Behind the Grey Cloud

31 Meet mama Zen

We started going to school again a week.

Learning activities and some homework are waiting every day.

Now, Ms. Yasmin and Aunt Mita are asking me and Bella to learn more from pepper to help in the kitchen or stall. Because Aunt Mita also now adds employees to help.

Today is Saturday, today,

as usual, Zen school brought me home.

He asked that he could take me home every day. In the morning, I refused to be picked up because I felt sorry for Zen. The direction of my house and the house is opposite, so if the morning is afraid of getting jammed and he becomes bad luck to his school.

Sometimes Bella also comes with us, sometimes she also prefers to ride the angkot.

Today Bella chose to take the angkot because she was going somewhere first.

On the way, Zen told me

" May, today mom invited you to dinner at home. Are you ready?"

" Hmmmm, I'm so nervous about meeting your mama. Even though you used to be just as ordinary." answered me honestly.

" No need to be so groggy. My mom is a good person. I'll pick you up at 7" said Zen.

" Okay." I replied briefly.

After reaching the alley, Zen led me to walk to the front of the yard. After meeting with Ms. Yasmin and Aunt Mita, Zen came home to help her mama prepare for her dinner with me.

Zen had also asked Ms. Yasmin for permission to take me to dinner at her house, and Ms. Yasmin agreed.

***

From this afternoon, I was confused as to which clothes I would wear to attend this event.

A few times I turned the cupboard over. I was confused as to which clothes I should wear. Then suddenly Ms. Yasmin appeared and said,

" Why baby?"

" i'm confused ma'am, choose which clothes." I replied resignedly.

" Can I help you choose?" pinta Ms. Yasmin.

I also nodded in agreement.

Ms. Yasmin tried to pick a dress in my closet and give it to me

I was also happy with the choice of clothes chosen by Yasmin's mother.

I immediately changed clothes and put on thin makeup on my face.

At 07, Zen came to pick me up. He seemed stunned to see me wearing a classic brown dress without motif with a blend of high heels and matching clutch. Also a simple and natural-looking makeup. And the hair that I let down with a small clasp adorned it.

He gaped for a moment and regained his senses as Aunt Mita cleared her throat a little loudly.

Upon awakening, he seemed to be misbehaving. I smiled seeing him too.

" Have left gih. Later in-laws will wait a long time." seduced Aunt Mita.

Zen also appeared cooler tonight. He wears a plain shirt with matching black jeans. Really handsome, I scream in my heart.

We also drove in a Zen car. In the car, we were often silent. We admire each other's beauty.

" You're so pretty tonight." This is all that came out of Zen's mouth since last time and he said it over and over again.

" Are you usually not pretty?" answer me with a little frown.

" beautiful. This time it was more beautiful. I sampled pengling loh earlier. Kirain the angel who descended from the sky. That's you."

We laughed together too.

***

We arrived at Zen's house.

Oom Hans welcomed me with great joy. He told me to come in. She said she was still preparing something in the kitchen.

Oom Hans took us to the kitchen. He said he was very hungry. He could not wait to enjoy his wife's dinner.

Zen and I can only follow.

Apparently mama Zen was getting ready, though,

" Let's sit here, May, Auntie has prepared everything for you." said mama Zen to me

Deg.

Suddenly my heart felt like it was going to fall. I wish I was dreaming right now.

When mama Zen looked over, I just found out that....

" Well, you're so beautiful, May,.. Pantesan Zen day and night thinks of you. Even when two weeks did not meet he looked very tortured." mama Zen's tease.

I am still in shock just silence not responding.

" You why May?" ask Zen. It turns out my face I can't hide.

I want to be honest. But I don't want to ruin this dinner. However, in order to reject her, my heart was unwilling as well. There is a feeling of not accepting from the bottom of my heart.

The man who looks happy with his new family, once made his son and husband suffer. Leaving her just like that without even wanting to understand a single bit.

That guy is so selfish.

Without feeling it, my tears fell on my cheeks. I wept. I can't stand it.

Then I ran away leaving everything behind.

I want to run far. Very far. I want to wake up from this nightmare. But in fact, this is the harsh reality that I am experiencing.

My real mother is my girlfriend's stepmother.

How narrow the world is. Why this is my story.

But Zen is after me. He pulled my arm. Bring me into his arms.

I cried and he let me cry.

After my cries began to subside, Zen asked me very carefully.

" you why my pretty girl?"

" Zen, from now on we just end this relationship. I don't want Zen anymore." I replied with a stammer.

" What's my fault, May? Did anything I did hurt your heart?" her question urges me.

I really want this to be enough to get here. I don't want to talk about it anymore. But Zen also needs an explanation.

" Zen, your mother's name is Sarini, right?" ask me. Actually I want a 'no' answer to my silly question.

" Yes really. My mother's name is Sarini May. Wh why? Do you know your mom?" zen asked confusedly.

I was crying again. My heart is really broken.

' Father..the person who used to leave us, now happy with his new family. And I'm trapped into his son's life.' my screams in my heart.

" What's up, May? Answer my question dong" Zen urged me even more.

" Do you know Zen? Mama who has loved you all this time, mama who you have been proud of, 8 years ago ever left her child and husband just because of material. He doesn't care how his family lives in the village. Even he didn't care about the child's distress when his father died.." I couldn't continue my words anymore. My heart is so sore.

" I'm sorry Zen. I have to go."

I also left Zen alone who still did not believe in this reality.

I am too. Very hard hit with this.

I didn't expect that the person I wanted to forget was among me.

I wish it was a dream.

I still love Zen

But I don't want to see her mother who is also my own mother.

I thought, first the capital to the city for work. And will come back to me and Dad. She is married and happy with her new family. This is what makes me unable to forgive my mother.