Challenging Love

the wounded heart

still in a state of turmoil Eldira preparing to go home from work hours have shown at 4 pm, although the day he passed was not as usual felt very long, finished tidying up some files Eldira holding a bag on his right side, he said, his steps stopped when his phone rang.

"hallo Ra, I'm waiting for you at the usual cafe?" said the young man across made Eldira's chest tick, not yet answered Eldira mobile phone turned off unilaterally.

"Rasya" he mumbled softly, there was fear in Eldira's heart Rasya's speech was not like someone who missed because some days did not meet, or maybe Rasya would have been a bad thought brushed aside Eldira.

***

Eldira had arrived at the cafe where Rasya wanted to meet, from a distance the handsome young man who was in his heart now, Eldira's steps closer and his heart was very fast beating.

"how's bang doing?" tanya Eldira approached Rasya who seemed to come first.

"he's good Ra, are you??" rasha looked at Eldira.

"not good" Eldira said, sitting without welcome.

"what do you want to order?" ask Rasya again.

"chocolate is hot, my heart is hot!" eldira replied uninspired.

Rasya immediately called the waiter to prepare Eldira's order, his behavior was a little awkward compared to usual.

"where is bang? his phone's online but isn't it bales a message from Dira?" tanya Dira was impatiently looking for answers that had made her careless.

"sorry, I'm calming down!" rasha replied, not daring to look at Eldira.

"calm yourself for what? do we have a problem ? why do you always leave if there is a problem? can't talk about it ?" Eldira had no power to stem his tears, behind his words there was fear of loss.

"sorry Ra, I admit I was wrong, I make you sad I'm sorry, but everything is out of my control" Rasya's reply hinted at asking Eldira

"what can you not control bang, your feelings? or for a few days you were with someone, enjoying the day by leaving me without any news?" Eldira tried to stop his crying.

"not at all I'm not with anyone, but Ra can you still be patient? I've been trying but I don't know, there's still a shadow of the past that I can't stop!" glegs...

this time Rasya's words made Eldira's tears come back, leaving a Delon for someone who until now could not love him, just because Eldira loved him so much, Eldira felt that everything he sacrificed was not comparable, even now Delon will knit his future with someone, and Eldira was already knitting a new love that was not strong at all, Eldira just fell silent.

"i still want to continue with you, but I need some time and I beg you for understanding?"

rasya's words were still unanswered Eldira his mouth was silent now.

"don't cry Eldira, I love you, I don't even doubt you're my chosen good wife-to-be, not another, my mind wants you Ra, my mind wants you, if I may choose I want to love you, I just want to be honest, please help me Ra?" Rasya tried to hold Eldira's hand, there was no resistance from Eldira.

"waiting?? till when? or until what kind of situation? until you love me or until you decide that this is all for nothing?" Eldira tried to speak even though he was stamped.

"nothing is free, I want to hold on to the commitment I have made, everything I have decided I never want to change Dira, Dira,even to marry you is the biggest decision I don't want to change, only I ask your tolerance for my heart?" as if understanding what Rasya said Eldira wiped away all his tears with a tissue.

"if I can accept you, is this the life you want? married without love and for the rest of your life you only hope there will be love growing from your heart, then what if there is still no love until the age of twilight marriage, is your life not in vain?" eldira.

The waiter delivered Eldira's order, immediately drank warm chocolate at least to make himself calmer.

"much have I left for you? the one who loves me? all I'm solving is one-sided for you? and after we walk together at will you leave me without news, do not close the desire all repeated right? what guarantee is that you're not leaving me?" Eldira was desperate, if Rasya had to leave his life he would not be willing even though his heart was very sore.

"then what do you want Ra? or do you want to look back, and be with someone who loves you more than me, before we go a long way or do you want to stop our steps?" rasha's question made Eldira feel like he was struck by lightning, "no!" the screams of Eldira's heart.

"that's not you want me, veleria gilska!!! you'll be happy to go back to her, won't you?" ask Eldira.

"is everything up to you?? I still want to continue this relationship!" Rasya drinks a cofee in front of him.

"we live as usual, can you not repeat again leaving me without news?" eldira replied dropping her pride.

"i'll try Ra, thank you?" rasha replied with a slight smile making Eldira have no other choice.

"do you want me to come home?" ask Rasya again.

"no need to take a car, I'm home, I have an appointment with my mom!" Eldira again put the bag on the right side, and moved.

"greetings to your mama, Ra?" Rasya also stood up.

"okay bang, bye!" eldira said, leaving Rasya sitting down.

This is the love Eldira wants!! the harsh reality even at the beginning of a journey that should be beautiful, rasha's heart is not for him to be able to Eldira survive, 6 years with Delon Eldira happiness is the top priority, the first priority, even delon had a fight with his brother because of a misunderstanding to defend and protect Eldira, but all had passed Delon had found his own way, Eldira seemed to want to run as far as possible and scream as loud as possible.

***

"why isn't she getting eaten soon?" ask Adam at dinner.

"no lust, brother!" answered Eldira lazily.

"yes because of what? that old body plus skinny ugly tau!!" looks of annoyance on Adam's face.

"it's new, dam, but Eldira likes to eat food!" mama replied a little annoyed at Eldira's behavior.

"don't see if any more kids get tangled in gini ma, which means Dira needs attention!" answered Eldira staring at the spoiled mama.

"you want to be fed to mama?" tanya mama softens.

"can!! uh but don't ma, ga lust!" answer again.

"you want what Ra? oh or because the young man you just dated is making a tantrum, did I say back to Delon, right ma?" brother Adam Mecari conspiring friend.

"just!! it's up to you to mama!" mama did not want to make things worse let alone see Eldira who was a little tangled.

"i'm the same he's still on good terms brother, pray well don't even pray that no-how the hell brother?" Eldira glared as if covering up his sadness.

"you're up to Ra!" answer brother Adam

The atmosphere of the night that should be awaited by Eldira there is brother adam and mama who accompany his dinner, if bang Rasya loves him, exciting maybe if bang Rasya also join dinner, Eldira had to smile bitterly to live his life now, but his mind assured Rasya would love him someday even greater than Delon's love for him. "ah Eldira believed as high as possible muttered in his heart"