Challenging Love

meet gilska

The next day Eldira was not preoccupied with all his proposals with Rasya, no more worry about his relationship gradually improving and in accordance with his expectations, Rasya always took his time for Eldira.

"Ra's so happy, how does it feel to be proposed?" sisi asked on the sidelines of his problems.

"happy tired, afraid also if it doesn't go well it feels like all mixed into one si" Eldira answered his friend's question with a smile.

"i wish you all well, Ra! it's almost 60% of the preparation, and you handle everything yourself, cool!!!" take the later side.

"chuck you, but fortunately Rasya also contributed" Eldira sat down and drank water in front of him as if his body was starting to need fluids.

"haus Ma!!" sisi looked at Eldira while laughing.

"you're not tired! let's have lunch first, mama is ready come on!!" mama Eldira offers lunch.

***

When Eldira prepared the application event with enthusiasm Rasya did not feel confident.

"Why you?" ask Aunt Nonik who seemed to understand her son was agitated.

"no!! no problem, mama don't need to be confused all the preparation is mature ma, me and Eldira who take care!" Rasya explained with a smile from Aunt Nonik.

"What makes your child reflect, this is your choice Rasya, mama never want to interfere with everything you decide, as long as you are happy whatever it is mama will support him!" Aunt Nonik was sitting next to Rasya, Rasya looked at him for a while and looked back down.

"look happy or not?" tanya Rasya makes Aunt Nonik embrace her son's shoulder.

"lately you've been thinking a lot, why?? same story mom!"

"Rasya is committed, and Rasya just wants to take responsibility for the decision Rasya made!"

"Happy or not?" tanya Aunt Nonik made Rasya look at her.

"no ma, Rasya does not want to disappoint many people!"

"but you're disappointing yourself! what you decide is right Rasya, a good man is the one who upholds his commitment and responsibility, that is if you have to take responsibility, it means that if you're already a legitimate priest, there's no reason to deny that commitment, but actually if you're worried why you should propose to Eldira?" Rasya was a little surprised by his mother's words.

"what does mama mean?"

"mama doesn't mean anything don't hurt someone because of your selfishness, but don't hurt yourself for your dishonesty, you already want to prepare lunch for papa!" mama passed away leaving Rasya who was back pensive.

***

After the incident Rasya embraced gilska last week, Rasya did not meet again with gilska, which is why Rasya was steady to choose eldira, because there was no more interference from gilska, because there was no more interference from the gilska, but just now the emptiness enveloped his mind, there was a glimmer of longing that Rasya felt.

Rasya decides to go to Gilska and leave the house, at least before he has a fiancee and wife.

A few minutes passed now Rasya is right in front of the house gilska, the house looks deserted. Rasya walked closer and knocked on the door as yet no word from the owner of the house, Rasya again knocked and the door opened, seeing gilska standing in front of him as if his longing paid off.

"God!!" gilska looks shocked to see the person he loves standing in front of him.

"please come in, I'll make you drink first huh?" ask gilska.

"i'm good Rasya, but my body!! not with my mind, mama's gone and I left all of us last week, the day after I met you!" gilska shed her tears.

Rasya just confused looking at the person he loves even when gilska needs him he never existed, there is regret in Rasya now.

"i'm sorry, I'm sorry I didn't know, if I knew for sure I would be there for you!" rasha said.

"thank you Rasya, I really don't want to bother you, how are you?" gilska asked Rasya.

"i'm good" Rasya was still staring at gilska.

"how are your plans, I heard that your papa has come home, so you're getting married?" gilska's question was not answered by Rasya.

But how else would it be impossible for him to hide from Gilska. Rasya just nodded slowly.

"hopefully the show is smooth" continued Gilska made Rasya a little surprised, gilska prayed for him.

"are you sincerely gilska?" rasha asked curiously.

"man only plans, right, God determines, besides that I've tried, right? what am I trying for if you don't want to?" gilska returned the question to rasya.

"forgive me gilska." answered Rasha softly.

"there's nothing to forgive you're innocent, it's just me who's too hopeful, I've lost everything, even now I don't care about my life!" gilska started sobbing.

"what can I do for you?" rasha asked trying to comfort her ex-boyfriend.

"no need, maybe I'll find a future husband and get married and dedicate my life to him, start a happy new family, take care of my son, sounds wonderful right?" gilska's answer seemed to slice through Rasha's heart, where perhaps she could let go of gilska.

If Gilska has to move on with her life and be happy with others, it feels unwelcome, Rasya still feels so much love for gilska, two years of romance, doing so many things together, he said, and always happy there is almost no quarrel, and Rasya feels only gilska is able to melt his heart.

"actually I can't even see you with anyone else?" rasha lirih.

"how do we forget each other, how do we?"

"either gilska, maybe I'll postpone the marriage until I can forget you, it's very unfair for my future wife if I marry her without love!"

"come home Rasya, thank you for everything!" gilska told his ex-girlfriend to go home.

"if anything, what's the matter call me?"

"and you're coming or not?" gilska awaits Rasya's reply.

"i'll come, I'll always be there for you, I'll come back!" Rasya gently stroked gilska's hair.

"be careful" Gilska drove him to the front door.

When Rasya was in the car it was difficult to leave Gilska alone, would still grieve to lose his spirit. If he hadn't had a new relationship, it wouldn't have been this difficult. Rasya felt that he had tried to love Eldira but why his love for gilska seemed to hinder his efforts.