DiLeMa LOVE

Love's Dilemma

Syifa felt that time was like a snail that was running too slow because of the heavy burden of her house. He fell asleep without end. Looking for a foothold in the middle of the pitch. Walking without purpose. Falling awake looking for a glimmer of hope, looking for a way out of the darkness that feels gripping.

He continued walking despite crawling. As forcefully as he dragged his body forward aimlessly. Suddenly he slipped his body floated then was snatched violently. Crumpled, his entire body was in pain. He grimaced with the pain. And that's when he saw a beam of light far away, very far away.

" Syifa..... Syifa.." a voice dragged him towards the light. The light was more real and bright, so bright that it hurt the view.

Syifa blinked her eyes slowly, her eyes hurt as the light greeted her pupils, her reflexes squinted adjusting to the intensity of the light in the room. Slowly she lifted her eyelashes.

Seen Adi standing beside him, not believing in his vision, feeling like a dream, Syifa looked at Adi fixedly and then appeared other faces, Roy, Riska, Susi and all her classmates stood in Syifa's room. Syifa looked at them one by one and stopped at Adi who was now glazed over.

His memory again plays the episode where he sits gratefully in front of the isolation ward, more precisely in front of the glass that separates him and his mother.

" mother.... "his whisper is hoarse, his tears flow gently up to the top of the ears wet his hair. "where is the mother.....? " demand him impatient. The faces of his silent friend. Most of them looked sad. Syifa swallowed the bitter saliva she hoped that at this time Mother was still being treated, she hoped that it was only a decline in postoperative health.

Strengthen my heart O Allah, give the servant help to patiently accept this ordeal.......O Allah.do not let anything worse befall us.

" is my mother still being cared for, as bad as the handling that I received this time "Syifa is rummaging not necessarily the direction "anyone please, take me to my mother's place, I beg you.... Roy.. "the question to Roy is only answered with a sad head.

" do...do.my mother........?" his question guessed, Roy nodded while looking away, unable to see Syifa's face.

" O Allah... So soon Thou hast called mother ... why dost thou not give the servant a chance. Suddenly he felt as if his body was boneless. All his strength to yawn with the certainty that now he has been abandoned.

" we mourn the death of your mother Syifa, you who are steadfast." whispered Riska while holding Syifa's hand strengthened, just after Syifa calmed down.

" Riska can please take me to mother "pinta Syifa expectantly.

" i'm sorry Syifa. "doubt Riska replied, now she can no longer hold back her tears.

" why Ris? is it because of my condition?"

Her tears flowed slowly. Riska clasped her hands tightly. I hope it strengthens Syifa's heart. He was losing his strength, his body seemed to float, feeling the pain of the endless. Even at the last moment he was not allowed to see his mother.

" what a sin I have. so that I am not allowed to take my mother away......."

" no Syifa, you've tried, you've tried your best "honor Riska.

Syifa closed her eyes, imagining herself in the middle of her mother's funeral. Imagining himself is now squatting beside his mother's vortex that is still wet and filled with colorful flowers. Sow more flowers. In the hope of rain falling spatter accompanied by a gentle wind, some falling leaves scattered with the wind.

Forgive Syifa mother... forgive Syifa........O Allah. Give him a place beside You. Verily I testify that she deserves it, the mother is the one who sacrificed her soul for the family, O God.... Ridhoi his departure gave the servant help to make room for his path to eternity......

" Syifa." whispered Riska worried to see Syifa long silent while closing her eyes.

Syifa opened her eyes, looking at Riska's worried face that was troubling her imagination. Syifa smiled, felt a little better, and calmed her friends, even though her heart was beautiful.

One by one his friends said condolences and then came out, leaving Adi and Roy who had been silent since.

Silence, none of them intended to break the silence. Syifa looked at Adi and Roy who seemed like their relationship was much better. Syifa became the center of attention of both of them. Their eyes exuded regret, a deep regret for letting Syifa go through such a difficult time alone.

" why not tell me since yesterday" Adi protested a little unacceptable.

" yes, at least if you tell me, we can nemenin you through this difficult time "Roy does not want to lose protesting Syifa's silence.

" i don't know if I think of anything but my mother "Syifa replied laughing at the last moments with her mother. "go I want to be alone, shouldn't you comfort me? "

" sorry "with Adi and Roy saying.

" it's okay, I have to be sincere "so Syifa said, tears still wet her cheeks.