Final Letter

ST 7

The day I'm on isn't easy, I prefer it when I don't know that I'm not part of this family, even though I know you're my biological father,I still feel like a stranger in this house.

Another week my exam will be held, since the beginning of last month I had the holiday to fold paper to be a bag of beauty products, I focused on learning to get good grades and can join the scholarship program. I was determined to be independent without bothering my father or others.

At 7 pm after the prayer I prepared a book to study, suddenly my sister Maudy called me to dinner.

"Sister, it's time for dinner come on dad and the others are waiting" Maudy said

"You eat first, I'm still full at school there's a sister friend's birthday, brother in the meal treaty" said I lied

"That was noon, now it's night"

"So afternoon deck, brother came home at 5 pm. You eat first, I don't want to study for exam preparation" I said as if telling Maudy to leave without asking any more questions.

"I'll tell the others later" said Maudy and left my room

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Before long Mom came by my father's order, she put on a sour and unfriendly face, making me a little frightened plus her slightly hurtful speech.

"Stop your activities and eat! do not seek attention by acting like this, you are not a child anymore who must be fed, troublesome!" mother's words frankly made me run out of words to say her words

"Inka is still full Mom, my friend's birthday and they invite me to eat" I said slowly as much as possible not to make mother suspicious.

"As much as we've eaten or not, which is clear today we have to eat with us at the dinner table, that's my father's order!" said my mother and left my room.

Inevitably I stopped my study activities and went to the dinner table, they had not started dinner before all the family members gathered.

I sat down at the dinner table with them, Dad didn't say anything and the meal went on as usual.

I took a simple side dish with half-centong rice, fried tempeh and spinach vegetables already that's it. The look in my eyes looked at my plate, I felt awkward and afraid, as if I did not realize I chose to eat the food greedily.

After dinner and everything was done, I went back to my room, and when I opened the book my father read, he went into the room.

"You haven't slept?" ask the father who is sitting on my bed

"Not yet, I'm studying for another week the school exam will be done" said I who still focus on textbooks

"Why are you sick? I've noticed you've had 2 days of eating a little, you're not healed yet?" ask me so many questions until I am confused which one to answer

"Do we need to go to the hospital, so that your inflammation will heal quickly. I notice the more days your body gets thinner, is there a question you don't know?" ask me again as if I were a journalist

"No need well, soon to be healed. My body problem that my father thinks is shrinking maybe because I am busy studying and previously I spend every day so my rest time is a little reduced" I said looking for reasons that enter will

"You have to take care of your health, not too soy sauce, if you are sick who takes care of your two sisters" said the father made me smile grimly, I think the attention turns out the father worried about his two children

"Yes well, I won't get sick" I said briefly and did not want to reply to my father's words at length

"Have you decided on the next school, let's just say you want a school where you're going to grant it" said my father then offered me the school I wanted to attend

My father, if I were all part of you, I would gladly accept your every treatment, but I am just a prank, where I might take it for granted.

"Can I ask for something?" ask me to doubt

My father nodded his head.

"Dad I was going to apply for a scholarship to school so I could go to High School without charge and my homeroom helped and he said in God's word I would get it, because the one who applied was not much. And I want to ask my father for permission to be independent, I want to do well, how can I?" ask me to take out the uneg-uneg

Dad was silent to look at, there was a face of anger that was implied but it was still hidden, I'm sure dad will oppose this behavioral idea.

"Don't act Inca, you can still afford your school without having to apply for a school scholarship, and again why would you want to leave this house big enough for you to live in,I don't want to hear this anymore"

"But yeah ..."

"Why would an immature child like you think of snoozing, would you want to be free and roam around like a bad boy out there, do you feel constrained in this house? You're still the responsibility of me don't think the school freaks are right!" said father in a high tone and full of anger

I could no longer hold back my tears, without my permission she just dripped. Dad still with his position crossed his legs while sitting and occasionally justify the position of his glasses.

"Dad also wanted to ask the issue of spending Savings/EDUCation ATMs that father gave each of the children of the father, why is only yours that does not decrease much? I see there are only a few times that come out with a description of the purchase of books, is your school no payment and activities that require fees?" ask the father who made me confused to answer

I was downcast confused as to what to answer, because I had been in school on a scholarship so that almost all financing was borne by the school, I did not tell my father about this, either,because I definitely don't like it.

"Inka's Jawab! don't just be quiet" said the father with a high tone

With fear I explained everything, father seemed surprised by what he had just heard. I knew he must be disappointed with my actions, but I was ready to face it, because I felt that what I did was a positive action not a shame.

Dad left my room without a word, even he slammed my door tight.