Brotherhood Idaman

Part 49's

Relinquish

What makes the Surah Al Insyirah now only floating in the memory?.

Ahsan, he was staring blankly, chanting the istighfar in his heart while hugging the void, looking at the various medical devices attached to his body with a single silent glance.

Want to shed these false tears about a feeling too far away. About someone who is always present in his dreams. About the taste that should not be present this deep. But in the end, never a single drop of tears came out of his eyes.

Because a verse is still floating in memory, which bandages every incision in his heart.

After the trouble there is ease.

He could not even nod and stand up straight to just accept the situation, not to be sad anymore. This heart still belongs to man, even as clear as that verse that God made, it still feels very painful to see reality.

What makes this verse just wave at him?

Suddenly the door of the room opened.

Ahsan looked unexpectedly at the figure that had just entered. He could not move much when the man showed a signal he could enter with his hand.

Ahsan only showed his thumb a sign he was fine if the person entered.

And it was Syamil El Fath, a man in a dark gray ash-shirt with a box flannel shirt that was left unbuttoned. A person who makes the room inside his chest feel cramped and stifling.

The man was carrying a very large fruit parcel, containing grapes, avocados, oranges, strawberries, mangoes and even melons as well as watermelons.

"Assalamualaykum aki.." said Syamil with a shady look as usual reflected behind the glasses.

Ahsan looked at it carefully while returning the greetings.

"Waalaykumsalam.what's the matter?" Ask Ahsan

Wishing that humans are sick. This heartbreak saw their happiness also hurt. But even more ill is seen as weak by someone who has always been a rival in the MHQ race.

"A long time ago we didn't meet." Syamil.

"It hasn't been too long. Maybe antum is unconscious when we've met at someone's wedding."

Syamil. "Afwan, it felt that day antum looks a lot changed. Ana's not very focused.."

Ahsan nodded.

"Akhwat we met together at that time.." Ahsan seemed to hang his words, provoking the expression of Syamil who really felt a little guilty and pity for him.

He really doesn't like that attitude.

"Barakallahu laka wa Baraka alaika wa jama'a baina kuma fi khair..." Ahsan said with breath made to look very regular. Making all his adrenaline rise when he finally saw how shocked Syamil heard those words.

Syamil looked down and said "jazakallah.."

Syamil then sighed.

The atmosphere is awkward.

"Shaafakallah aki.."

"Aamiin.jazakallah khair. What made antum come here?" Ask Ahsan.

"Ana heard the news of critical antum, is it true that it was because the newspaper that failed to process with antum, married to ana?"

"It looks like antum is feeling above the clouds" Ahsan said, making Syamil surprised.

"What antum will continue like this?, Antum must recover immediately and live life well.not good continues to drag on in unclear feelings" said Syamil a little provoked.

"Not a single event on earth happened, but it was all recorded in the record of life. Everything is arranged by God. And this is not because the marriage antum "Say Ahsan still leaves a strong impression in front of Syamil.

This was all for sure just because of how weak the self that could not control the feelings towards him that had not been lawful. A denial of what God has arranged. And definitely not at all because of who the newspaper will be with if not with him.

"Antum thinks ana believes it?" Ask Syamil.

Ahsan. He forgot that what he was in front of him was no ordinary person. Now he and his estimates are completely wrong. His pretense of looking tough didn't work.

"This is all God's decree. We never even competed. The two of us had met before long ago, indeed, not a rival. We're just fighting to be the best for something valuable." Syamil.

"If antum is a hadith narrator then it is certain that all hadith that antum riwayatkan is dhoif because antum has lied." Say Syamil again.

Ahsan swallowed.

"Stop now .." said Syamil calmer than his tone earlier. "Ana can't see the antum being like this, do the new option. Plan things quickly, busy brains and bodies will bring down disappointed hearts."

Ahsan took a breath.

"Ana just feels uncomfortable with the current position"

"Position that always feels wrong to make decisions, and feels defeated in the face of antum"

Syamil shakes in disbelief.

"Truly God will be fine, this is just a familiar feeling. It feels almost the same as before when ana lost to antum during the MHQ race" Ahsan said.

"really..? Isn't what makes antum uncomfortable is the longing for married people?" Ask Syamil.

Ahsan was speechless digesting Syamil's question intent which strangely all was correct.

"Do antums feel threatened?" Tanya Ahsan is fishing. Maybe Syamil will hit him in the face or even pull out an infusion device that contains oxygen and food liquids.

But there is no anger.

Shamil's face turned lethargic, he seemed to be trying hard to figure out how to express what he felt to Ahsan.

"You're married, of course there's nothing to worry about, antum now her husband? Why take care of people who will soon go to other parts of the province and you will go to other continents?"

"Is there anything more torturous than having but not really having ? Ana has all her body, but unfortunately her heart is still mostly filled with antum." said Syamil with all her courage.

Ahsan could not believe that Syamil El Fath would say something this honest.

"All men are created for that. We have lives. But that life is not ours. Our job is to take care of it as best we can." Ahsan tried to divert the conversation even though in his heart it felt very mixed to find the fact that Laiqa also had the same taste. Until her husband knew it too.

Syamil looked sad.

"Antum certainly.sedang hope the same human.." Ahsan said.

Syamil glanced at Ahsan quickly, frowning. The words felt very sharp through his heart.

"Antum forgets that wishing for human beings is painful? Do as God wants. She is now the wife of Antum. The problem of his heart let God take care of it. But do not waste what God has written. Do as well as you can, as God will. Hope only in God"

Shamil did not believe that Ahsan was the one who had awakened himself who was now faltering.

"You are a very suitable pair of people .ana will not bother you" said Ahsan melted all the walls of longing with one word, namely giving up.

"Antum is a priest, antum can make him love antum. And that's a halal feeling, different from ana. So it's time we were just as willing. Ana let you go. Also antum gave up the feelings of wife antum, and tried to make her fall in love with antum by the ways of God."

Syamil nodded, even though he was older than Ahsan, this man from a long time ago was able to make his heart amazed with a maturity far beyond his age.

"Actually.what keeps you from continuing the marriage process?. You guys seem to have a tendency to each other." Say Syamil later.

"Because there will be a lot of debate on two different dreams in one household. A household cannot have two dreams in different directions, they must go hand in hand."

"Alright.ana understand. What's the next antum plan?" Ask Syamil

Ahsan was grateful, at the care he got from Syamil, it was not at all a pity for him.

"InshaAllah ana will perform a service in Sabang, Aceh. Meet the invitation of special boarding school children victims of disasters who lost their parents."

Ana will find a lot of loss, until ana forgets the loss she felt herself, Ahsan continued in her heart.

"Gig? It's a faraway place." said Syamil.

"When we lose something we need to visit people who are losing in order to feel not only we ourselves are losing. And to not feel pain later on, shouldn't we be prepared to be ready to lose?"

Syamil.

Usually when we think of the worst possibility or even think we will not be able to succeed and put everything to God, God makes it succeed.

For Allah never turns a blind eye to the efforts of His servants. I love people who only hope in God.

"Thinking about the worst possibility, can make God actually give a good thing" said Syamil he must be prepared to lose Laiqa even though they are currently the same trying to make each other happy.

" Be assured that God will not take something but will be replaced with a better one" Syamil said.

Ahsan nodded.

"What about antum?, when are you going to Madinah?"

"God willing - about two weeks away.."

"Madinah, it's a further place" Ahsan said then followed by the ringing of the mobile phone.

At 4 p.m., and on that call came the name My Wife. Syamil pressed the push button to reject the call quickly.

"Yes, very far away." said Syamil later.

He then grabbed Ahsan's shoulder.