Boyfriend Lies

BC 30 | Still Patient

I think everything will be fine after dinner is off. As much and as possible, I still make a good impression on Kak Bagas who constantly feels guilty. My attitude remained the same, as if all had never happened, but my heart was so subdued that it wanted to demand more.

Now, it is no longer my message that is not a priority. Now I'm more often waiting for him to send messages, make calls, and the like. I don't want my message to float around too long. It's exhausting to wait for news that sometimes doesn't come. My patience in the face of a relationship crisis ended in silence because I was too tired in everything.

Especially today. As if grief had not yet reached its end, Bagas made a call just to give heart-wrenching information.

"It seems, the sister of the rite of rites Adek's birthday."

Wanting to scream and yell, but with all my might holding back because to me a single phone connection is worth it. I don't want time wasted because of my ego and this sense of wanting to be noticed.

"May you hear brother alesan?"

Heart and mood change. My seat on the canteen bench was not as comfortable as before. Stiffness is indeed waiting for Kak Bagas' answer.

"Sister tuker OFF same students from other schools."

Why could? Why should? How important was the reason he was until Brother willing to exchange holidays? Did you forget your Monday night appointment? I promise to celebrate Dara's birthday tomorrow. In fact, all the complaints are only able to be spoken in the deepest heart. So stupid, I even asked things that are not too important - very important. "Where is he going?"

"Say, anyway, want to send his mother to the hospital."

Grumpily. It hurts, but it doesn't bleed. My eyes until teary because the chest is already tight unbearable.

"No problem, right, Yang? Big brother's decision, right? Brother is afraid Adek is angry."

Afraid I'm angry, why do I still do it?

"Certain .. Sister's appointment on Monday night how?" My lips shook when I said that.

"Oh, yes, yes. I promised to give you a gift. Or like this, aja. His gift brother sent via courier, let Adek cepet receive. How's it?"

I nodded, smiling, even though my heart was completely slapped. That's not what I want. Not at all! I want you to come, you come here, you accompany me. Gift business can be discussed later. No gifts are a problem for me.

"Darling? How's it? How, diem, aja? Angry, huh?"

"That deal, it's up to Brother, it's up to."

A tear just flows. Riska, Princess, and Eren who saw that instantly widened their eyes and pointed towards my face. Do not want Bagas to know, I hurriedly wiped the water droplets while the index finger stuck in front of the lips. They must be silent, so that Bagas does not hear.

"Oh, yeah, it's. Home service sister find expedition. I hope you like the gift, yes, dear."

"Hm .. thanks, yes," I said with a happy accent.

***

The temptation is not enough. He who was planning to exchange holidays still could not meet me because of something he said was important and urgent.

In the fog, I asked permission from the teacher in the class because I wanted to ask for an explanation on the grounds of Kak Bagas. I'm afraid this reason has something to do with health or the like that is urgent.

However, my heart was again made to break upon hearing the reason. The body leaning against the bathroom toilet door was immediately sitting so limp and helpless facing his new behavior that was so unique.

"Both brother, unhealthy moge."

"Oh ... moge, huh?" My smile could not hide my trembling lips.

"Yes. This week's holiday wants you to make a real moge. Mumpung father again well to pay for his service. That's fine, right, Yang. Money that brother kumpulin can we use as much snacks."

"Yes, yeah, that's fine." I'm talking potluck.

"Wait, yeah. The capital was his real brother first. Next week if the moge is healthy, brother went down the mountain to meet Adek."

"Okay, Brother."

"What else? Why call brother? No teachers, is that it?"

There are. It is precisely with madness that I ask permission to go to the bathroom because I want to hear the reason for your absence here.

"The teacher is there, really," I said. "Other in the bathroom."

I smile. A bitter smile because he casually spoke so. I know I miss you, but I don't want to meet you.

"Darling?"

He rebuked me because I was silent for a long time. Too many words that I hold until I am afraid of leachability. As a result, this is the only way to eradicate everything that passes thought. "Sir, get in class first, yeah."

"Okay, Adek's coming home from school, sister called me back, yeah."

***

The umpteenth time he's denied. My hope for the callback was wiped out. He didn't call, text, or anything. Everything went like that until three days passed.

I've tried to make an effort, send out a message, make a few calls, but the result remains the same. He did not answer because it was out of reach. So curious and hit by a million worries, I ventured to contact Sister Cecilia. Sure enough, he must know the whereabouts of Kak Bagas because they were placed in the same location.

From : Sister Cecilia

He's in, all right. It was also sif morning with me.

^^^For : Brother Cecilia^^^

^^^Not knowing, no, the reason he's been telling you lately?^^^

From : Sister Cecilia

What did you say, anyway? Difficult to contact with?

^^^For : Brother Cecilia^^^

^^^Yes. He's hard to contact. HP is also inactive.^^^

From : Sister Cecilia

Okay, wait. I tried asking, yes. The people pass by.

I wish I was worried waiting for Sister Cecilia's reply. After a minute of waiting, the reply finally came.

From : Sister Cecilia

Out of quota, Baby. He has no capital to buy pulses and WiFi at the cost of problems as well.

The disappointment that struck did not last long as Brother Cecilia made a call. My weak thumb shook when I pressed the screen for the call.

"Darling?"

Kak Bagas' voice suddenly sounded and dominated. My mouth is smothered by one hand. Wanting to scream, expressing the deepest longing, but being held back because the teardrops already represent it.

"Darling, sorry. At that time, my brother wanted to call just out of quota. I haven't bought it until now."

I nodded, taking a breath first before giving an answer. "WiFi why?"

"Say the next door neighbor, anyway, there's another problem. The host, right, comes once a month. So, we were forced to wait a little while until he came."

Lord. This is the fate of LDR.

"Patience, yes. Later if there is more money brother directly buy quota."

Later. If there is more money. If there is and when. Why doesn't Bagas open, anyway? I could've helped buy him a quota from here. Everything can be done if he has the will.

"Darling, it was, yeah. HP wants to be flipped to Cecil. Adek if there is anything tell you first, aja, he. Cecil must have sent a message from Adek, really."

"Oh, yes, Brother. Later if there's anything to call Kak Cecil."

Finished exchanging farewells, I immediately spurred a step towards the space at the end of the backyard. My goal is definitely, want to go to the cooperative to buy an internet package for loved ones. There is no reason why this is so. I don't want him to disappear again. For the sake of maintaining communication, I will sacrifice some money for Kak Bagas quota.

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