CORONAS

36. YUVA

 

My name is Yuvalika Julias. Commonly called Yuva. Nineteen years old and studying IT. I had brain cancer three years ago. In any part of the world, teenagers who are suddenly exposed to malignant disease must be traumatized. At that time, I had lost my spirit when I learned this news from the doctor.

Then the doctor advised me to immediately switch to using a caldier. Ah, it's a life-sustaining necklace commonly worn by people with malignant diseases. On the front is a small screen containing numbers. Then we will begin to be tasked with helping others to add to the numbers in the necklace. I see him quite often. If it's not wrong at my school there are also some who wear. One of them is Ellan. Maybe I can consult him when I'm already wearing a caldier. Ah, without realizing my spirit of life is back again. Okay, I'll wear it soon.

Not long after that I began to consult with Eldan often. He's a good man. Not only did he explain many things about the caldier in his way, he also wanted to accompany me to collect Life Point. We work together often and we get together more and more. The more I get together, and the more I like him. Who would have thought she was my girlfriend by now.

When he had his birthday, I gave him the Hitameong patterned accessories – of my favorite characters. I know he's not very interested in my favorite character. But who cares. I will keep forcing him. Eldan would have followed suit because of Eldan being a fool. The stupidest people I care about. Although we often collect Life Point together, but I am often not serious. The important thing is to be with Eldan. As for Life Point, as long as there are hundreds, I don't panic. It will be collected later too.

Once we were dating to collect Life Point. Eldan was waiting for me in the garden where we promised. He was kicking with that stinking voice. I'm just gonna hit him. Then the mission to collect Life Point was done. Today I didn't manage to collect many numbers. Different from before. Maybe it was because I had not helped others for a long time, so my ability to help was reduced and made the person I helped not feel so satisfied.

But Elton had another idea. He took me to Kaldier Center to check my necklace for damage or not. When checked there, there was indeed no disturbance to my caldier. I'm getting frustrated.

Then we turned to our acquaintances who were also having the same problem as me. Aunt Viola. We try to get input from him. But it seems that what is expected is not in accordance with reality. Aunt Viola is at a critical time. He said different things had happened that he felt. But he did not explain in detail. He left a mystery so that we ourselves were looking for him.

I tried to think about it, but Eldan advised us to focus on finding Life Point. I agreed. Then our activities to help others were continued in the following days. We found a pair of young brides – maybe – who are moving. He looked at me and Eldan with disdain. These were like the signs that Aunt Viola had said back then. In my heart I wanted to pry that look of disdain.

Justright. I didn't get the Life Point I deserved from my help and hard work. And the couple also said something unpleasant. I wanted to teach them that moment too. But I can still hold back. Ellan took me somewhere else. The result is the same. I can conclude that what Aunt Viola said the other day is about the paradigm of normal society without disease for caldier users. They already consider us as lowly humans.

I rack my brain when I'm alone. How can I help again if the one being helped is ungrateful? Don't they have a family that has a dangerous disease and uses a caldier? Are they too confident in the modern health system to make them sure they will not get dangerous diseases? I still want to live to be with Eldan. But if this keeps up, I won't be able to live much longer. People are getting worse at heart. They have lost empathy. I want to make them all feel the way I feel.

Then suddenly I got an idea to make sure of something. With my expertise in hacking, I use laptops and internet connections to hack important data from the kaldier. My guess is exact. In fact, Kaldier only suggested to help others. It is unclear whether it helps in good or bad. My smile at that moment grinned. But this is still a guess. I have to make sure first. The next day I approached a group of kids who like to gather in the game area at the mall. With a little disguise. I promised them to get a lot of coupons when I attached a magnetic scanner to the game machine they were playing.

They comply. When the magnetic scanner was attached, I started the hack by scanning the networks and systems on the machine and I changed the program as I wanted. The kid wins a lot of coupons and can trade them for money. I approached him again with that happy look. My Kaldier started scanning and I got Life Point by a huge amount. I was stunned for a moment. My theory worked and I didn't expect to get this big Life Point.

I'm continuing this action from starting to look for criminals and fugitives who want to work together. Determine the target of theft. And helping in other crimes. I earned a lot of Life Point. I happy. Don't forget Aunt Viola I'm working together and she wants to. This way I can still continue living together with Eldan. I suppose so. Ja. I thought it would be like that. Until finally Eldan caught me and shed all my expectations.

I understand that my actions are evil. But there is no other way. And this way is like the implied way that the caldier system itself does. It definitely has to be used. And the matter of Eldan constantly urging me to stop making me sad. Does he not want me to live on? He had thought a lot about the good way. But those ways are useless in the middle of the paradigm of normal society that is already increasingly disgusted to see users like us. Other than raising Life Point, this is certainly my act of revenge. Because I have made sure that my targets are non-caldier users.

Then it was time to think of a bigger way. Arfi called me the other day and wanted to work together. Therefore, I ordered Arfi to make a mess and was deliberately arrested. When he was in prison, I ordered him to install a magnetic scanner that he carried in his body so that I could hack the prison. Prison I managed to screw up. Many prisoners managed to escape. I waited on the other side not far from the prison and waited for Arfi's arrival. Who would have thought that Eldan was also with her.

I put on an ordinary look. Pretending to be not surprised when he saw Eldan who is also a prisoner with Arfi. But I gave him a ride to get out of here. And dig up information from him. Because I saw Life Point Eldan was half gone. I'm upset to hear my girlfriend's saying this – in my heart I still want to admit it so. Because I can deduce that Life Point can be bought with money. Kaldier hid this. Well, if that's what they want, I'm also going to put on a worse show than releasing prison inmates.

When I took down Eldan, he asked me if I was still his love. I wanted to say I'm still. Even I wanted to directly hug her and cry in her arms. But I can't. The memories of her repeatedly bothering me made me hold back my feelings. I left him with a cold word. Then he surprised me by handing Hitameong gloves over to my hands. Then just leave. When I received the gift, I cried in silence. He still remembers this kind of thing. He managed to turn my heart.

Even so, my grudge for the treatment of non-users of the caldier did not subside. I have arranged a plan in advance when the situation is desperate. I gathered the people who had the virus and divided the virus into a container that I prepared. I will spread the viruses when the time comes.

Then be right. After I was appointed a fugitive, Mr. Fredi threatened to surrender. I responded with the threat of releasing dangerous disease viruses throughout the city. But it is the basis of Eldan. He still stands in the way of my plan. He came to my place. Trying to persuade me and give her conjecture and conclusion to me. And it turns out that Eldan's conjecture was justified by Mr. Fredi who suddenly appeared and gave a more detailed explanation. That the caldier is there to save the people with dangerous diseases and make him live a useful life.

I fell and gave up. Completely give up on this life. Until I was transferred to sanatorium 0, I didn't want to do anything there. I don't want to talk to anyone, including Eldan. In the midst of my despair, I walked out leaving 0. It was my decision to give up on life. A moment after a few steps outside, the shouting sound of a person I knew very well pounced on me from behind. I didn't look and stay ignorant. Then I felt my head getting dizzy and my whole body weakening. My eyes could no longer open and I was unconscious.

Now, I'm lying in a special emergency room. I can still open my eyes. From the other side, I heard the sound of sobbing from some people. I try to look there slowly. And I found out next to me was the one who always called my name. Eldans. Lying down helpless. His face was no longer as blustery as usual. Pale like losing light.

The sounds of crying came from Arfi, Kak Alma, bang Auron, Aunt Viola. From their unhappy faces, it seemed like I could deduce what had happened. Plus Alma's sister stammered saying Eldan's name. I feel like I am aware of reality. From my eyelids there is something trying to break out. I forced my body to rise, but I couldn't. I'm too weak.

I want to go near her soon. I want to hold her, hold her tight, and spill all my regrets on her. I want him to listen to me once more. I want to say it directly near his ear. “I'm sorry, Eldan.”

AFTERWORD

Coronae. Is the outermost atmosphere of the sun that can only be seen with the help of a device or during a total solar eclipse. Especially during an eclipse. The ring of fire that was shaped like a ring on the outskirts of the full black sphere looked beautiful and mesmerizing. But don't look at it too long. Because its beauty can kill one of your senses. Also, because something beautiful can make you suffer.

Basically, people are afraid of death. People are racing to maintain their health. Exercise, provide nutritious food intake, as well as scientists who continue to do their research for medical purposes. All this is done so that humans can stay healthy, heal the sick, and reduce the death rate. Well, humans are afraid of death.