Between Love and Sacrifice

Past Trauma

Ansel's attack is becoming more and more. Mayra's facial mutter was momentarily agitated, with her body suddenly shaking, the trauma of the past now awakening her fear again. Moreover, the treatment of Ansel who leaned towards the dust because his desire was inevitable, making Mayra resist fear very very much.

At first Mayra slightly replied just a lip smash. But when Ansel switched to his sensitive part of Mayra, instantaneous memories of past events tore down his defenses, but unfortunately Ansel was still not aware of the changes his wife was being struck by fear.

'' Honey, I can't stand it anymore said Ansel with a heavy voice.

One by one their clothes were taken off by the hands of Ansel who was so shrewd. Until Ansel touched and wanted to open the cover of Mayra's triangle, Mayra quickly pushed her husband with all her might with a vibrating body, indeed, the previous incident disrupted the physical and mental Mayra who was afraid of the terrible incident.

Ansel jerked, half innocent body slammed until toppled to fall on the floor. While Mayra immediately ran towards the bed jump immediately grabbed by the blanket and covered her entire body with a small sob.

Ansel was confused by the behavior of his wife who was suddenly frightened when touched by him. Even he forgot, if his past actions left the deepest wounds and traumas for his wife.

Ansel got up, then immediately approached Mayra on the bed under the covers. The small issue and vibration of his body was seen and heard clearly by him.

'' Honey, why are you suddenly so scared of me. Please explain, did I hurt you just now ? ''

'' Go, I beg you Mayra said under the covers, sounding so soft in her sobbing.

'' But why should I leave. I'm confused why you're so scared, baby. ''

" Please, Mas. I can't continue the activity. hiks...''

Ansel's curiosity became more and more so, until Ansel was impatient, with a loud bang Ansel pulled a blanket that covered Mayra, to make Mayra shocked not to play. Mayra's almost innocent body was so quivering, her lips instantly deathly pale as she stared at the bare-chested Ansel, trying to approach him.

" Dear, try to explain what happened to you ? .Why are you suddenly scared like this. ''

Ansel did not comment on Mayra's rejection at all, he was still worried about the situation of his wife who was suddenly frightened when they were about to make love for the first time after their relationship status was halal.

'' Baby !? ''

Ansel kept trying to calm his wife in his ways. But Mayra was getting scared not until his hands touched his wife's skin, his hands were directly tampik strong until the white skin of Ansel reddened.

Mayra's body trembled with her eyes closed, her mouth still blurting out Don't touch me, I beg you to be accompanied by tears on the wife's pale face.

Long with silence, he finally realized something that led to a painful fact that made his wife immediately changed drastically. Ansel felt a jolt in his heart as his past mistakes got into the contents of his head. Suddenly Ansel retreated and sat on the sofa with his guilty face.

Ansel thought, 'his past events have just disappeared as time goes by for Mayra, but he wrongly guessed that the incident left the deepest trauma on Mayra himself.

Ansel scooped rough on his face, he continued to pull his hair in frustration as the pleading face shown by Mayra was increasingly shaking, the wife explained that the woman was so in pain when the suffering occurred, feeling pain in the body, the pain in the body, his heart and soul. Especially in the morning when Mayra's feelings again shattered when she was in Mayra's pergoki was in bed with her sister Nayla in a state not wearing a thread.

Moments later, Ansel got up from the sofa . Slowly he walked closer to Mayra who had fallen asleep in fear earlier. Really he does not know what to behave like, is the real mastermind of Mayra's destruction. If not for the kindness of his wife and also the love equally reciprocated, maybe at this time he will continue to be rejected with more hysterical.

'' I should have been more sensitive to your pain, dear . If I had listened to Max back then it would have been a painful event that would not have happened. Although now good destiny is on my side with the presence of our daughter, I also have to think about the consequences of the trauma that attacked you my wife. Forgive my error, I promise to erase all the severity of the incident, I promise, Lirih Ansel rubbed Mayra's cheek that still looks swollen.

Ansel got out of bed after kissing his wife's forehead, he stepped into the bathroom to clean himself up. Because after his work earlier, he immediately attacked Mayra without intending to clean up first, because it has been mastered n**** which is tempestuous.

The greeting night, eyes that had since the afternoon been closed in a cry of fear, had now opened again . Mayra immediately woke up from her sleep, when remembering the incident a moment ago, Mayra immediately scooped her face with both palms of her hands. It turned out that his trauma still controlled his thoughts and feelings.

She should not have acted as before, rejecting her legal husband . It was as if her reaction was like Ansel wanted to rape her, when it had become an obligation that he had to do for a long time. But he lost to his past trauma.

There was another of him, before his eyes closed his body only stayed his triangular cloth. But when she woke up Mayra found her body was dressed again. Whose job is this ? mayra thought confused.

'' Oh my God, why does the trauma have to be present when my husband and I are happy. How she felt my husband must have been so disappointed when I was scared to see her. How I fight that fear Robbi, I love her so much. I was afraid of losing her, what if my husband was venting a desire that was lawful for us but left to other women out there. '' I said softly, I sat down to sink my face into my thighs while hugging my own knees.

A gentle swab landed on Mayra's head that had not yet worn a veil. Mayra immediately raised her head, in the face of her owner's hand that touched her hair.

Mayra could not stand it anymore, she knew if the middle-aged woman next to her knew what had happened, so much guilt Mayra also focused on the mother of her husband.

Yes, that woman is Raisa Ansel's mother. Mayra immediately bowed in shame, her tears could not be held back. The crystal grains flowed swiftly, until her hands rubbed Mayra's tears that were increasingly flowing.

'' Don't cry, Mommy knows if you still remember the incident ''

Mayra raised her face, looking at her mother-in-law who had smiled sweetly towards Mayra.

'' Mommy knows ? ''

Raisa nodded.

'' Did my husband tell Mommy ? ''

'' True, but not telling or complaining, rather he feels guilty for what happened to you because of his actions, son . ''

'' No Mommy, I shouldn't deny her husband's right . Mayra shouldn't be that selfish, I accidentally let her down, I knew that my husband was unconscious at the time. But somehow I have been disrespectful to him, I have indeed committed a great sin with my attitude towards my husband.

'' You guys are the same, keep blaming yourself. Better meet your husband, speak well and be open. Forgive her previous attitude, if you have forgiven her then eliminate those fears by continuing to remember your beautiful story in the past. Try to make yourself something that is very dependent on each other. Mommy believes you can definitely fight it even though the trauma is getting in the way. Remember you love each other, on the other hand you also have a beautiful daughter, there is she among you who still desperately needs the full affection of her parents. Pity him if his parents continue to clash the shackles of their past.'' Raisa's advice gently clarifies the meaning of a relationship.

'' Help me Mommy Lirih Mayra stare at Raisa expectantly.

'' Of course, you are not only my current daughter-in-law, but precisely you are my daughter as well. Bram has given you up entirely to the Julian family, no matter what happens Mommy will continue to maintain the harmony of your relationship. ''

Mayra immediately hugged her in-laws tightly, Raisa like her mother's incarnation at this time. He should think that if his happiness is now perfect, the past should no longer appear to disturb their warm relationship.

'' Thank you, Mommy ''

'' You're welcome, my daughter. ''

🤗 To be Continue.