Brotherhood Idaman
The Part 52
[ Forgive her? ]
“I almost lost it..” muttered Laiqa inwardly as the handsome man in front of him was enjoying the ice cream as their meal cover this time carefully. Her body doesn't know what to do, she feels terrible about her husband.
Laiqa only daydreamed when her husband took her after eating to another mall area. Could it be that bad for this gentle-handed Brotherhood?
She shook her head, realizing how often the face was implied when she saw the face of her husband. Of all things, it could be possible because they are both similar, even her husband is more perfect, but why is it that often the reality does not work well.
Why isn't the past finished, too? Is it because he is so stupid about love? Or because he was so weak from all the whispers of the Shaiton around him.
That time,
They have bought some electronics that would have been used in Medina. And all in mini size. Busy days and uncertain weather there made them decide to buy goods that are a little complicated in Indonesia, and only buy goods that are easy to carry while in Medina.
She even said when her husband said there was no need to bring a lot of clothes except for a long-handed negligee. Because thick and heavy clothes like abayas and some robes they will buy in Medina.
Laiqa was more silent then more precisely.he was at a loss what to do. And afraid to make mistakes again.
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They are already in the car. They were silent for a long time, until Syamil said,
“Eye view is very dangerous” Syamil said.
They pass through a large boulevard road with a very fast car rate, then turn towards the housing concept of golf hills.
Laiqa's heart was racing.
“You can be wretched if you do not keep your eyes.” Syamil said again. This time it looks serious.
At that time Laiqa understood that her husband was advising her, how dangerous the eyes that could make a person's heart become infatuated with something even difficult to forget even if it was not halal.
“Logic will not be able to walk, common sense will be lost, a lot of slander will happen, even if there is one thing that can precede destiny, all of it comes from the evil of eye sight.”
“And you can lose it all just because of the eyesight”
“You look down but the eyes of your heart always see and think about it it is also a crime”
Laiqa now dared to look at Syamil. Looking at her husband inside.
“Do you not trust me?” ask Laiqa.
“I'm not talking about Ahsan” Syamil said at that time immediately returned his gaze. He sighed.
“In Madinah there I mean, stop looking at anything. Never think of being the center of attention. Wear a veil, for there is no better garment than black for the evil of eye sight. Ain's disease is real.”
Laiqa lowered her head, in fact she was moved and understood how scared her husband felt. But not by accusing him like this. Really all this time he really understood what Ain's disease and always keep the attitude and keep the view. It's just…
Laiqa looked at the scenery outside the car window. They stop on a hill that presents a view of the city with sparkling lights at night.
Her husband opened the door and leaned against the front side of the car near the door where Laiqa was sitting. Highlights of the lights, the silence of the night, and the figure of her husband standing there is a very perfect beauty.
He then opened the door slowly.
Go to him, and stand beside him.
Syamil breathed,
“This is what you will encounter there every day, silence, calmness, strong winds sweeping across your face, coldness, and one thing I sometimes fear, will remain lonely even though I have been with you there”
Laiqa stared at the thousands of glowing lights below. A cloudy sky, a piercing chill.
“Many things that I have to let go when fighting for you, justify you” Syamil said. “But it's all not important”
Laiqa bowed, Shamil indeed had to get out of the Dormitory and accompany him in a contract later in Medina. He had to reconnect further to go to Campus. Take her vacation to ask for it. To recount his affairs with the sheikh is important only to him. Even though he didn't say it, Laiqa knew it all.
Syamil touched his face slowly making Laiqa reflexively stare at Syamil's face.
“Beautiful.." said Syamil slightly stunned then stopped his movement. He looked down and looked at anything other than Laiqa.
"you know I love you so much…? because God. Because of Allah as well I am still standing here believing all your lies” Syamil said again making Laiqa stunned.
The smile that slowly disappeared turned into tears..
“Dan forgave him.” Syamil said again while rubbing Laiqa's face full of tears.
“Because I have promised responsibility for everything before God, do we have to stop here?”
Laiqa shook her head and quickly hugged Syamil tightly.
“Please don't go.!” said Laiqa “Stay by my side.”
“Stay like that, that's what makes me love you more” said Laiqa.
“What if I stop?. What if I'm tired? Will you stop loving me? I've said that taking Education is not easy, stop now before it's too late, you will feel bored, feel difficult, feel like giving up especially coupled with problems like this that have not been finished also”
Laiqa just shut up, though,
“insyaAllah you will feel the spirit back when you see my face, and that is how I was destined to exist in this world, beside you.?” Laiqa muttered slowly.
Syamil felt his chest rumble violently, he even sighed violently like a person who had just sprinted. Staring at Laiqa in disbelief, those words were so Magical coming out from him with eyes that exuded both a beautiful aura as well as an aura of lies.
“when all that happens, you just have to look at my smile.you just have to turn the negative word into a positive word. And of all that there is no reason for me to leave other than by your side, by our children, to build the Sakinah family, mawaddah, warahmah, wadakwah.”.
Syamil only saw that and kept thinking that Laiqa was trying to pretend to love him. All very disgusting lies.
“Remember, God is according to the prejudice of his servant. Nothing is impossible for God, you must believe”
Syamil nodded, But still he could read what was in his wife's heart from those beautiful eyes.
Indeed he knew very well, the figure had not completely disappeared from the memory of his wife.
“Good.”.Syamil. “If you don't want to stop. Nor will I stop" Syamil said with another intention that would surely shock Laiqa greatly.
Laiqa smiled and said. “Thanks.”
Syamil was stunned, and lowered his head.
“I also want to be in your heart, like he” Syamil said then raised his face slowly staring at Laiqa.
Laiqa frowned.
“It's in your imagination.In your fantasy of a Brotherhood you have trouble getting”
Laiqa gulped, he could not even say another word.
His heart started beating fast.
Syamil then took a quick step towards the car door and entered, then sat in front of the steering wheel.
Laiqa stared at it in disbelief. What more test will God give for him?.
She opened the door slowly and sat down and looked at her husband who was silent.
Laiqa lowered his head, the figurative language was too difficult to understand. Exactly what would her husband do after this to her.
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It's been a very late day. The house is empty, no sign of life. They're in the room. Then Syamil entered the bathroom quickly and came out without saying anything. He sat on the couch and slept there.
Laiqa looked at it strangely.
“If I were Ahsan, there was no way we could sleep in one bed right?”
Laiqa frowned.
“What does that mean?”
“I told you clearly, and need not be clarified again?”
Laiqa sighed in disbelief.
“Why do it all??”
“Sleep, and pray the right one” Syamil said then pulled the blanket and slept without answering anything.
Laiqa looked at herself on the glass in the toilet. He took off his hijab slowly while thinking.
She came out of the bathroom and was shocked when she saw a hijab t-shirt in front of the bathroom door. On it is a paper.
“Assalamualaykum Laiqa. I command you to wear this hijab while sleeping, and wherever you are with me. Never open your hijab. Jazakillah Khairan Jaza – Syamil”
Laiqa sighed in disbelief once more. Is it true what her husband did?. She nodded and immediately put on her headscarf. Compared to seeing his anger, there was no harm in him following this game that would somehow end when. He began to understand that forgiving was not as easy as saying it.
Laiqa sat on the edge of the mattress and lay asleep while continuing to stare at her husband's back.
"Yang ..are you really going to do this?.." asked Laiqa without being heard by Syamil. She saw a list of her husband's busy activities tomorrow in Indonesia before they left for Medina. What to go with him, with a wife who is now considered like everyone else.
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