Behind the Grey Cloud

05 Ms. Yasmin

This afternoon, after school, Ms. Yasmin stopped by the house. He wants to talk about his cake order the other day.

"Darling, I'm here to talk about mom's cake order and mom's offer to take care of you."

I'm speechless. I can't answer Yasmin's question. I'm rattled.

"How's May?" ask Ms. Yasmin for reassurance from me.

I am still silent too. These lips feel stiff to express the word.

"May, I know it's hard for you. I also have no right to force you. But, here we are both alone Mayang. I don't have anyone else here either. And you, at your current age, you still need the figure of an old man. A person who can take care of you, take care of you, and protect you. I just want to have a friend of May's." explains Ms. Yasmin with teary eyes.

I know he really hopes I can agree. But, I can't leave this house yet. There are so many memories I want to keep and feel.

"Mom.. Mom is still young. Mom can get married. And mom can have kids. You can have friends, Mom. If Mayang comes with mother, Mayang will only trouble mother. Mayang does not want to ma'am." I tried to answer carefully. I'm afraid of hurting Yasmin's mom.

"Darling. if you knew. Mother will never have children. So far, my mother is not married. No one wants to marry May's mother.." Now Ms. Yasmin is crying. I hugged him too..

"Mom can't talk like that. If mother married. You must have kids, right?"

i, who did not understand, answered the origin of Ms. Yasmin's words.

"Your mother used to have May's accident, so now I can't have children. Mother used to want to get married, but when she told the real state of the mother, the mother-to-be went to leave May's mother. Until now mom was traumatized to get married. But to live alone, it doesn't taste good either. Lonely mother Mayang.."

It turns out there's a sad story about Ms. Yasmin about why she wanted to take care of me so much

But I can't decide yet. I'm rattled.

"Alright May, if you can't answer mother's request it's okay. I'll be waiting for him."

" Oh yes, about the cake order. Mom so order 50 seeds huh. You will be taking Saturday afternoon. Because the show was Saturday night. This is the money" said Ms. Yasmin, giving some money to me.

"Here's the money mostly ma'am." I returned some more.

"No papa May. That's for you. Make extra buy snacks yes.

Yes, I said yes, assalamualaikum"

"wa'alaikumsalam Ma'am - be careful."

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Tonight, I'm preparing the equipment for the esuk school. I always prepare for my school at night. I used to say mother, so that I do not rush the day.

I'm still confused as to what I should do with Ms. Yasmin's offer. If I go with Ms. Yasmin, who will take care of this house. I won't trouble her.

Various questions came to my mind, until I finally fell asleep.

In my dream, I met my father. He looks so happy. I approached her too. I tightly embraced my father's body. I don't think I want to lose him again.

"Dad, Mayang kangen is totally dad. Mayang no longer want to lose father.dad do not go again yes"

"Darling, daddy has to go. Because you don't live here anymore." replied the father, gently stroking my hair

"Why yeah? Mayang does not want to be alone" I whined at Dad

"There's dear Ms. Yasmin. Mayang can stay with Ms. Yasmin. I'm sure Ms. Yasmin is sincerely affectionate with Mayang. Ms. Yasmin needs Mayang, and Mayang needs Ms. Yasmin."

After saying that, suddenly the shadow of the father moved away, getting further and further away...

The shadow grew smaller and disappeared..

I also realized. Turns out I was just a dream. But the dream was real.

Does this mean I have to stay with Ms. Yasmin? Ah I don't know..

I got up and rushed to the bathroom to get some ablution. I will perform tahajud prayers so that my heart is calm.

May I have the answers to all these puzzles.

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Today is Saturday. I'll drop you a cake ordered by Ms. Yasmin.

After performing the prayer last night, I became convinced that I would be staying with Ms. Yasmin.

tok tok..

"Assalamualaikum ...." I knocked on the door of Ms. Yasmin's house.

Slender. There is no lawfulness. I'll try one more time

Nil. Isn't it today at Ms. Yasmin's house that there will be yasinan, but why the house is deserted.

I tried it again too. And then...

"Search for Yasmin yaa... He passed out on deck and is now taken to the puskesmas."

A passing mother told me that Ms. Yasmin passed out and is now in the health center.

I was surprised too. I left the cake and I ran to the puskesmas.

Arriving there, Ms. Yasmin rolled alone on the bed.

"Mom... Is it okay?" I immediately hugged Ms. Yasmin.I was so panicked, I forgot to say hello.

"Eh Mayang, I'm fine, son. You know where mom's from?" Ask Ms. Yasmin. He seemed surprised to see me here.

" Oh, Mom, I was at my mom's house, and my neighbor said, Mom passed out and was brought here. That's why I just ran here and left the cake in front of my mother's house." obviously I'm long while releasing my arms.

"Thank you Mayang. You have looked at mom. Mom has no one. That's why I'm alone here." she replied with a wry smile.

"Mom... Mayang wanted to talk. "I stopped my words. I fear. Is Miss Yasmin still taking me to live with her? Or maybe he changed his mind?

"Well, what do you want to say?" tanyanya while frowning.

"Hmmm, that's Mom. Mayang wants to stay with mom. Mayang also wants to take care of mom. Mayang will take care of mom." Now I hug her again. I even cried. I have never hugged my mother for a long time. It feels like the feeling I've been harboring spilled.My longing that has arisen on my mother is treated by the presence of Ms. Yasmin.

We both cried. We were silent for a long time and dissolved in each other's thoughts.

"Thank You Mayang. I promise I'll take care of you and look after you as much as I can. I love you Mayang." said Ms. Yasmin started the word after a long time of silence

" Yes ma'am, you're the same. Mayang also thanked Mom. Mayang also promised to take care of mother. Like Mayang taking care of Mayang's own biological mother."

When I say the word birth mother, it feels like my heart is sore. The biological mother who has taken care of me now does not care how I am. And I don't know how it is either.

"Mom, can you go every Friday to Mayang's old house and Mayang visit my father's grave?" ask Ms. Yasmin

"May darling. Even mom will accompany you to your house and to your father's grave. I will also help you clean and take care of your home" Ms. Yasmin replied patiently.

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