Brother-in-law Looked at my Aurat

Wounded

The white singlet sweatshirt on his stomach in an instant turned red as blood spilled from the knife prick.

Horrified! 

I can't believe what I've done. I pulled my hand, while the knife stuck in Brother Zian's stomach.

"Faei ...." Brother Zian seemed to have no power to speak anymore. His face was flushed with pain. From her two eyes came tears.

The mind quickly recalled Mas Raka's message before dying. Asking Kak Zian to take care of me, asking her to marry me, asking me to marry her brother.

After the departure of Mas Raka, will Brother Zian follow his sister because of my actions?

"Faaaai .. ma-af ji-ka I ti-dak bi-sa watch you with ba-ik ...." Suar Kak Zian gasping. Brother Zian's body then leaned forward.

The body now collapsed, falling towards me who was standing stunned.

"Sister?"

My two hands trembled, but I still caught Brother Zian's body. His arms are getting cold. While from his stomach pouring blood down, to my feet.

My mind is screwed up, remember when slandering her stealing dowry, remember when she slapped her chest, remember when she slapped her face, remember stomping her feet, clawing her face. It will also slander Brother Zian will rape me.

The body that had protected me from the drunkards was now .. The body grew limp and I felt no more warmth ....

Is Brother Zian dead?

"Goddessa ....!" I screamed in fear.

Aris came into the kitchen after I shouted.

"Yes, God! What the hell's going on? Brother Zian, wake up!"

Aris carried the body of Kak Zian who now did not move at all into his lap.

"Why Brother Zian? Did Mama hurt him? Answer!" Aris looks emotional. He patted her brother's cheek, shaking his shoulder. He also looked chaotic, seeing the knife still stuck in the stomach of Brother Zian.

"Mama! Bi Fatma! Mr Salim!" call Aris in a loud voice. "Why can Zian be stabbed? What's wrong with Fai? What?!"

"Not me, not me ...."I shook my head. "He's playing knife, he's playing knife ...."

I'm exactly a real crazy person.

"There's no way Brother Zian could hurt himself!"

"Ziaaan!" My mother-in-law came, in shock. "Why Zian? Aris why is he? Why child?"

Mama cried near the body of Brother Zian. Swiping the face of Brother Zian who began to pale.

"No idea, Ma. I'm sure it's Mommy Fai. We're going to the hospital! Ma'am Fai take it in the room. Lock door! He's dangerous!" aris's orders.

Aris immediately carried Zian's sister.

"Zian, awake! Why did this happen to you, son?" Mama must have been devastated by this incident.

"I didn't do anything! Not me! Not me!" I'm scolding. Starting to imagine languishing in prison for injuring Kak Zian.

If I'm considered insane, then I won't go to jail.

Ina and Bi Fatma held my two hands. They didn't take me to the upper room. But to the room in the middle room, the room was usually occupied by Kak Zian.

They were in a hurry because it looked like they were going to the hospital.

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My heart is beating fast. Biting my fingernails, walking back and forth in a scented room. Fragrance Brother Zian.

There was a white shirt hanging from the door, a backpack resting on the head of the bed.

At the table by the bed, there was a black skullcap and a notebook. The book that opens, on it there is a pen that is not closed, a sign that he has just written something.

I repeatedly breathed heavily. Don't know what I'm supposed to do.

I was still going back and forth until dawn. Feeling tired of inner birth. Stop walking in front of a table near the rajang.

Eyes look at Kak Zian's handwriting on a pocket-sized mini book, but it's quite thick. Is this some kind of diary?

I'm not interested in reading it at a time when thoughts are chaotic like this. However, the eyes could not be prevented, I finally lowered my head, read it.

Fai ran, I chased after him.

Fai bursts, I blow it giving it fresh air.

Fai scratched my face, I just kept quiet.

Fai almost got me ganged up on the citizens because he yelled saying I would be indecent to him, I was dizzy. But I can't be mad at him.

I'm a nobody to him, but .. I feel responsible for him.

That'sallthatis. Quite a ridiculous writing. The date and time when writing it. It happened before Brother Zian went to the kitchen earlier. Then I ... either intentionally, or not .. pierced his stomach.

I'm rattled.

On the previous pages, there must have been a lot that he had written.

The bedroom door was opened. I'm terakenak. And turning. Ina opens the door. Ina apparently didn't come to the hospital, and she must have contacted my family.

Naya, Papa and my mama are coming.

Naya was crying, Papa took me into his arms. My mom hugged me. They don't want me to be more depressed.

"Don't repeat, so we don't worry about you" Papa said cautiously. "Think also of Zian being severely injured, pity him. Poor your in-laws."

"Give yourself to the Almighty, pray more, your mind will be calm, son." Mama added.

I choose silence.

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"Pa, Mrs Fai, it has put other people at risk. He had to be treated and taken to RSJ. Aris reported that Zian is still critical. What if Brother Zian dies?"

I eavesdropped on the door of Brother Zian's room which I slightly opened the door.

Papa, Mama, and Naya were discussing in front of Brother Zian's room after advising me.

"Fai is in a very sad condition, papa is sure, as time goes by, he will recover." Papa disagrees with Naya's advice.

"But, Pa. .. Naya's advice is correct, Fai should be taken to a psychiatrist. He must be treated. Or to the asylum ...." Mama supports Naya.

To the mental hospital? Then there I'll hang out with a madman.

No, I don't want to.

When my family was confused by this problem and found a solution to treat me. I climbed up the window of Brother Zian's room, then exited through the side courtyard.

Before that, I took out a blank piece of paper in Kak Zian's diary, then wrote a short message.

"Pa, Ma, and Naya .. I went to calm down. No need to search. I can take care of myself.” Faizara.

I put a short letter on the table.

I got outside the gate and called someone.

"Ren, pick me up ...."

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In an apartment room ....

"For love as we feel, centuries are not enough, Ren. Mas Raka left when my love was so passionate about her."

I spilled it all out, about the deep sadness I had just experienced this time. Also about Mas Raka's last message that wanted me to marry her brother whom I hated.

"I didn't expect, you loved Raka so much this deep. I'm so sorry, surprised that someone else might have let your husband die. I haven't been to your house since I just came from out of town."

Reno broke her embrace. The shirt on his shoulder was wet from my tears. He wiped my tears with his fingers.

This handsome man, the son of a famous businessman was my best friend since childhood, until college we were always together.

"Yes, Ren. Let me stay here for a while ...." I beg.

"Let's stay here, Fai. It doesn't matter forever either. Finally you're back, Faiza ...." He said slowly while researching my face.

"What, Ren?"

"Yes, you're finally coming back to me. Friendship is like a cocoon ...." Reno is a little joking. He pinched my cheek. "You should be happy, because when you see you hurt like this, I feel the pain, Faiza ...."

"Sweers are sympathetic to me." I hugged him again.

"Sympathy, Ace also ...." Reno is back to teasing me.

I smile. Hit his chest softly.

"Well, that's it, dong .. smile. Uh, I'm kebelet."

"What do you think?"

"To the WC, it's considered mating!"

I smiled again. Reno can always cheer me up.

Reno opened his shirt. His somewhat thin body was covered in tattoos, from his chest all the way to his back. There was a significant change in my best friend. There were a lot of tattoos on his body and he took a cigarette and then he lit it. Something he has never done since he became friends with me.

"Hm, are you smoking now?"

"Yes, Fai. This cigarette became my escape, when I was frustrated by someone." He sat on the sofa opposite me. "Don't you like cigarette smoke?"

Reno looked at me. Next to his eyebrows raised.

"Also do not like, is ... but cigarettes can be soothing?" I was suddenly curious about Reno's words.

"For me yes" he said, standing up. “But cigarettes remain a danger, not good for health.”

“Emang.” I responded briefly.

He stepped towards the toilet. "You BAB I'll smoke."

Reno laughing.

When Reno's in the toilet. I took a cigarette. I watched for quite a while, then my right hand grabbed the gas match. Cigarette sticks I tuck on the lips, then ignite them.

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