Butterflys

Fact

For two days I hadn't seen Hana, I didn't understand why she seemed to just disappear when there was something I wanted to tell her about something I accidentally knew from Maika, about the parlour, about the home, childhood and Ezu.

This is what I want to say that Ezu is me, my little name, grandma often calls me by that name. At the orphanage we first met, at that time I came to the grandmother's place because I was on vacation. Grandma introduced me to you guys, but I didn't seem to care much at the time, that's because I didn't really like the crowd, nor was I the type of person who could get along with someone.

“ Why not play with lain”, ask you that time. It was the first time anyone had spoken to me since I came. “ Come on don't be alone like this, don't you want to play”. I just kept quiet to hear your question. You just look at me without the slightest reaction as you speak. You also sit beside me. “ Alright if you do not want to play, I will accompany you here”. When I heard that I immediately turned to look at you and you looked at me with a smile, at that time I did not understand with your attitude that I thought was strange. The next\-day you were like that too, keeping me company even though I never said anything to you.

“ Have you gone crazy”, I said that made him immediately turn his head and smile at me. “ I think it's true, you keep talking to me even if I don't respond to you a bit”.

“ I don't care about that, but finally you talk to me too, you know that all the\-children here are talking about you”.

“ I don't care”.

“ But I care”.

“ Why?”.

“ I want them to know that in fact you are not who they say you are, you just need time to adjust to people\-new people. I know what it feels like”.

“ I think you misunderstood”.

“ Really”.

“ I don't really like crowds, I prefer myself”.

“ Why do you like yourself? do you know how it really is, the words\-words are too easy for you to say, but you never really feel them. If this is what you call yourself wrong, you see the child\-children, he is still a child but he is alone in this world, while you want to be alone because you do not like the crowd, we here do not want to be alone because we are very afraid of the word\-word it”. I was silent at the moment and just watched you leave. It was the first time someone had scolded me directly in front of me.

“ Ezu”, said grandma sitting next to me.

“ Granny”, I said. “ Grandma, what are all the\-children here like she”.

“ Who?”, ask grandma.

“ That, Ha...na”, I replied remembering his name.

“ Hana, he's a good boy, why? what he made grandma's granddaughter angry”.

“ I just want to be alone, but he scolded me instead, why do I like myself? do you know that feeling of being alone? I don't understand with his attitude, he pisses me off”. Grandma smiled at me and rubbed my head gently.

“ Hana like that does not want to make you angry, make her own words\-word is too sensitive for her, you know why she always accompany you?”. I shook my head. “ Because the\-children are making fun of your\-mockers who don't want to talk or play with them, he wants to make sure that you're not like that”.

“ But I made him angry”.

“ Hana's not mad at you, Ezu. Hana says that so that you understand how to socialize, there are times when we really want to be alone, but you also have to make friends”. I nodded and hugged Grandma.

I began to ventured closer to them and played with them even though it was a little awkward at first but gradually went well.

“ Nek, it's Ezu right?”, asked Hana, grandma nodded. Hana smiled happily at the atmosphere like this. “ Good, Hana joined happy”.

“ Thank you Hana”.

“ Why grandma says that?”.

“ Hana”, my broom suddenly\-sudden. “ Sorry that yesterday, I shouldn't have said stupid\-things”.

“ It is good if you realize”, said Hana then laughed. “ Sorry, I'm sorry” too. I also nodded at his words. Since then me and Hannah have become familiar, but I have to go home because my vacation is over.

“ You will come again?”.

“ Sure”. Hana just smiled then waved her hand seeing my departure. I couldn't even come anymore because we moved to another country back then, I didn't know how to tell you, but I'm sure that grandma told you. Then I got the news that you're not staying in the change anymore, there's a family looking after you, I'm happy to hear it and sad because I can't see you anymore.

I was so happy when Maika told me about you back then, I was glad that you were looking for me, I'm glad that you still remember me, this is what I wanted to tell you, I am the person you've been looking for all this time, Hana, I am Ezu.

“ But..he is where now”.

Revan breathed. For a moment his eyes looked at someone similar to Hana. Slowly Revan approached the figure and sure enough it was Hana, but it seemed that Hana was not alone because she seemed to be talking to someone. “ Viran”. Revan thinks something because lately Viran has always been with Hana, there are things that Viran knows but not with him, he said, he has no idea and Viran is very easy to meet with Hana while he does not know where Hana is.

“ Revan”. call Hana. Hearing Hana call him Revan rushes away. “Revan ”, call Hana again but Revan doesn't mind it seems Revan is a little angry at Hana.

Suddenly Viran blocked the path of Revan so quickly that he was surprised to see Viran already in front of him.

“ Revan, Hana calls you”.

“ Then?”.

“ Revan, there's something I want to tell you”.

“ But I don't want to hear it”.

“ What?”.

“ Right now I'm busy, I don't have time”, he saidleaving Hana.

“ If you don't want to hear it now, I will wait for you at the usual place, 3 o'clock, I will wait for you, you listen to Revan”, Hana shouted but Revan passed away regardless of what he said. “ Why she behaves like that to me”.

“ Looks like she's upset”.

“ Upset?”.

“ Upset at jealousy”.

“ Why?”.

“ You are not aware that you are disappearing, he keeps looking for you, once you see him, he even sees me with you too, is that not the name jealously”.

“ If his reaction is like that, will he come?”.

“ I will make sure he will come if need I can drag him come in front of you”.

“ Wah...Viran, have you gone crazy”.

“ Might”, he said that made Hana laugh and Viran also laughed.