ERRONEOUS

PROLOGUES

MEGA LESMAN POV

West Frisian Island is a silent witness to the sadness I am feeling right now. The unrelenting whirring of the wind fluttered my hair, making a melodious sound from the swaying weeds.

Not many know where I am here. I purposely walked away from the strange life in my homeland. I want to take away the pain that keeps raining down my heart if I'm still there.

Only a hope has brought me to this place. Millions of dreams have been set in the memory of the future. A strand of hope that is summed up into prayer. Wishing there was a sincerity that could and could accept my presence especially me who was no longer perfect.

The serenity began to permeate my soul. Breathing in the fresh air while closing both my eyes.

God, show me where I'm going. Which path should I take. For I am at this moment in the crossroads of a dilemma that leaves my heart dead, my mind empty and my body tired.

Since the passing of my parents a year ago, it has changed my life. Alone ... and lonely. What scares me is the situation with myself. The circumstances in which I kept wondering, am I worthy of love?

Where my heart keeps chiding. Is there a man who wants to be with me who has been someone else's ex? is there anyone who can love me sincerely? there may be .. but I don't know who that is.

"Basarly a cheap woman! you can be fooled by the name of love! if he really is in love, there is no way he would ruin you like this! where's his conscience? why would you want to do that! obviously you know for yourself that if he really never loved you, he just wanted your body!"

I had to swallow the bitter pill. I don't know what to talk to Damar. While doing that I couldn't resist every touch of Sahrul. It is only for the reason of having love that has taken hold of my heart and mind that I am unable to control myself.

"I love you Mega .. but I can't .. sorry."

Like being struck by lightning in a hole. At that time, Damar had intended to introduce me to his parents. But everything just crumbled. Because Sahrul has ruined everything.

Damar can't accept me anymore. Because for him, virginity remains above all else. He chose to leave me and look for another woman, who was certainly still a virgin. Ever since that fight, I've chosen to walk away from her life. Learning to love her and the way to love me all this time that I might miss.

I often think, is that as bad as I was in his eyes? just because I had mistakes in the past, no matter how hard I defended myself, I would always be wrong in his eyes. I used my heart so much that I forgot about my flaws.

Now I realized, I felt a sense of dilemma that enveloped my heart. Maybe the fear that I always rested on, made the heart of Damar that was originally for me. I love her, even her gentle treatment makes me forget my flaws.

Everything has happened, regret is meaningless. Now, no one needs to be regretted. I guess, her sincere love is able to accept and cover up my past mistakes. However, it turns out that I was .. mistaken.