Belongs to Other Women

The Part 24

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Lisa POVS.

I finally accepted Tika's offer to go for a walk today. Since Tika said she would take me to the beach, we had never made such a trip. Some kind of picnic and recreation.

Before leaving, I told my own heart to be casual with whatever happens. So that I don't get into a love hole that's too deep for Max.

I should have known myself, Max's actions a few days ago were a subtle rejection for me. And he didn't want to hurt my heart or act rude to me. But would Max still want to see me without Tika taking her? I don't know.

I thought too much about this, until I forgot about the condition of my stomach which now sounds. Just as I was entering the car, the worm in my stomach was already doing his best charity concert. I have to endure the shame now.

“We eat first huh, Tik? I'm laper.” Max said it shortly after Tika entered the car and sat in the seat behind me. As usual.

“Oh, okay!” answer Tika briefly. I just glanced at Max who also turned out to be looking at me.

Oh blimey!!

Why is it like this.

I tried to stay still and re-directed my eyes straight ahead. Then he stepped on the accelerator pedal to go through a crowded highway. In any case, I need to be able to control my feelings. Control this attitude and behavior so that I don't expect anything from him and I don't misinterpret every concern he gives me.

'Come on, Lisa. He only thinks of you as his sister. Wake up!' my screams in my heart.

I turned my mind to look at the tree on the side of the road. While admiring the beauty of the sky so bright. The blue sky blends with the clouds that clump white, as if a cotton swath scattered in the expanse of space. Real beautiful.

“Good, anything else to order?” ask the waiter. Tika raised her hand and showed her palm as if refusing. The waiter understood and asked us to wait.

Breakfast this time felt like the day before, just plain without a word. Only my heartbeat is still stirring.

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Today we passed by with excitement and laughter, but I still felt lonely. Many times I tried to shake off my admiration for Max and many times I tried to lie to this heart. And yes, I seem to love him.

Maybe for some women out there, this is what stifles the chest the most. You can only see a loved one without being able to love. And here is my position right now.

“Mau sleep at home or ...,” bargain Max when we're already on our way home.

I looked at him. “I came home to my home aja.” Then I looked straight ahead again, watching the road we were on at the moment, because on the way to the beach, I was just sleeping because of the glut. That's how most people say, if it's full, then the eyes can no longer be compromised.

The sky this time was so beautiful, just like the previous twilight that I had passed. I drowned in my own daydreams, lamenting for life. I secretly stole a glance, looking at Max from the side while trying to record his face in my memory. For there are only a few more days left.

Suddenly Max turned his head while I was looking at him. I misbehaved him. Back I threw my face away, staring at the streets ahead regardless of him again. Until we finally got to my house.

“Makasih,” said I turned to Max and looked back, it turns out Tika has been asleep since. Max just nodded then I immediately got out of his car and let him go away. Disappeared at a crossroads along with his car.

With staggered steps I walked towards the front door of the house and opened the door. Then close it and go straight to the room. I threw my body in the middle of the bed. While staring at the clean white ceiling of the room, my mind was back in control. Thinking about how my next life will be in London. Am I willing to live there in solitude?

I tried to close my eyes for a moment until I fell asleep without me noticing.

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