybe you are saturated in the house continue?” Tawar aisyah.

“Outside good times yes kak.” I said.

Brother Aisyah nodded and led me to the front porch. Not so broad our yard, but sister Aisyah always took good care of her so our house did not look so ugly and seedy. Aisyah loves taking care of our small plants every morning and evening. If later brother Aisyah is married maybe Aisyah will be the BEST MOTHER, sister Aisyah already knows how to divide her time well and take care of the children. Brother Aisyah fed me gently, I felt like I wanted to cry, why not a mother who is like Aisyah's sister, why not Mother who pays attention to me anymore. My mother has ignored me, even who often get the attention of Mother is my stepbrother. He is quite mature, but his way of thinking is more mature, Aisyah.

After finishing lunch, I was invited to walk with Aisyah out of the house. Yes even if only brought in the yard, but I'm glad Aisyah still want to take her time for me.

“Douh, neng Aisyah faithfully take care of her sister.” Said one of my neighbors.

“Hehe yes dong Bu, anyone who has a sister will definitely take care of his own sister.” Keep brother Aisyah.

“Ah this mom can aja, excessive bu.” Brother Aisyah said humbly, I just smiled hearing their conversation.

“Hehehe, yes Syah. I go home first yes.” Said Eli's mother.

Eli's mother is real, the proof is that my stepbrother is not like Aisyah's sister. In fact, he often cool himself diem in the room while listening to the radio brother Aisyah that he snatched from Aisyah's brother.

Once upon a time my mother and stepfather fought until every day and it was countless times that my stepfather yelled at my mother. I am very sad not to be able to defend Mother, but there is still Aisyah who can defend mother. My stepfather now changed his attitude to my mother, he often came home the night with the excuse of overtime. My mother sometimes does not believe and ask my stepfather ‘ it is impossible to overtime until every day’ and even his salary is also the same as working without overtime. Not long after that my father left my house with his son. Said she's tired of having a nagging rich wife mom, who's suspicious of her husband. My mother begged to keep leaving her son here. Maybe if I go mother will not prevent it because for my mother it is useless can not help mother anything. However, this is my situation like this let alone to help my mother to walk even I was difficult. Maybe later I'll even mess up mom's job more.

Mother wept every day for her stepson brought by her husband. I saw a mother who was always crying even though she was sewing. I approached mom. “Mothers don't cry constantly. Maybe if sister Dewi kangen same mother she will meet mother here right.” I said try to calm mom.

“Shut up! Know what you're about this. I feel so lost to Al, she always gives me whatever I want. As for the children of any mother, no one can give the mother a gold bracelet to decorate the body Mother.” My mother said in a sobbing tone.

“Mother, if Alya were to go what mother would feel lost. Alya who has taken care of the baby, even Alya who has been a biological mother for 9 months, will you still care if I leave? Alya is not like the sister Goddess who has a lot of money and can meet the needs of mothers. Alya's mother is handicapped, forgive Alya if Alya is just troublesome Mother can not give what mother wants. I really can't afford BU.” I said while looking at the face of the mother who was covered with tears on her face. My mother stopped crying and fell silent. My mother came straight to me and just stood in front of me.

“How precious is the Goddess's sister in the eyes of the mother, she is just a stepson mother an. I try to understand the attitude of the mother who has not cared for me for several years at all. Am I as valuable as Sister Dewi?”

Mom hugs me “Maafin Alya's mom, khilaf mom. I love being influenced by the Goddess's talk. Dewi once said to Mother, why take care of a child who could not make money at all for Mother. Mother was washed away with the words of the Goddess, so that mother did not care about you and Aisyah. I'm sorry Nak.” She hugged me tighter and cried again.

Suddenly Brother Aisyah came behind the door, brother Aisyah had heard my conversation with Mother as early as “Asstagfirullah Mother. Everything also needs a process to make money and we also have to have provisions first to be able to work. I know Aisyah is still in school, Alya can not produce anything because the circumstances are not supportive, and mother still expects money from us who are still not worth working. Mother, Aisyah Promise Aisyah will be happyin mother later Aisyah has been successful, Alya also always try to be a useful child for mother and father. But now I have gone somewhere. My father no longer cares about us. And now Mom is also like this because it is instigated by the talk of others, money and jewelry that I now wear.”

“Aisyah sorry Ibu Nak, mom was wrong. Mother does not care about you because the Goddess and her father always give Mom money for everyday. For you school too, Nak.”

“Already, mom. Mothers don't have to be like this, they've left mother regardless of how much pain a betrayed mother can be. I know Mr. Reno has another woman. Aisyah saw with her own eyes and head, Reno came out of the restaurant and took a woman. Aisyah does not want to tell it because maybe mom will not believe.”

“Ayesha, are you really with what you are talking about?”

“Sure Mom.”

“Ya has forgotten it. Just let Reno go, mom's heart is already so sore. I beg you please don't go away from me. I've lost enough of your father now and stepson mother. New mom realized, the most valuable child is a child who sholeh and loves parents.”

“Thank God that you're conscious. Love Alya as I promised you, ma'am. When Alya was born, remember? Don't ignore Alya ma'am, if Aisyah is okay. Aisyah can do something on her own, please, ma'am dear Alya as before. And we can't possibly let mom alone here.” Said Brother Aisyah while hugging me and mother.

“Iya Aisyah mother Promise and will not break it again. Sorry mommy ya Nak.” Continue mom, while sobbing “It turns out you are quite mature Shah. Mothers love you guys.” Mother continued again and hugged us tightly. I feel so much warmth right now, I'm happy today and maybe so on.

“Mother Alya asks mom not to cry anymore, forget all mom's problems. There is Alya same sister Aisyah who will nemenin mother continue.” I said while wiping the tears on my mother's face.

“Iya Nak, thank you for forgiving mom.”

“Already mother, we are mother's children. It's not good to keep each other hateful or whatever. Alya tetep love mom ko.” I said while feeling the warmth of the embrace from Mom.

*Thank you, God, for bringing my mother back. My prayer I'm offering tonight.

Now I fall asleep with the warm embrace of another Mother and sister Aisyah. And a kiss on my forehead that calms my heart. Now that God has been very fair to me, he has sent two angels to take care of me so that I may not be lonely.

Fleet – Mother

Happy hug, mature behavior.

The Khilaf I did before.

I didn't mean to hurt your heart.

Oh.. Mothers…

Your love knows no time.

Your love has awakened me.

There's no one more than you.

Oh.. Mother..

Am I able to repay everything you ever gave me with sincerity.

My life is free to forget.

Oh.. Mothers…

Your life leads my way.

A bright light in the dark steps me toward heaven on your feet.

Towards your feet heaven.

Oh.. Mothers…