ERRONEOUS

BONUS PART - YOU AND YOUR MEMORIES

ALKA ADIDARYO POV

That girl's face is always present in my dreams every night. His laughter, sadness and smile made me always reluctant to wake up from that beautiful dream. Until the sound of the alarm coming from my smartphone makes me want to not want to go back to the reality.

Mega, she's the girl. The girl who once filled my days, gave color and flavor to my bland life. The girl who always made drunk kepayang. But unfortunately the girl has been gone forever. The memories with him were still left in my subconscious after his departure that day.

The day should be the happiest day for us. Yep. It was my wedding day with Mega. The party that was supposed to be filled with jokes and laughter, turned into full of cries and wounds. His departure was so very surprising and felt sudden, I also forgot that Mega had cancer that might one day separate me with him. Even though I knew whoever it was would have had that day. Death day.

Mega, I knew him by accident in that place. West Frisian Islands. A place that bears witness to my first meeting with him. I saw him at that moment looking so pitiful with tears unceasingly flowing down his cheeks. I kept watching him from far away.

It's so funny that I think back to my meeting with Mega. I think all women are the same. Because my heart is dead after the betrayal my ex-wife committed a year ago. But this time I saw Mega was very different, as if he was so very fragile. I ventured closer to her and patted her on the shoulder as she was struggling on the quiet street and still cried while covering her face with her palms.

"Why are you crying?" ask her. And she looked up and wiped her tears.

"It's none of your business" he answered tightly and got up and walked back. I just smiled and followed him.

"Can we be friends?" I came back but Mega is still running. He doesn't even care about me. I also continued to follow him.

While at a crossroads her steps stopped and I stopped too, I saw her looking confused at that moment. Mega turned towards me who was quite far from where she was standing. I don't know why I always wanted to smile when Mega saw me back then.

"Why stop?" I looked at him in wonder.

"I don't know where I am now, can you take me back to where I started?" he said with doubt.

"But not for free, yes" I replied with a smile.

"Not free? meaning?" Mega asked as if he was seriously responding to my words when in fact I was just joking. I saw it as if I was thinking. As if remembering something he might know about me. He looked at me fixedly. Soon he turned his eyes in another direction. Implied from the look in his eyes that I was not the person he knew before. Yeah, indeed. I've never met him, let alone known him. That's not possible.

"Yes, after this you should want to be my friend," my lead came back but the funny thing is that he just looked at me sharply. I was a little creepy at the time.

"Well I want to be your friend.” Mega's answer surprised me a little, whether to be happy or sad because I felt afraid after the meeting I could not see her again.

With confidence I drove him. Obviously I don't know where I'm going after this. Mega followed me from behind. Actually at that time I hesitated to take the road, but because I did not want to see him show his disappointment, I finally took him to a place that I thought was very beautiful.

After that meeting I didn't expect God to bring me back with him. Honestly since the beginning of meeting him, my heart seemed to come back to life and wanted to know him even more. But unfortunately I was still married to my ex-wife at the time. I didn't try to find out about him after the first meeting with him.

Then the universe seemed to be on my side, and at the same time a bitter reality I had to accept. Because he thinks I'm Albi, my twin brother. My heart ached to see him cry from being disappointed in me. I didn't mean to lie to her, I just wanted her to know that I loved her. Again I should be able to release it sincerely for my twin. Mega and Albi got engaged at the same time as my decision to divorce my ex-wife. Only a smile can I show them.

Until that day happened. The day that Albi breathed his last after a month he fell into a coma caused by the biological mother of his adopted son. Nindh . And Albi asked me to replace him as Mega's companion and father to his little daughter Nindya before taking her last breath. I was also jerked.

Their marriage is getting closer. I was confused at the time. I also could not have had a marriage without love itself even though I still really love Mega, but not with Mega who loves Albi so much.

Finally a month before the wedding took place, I again convinced Mega to accept my love and accept me as Alka instead of Albi. And God was so good to me, he made it easy for me to be with Mega. Slowly he began to love me with all his heart and left Albi in his past.

One thing that surprised me a little, the real truth of Grandma Mega. That's Nina. He told me everything about Mega. Especially his past that made Mega so far experience a deep trauma because of his own carelessness that never failed to keep his crown. I could only ponder, as if my heart had paused for a moment. There's no way I'm backing down, I already love him.

“If you really love Mega, accept her with her past. No matter how she is now, she is just an ordinary woman who always wants to learn from her past mistakes. But if you don't love him better tell me now, let me take Mega away from your life.”

Grandma's words seemed to give me a loud slap. I tried to convince my heart back, until finally time allowed me to accept it. It turns out that loving is not just about reciprocating the same feeling. Except for everything in his life. Giving, receiving, giving and sacrificing. Reaping dreams together, knitting your heart out, and carving out a beautiful story every second.

Who would have thought that after the happiness happened, the bitter thing came to me and also Mega. When the smile started to crack, the crying broke out instantly.

“Mega... Mega wake up...!!” sobs broke as I watched her last breath.

Everything that comes from God will return to its owner. The ruler of all life. Mega's departure dawned on me a destiny. Death is the last point of separation. I was happy to be a part of his life, painting a smile on his face. It's very short for me, but he and his memories will always be missed. It was me who loved her very much, Alka Adidaryo.

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