Behind The Castle's

**FEELING SO BLUE**

"As I asked you earlier. Why why?"

"Fred....."

Edward's long breathing made Fredrick smile

"We're doing Ed's gambling, so it doesn't hurt if I just risk everything" Flashing his shoulders indifferently, Fredrick leaned back against the chair casually. "I'm lazy to spend too much time, all of you"

"But he..." Edward immediately straightened his shoulders as Fredrick's gray eyeballs moved swiftly staring at him, staring at his mouth. "My fuss is Lady Victoria's Arathorn. It's pointless and could even make a mess later"

"Not going"

With a stifled growl, Edward stared at Fredrick sharply

"How can you be sure?"

"We're gambling, aren't we Ed...?" While looking back at Fredrick, Edward nodded. "Judi is gambling. All the reasons think of it like our capital for gambling, and our plan will be to gamble until the end. I don't like wasting time, like I said. So, I gave up almost all my capital to the table in one round of gambling"

"That doesn't answer my question Fred"

Fredrick nodded his head while folding his hands in front of his chest

"Victoria is intelligent and sensitive, she can assess situations and learn anything quickly. When he saw his face that seemed not too surprised when he saw the state of the market, I was sure that maybe he had once taken into account all these reasons, and I just made it clear his mind without having to beat around the bush or, like, not to mention it, his head will explode because he keeps thinking"

"Did he take it?"

Edward's face seemed to calm back and looked at Fredrick who nodded then.. shook his head?

"He can't take it for granted but I'm sure, deep down he knows it's the truth. Like you said, he's Arathorn. They have rules and trust downhill that will always be left to the next Arathorn and the other family that takes Arathorn" Fredrick ransacked and put his hand back on the table. "Am I wrong?"

Fredrick's words made Edward snort violently. Fredrick continued

"This is my final judgment to prove whether or not he will be my wonderful companion"

With one index finger scratching the table. Fredrick looked at Edward's confused face as if he was about to ask

"If your judgment is wrong how's Fred?"

Fredrick blinked his shoulder again

"That means, I have to intervene to hone it again. No problem, because he still has to be my side. My queen"

Edward frowned

"What are you trying to bet Fred on?"

Fredrick chuckled amusedly at how slow Edward's brain was when asked to think outside the affairs of war and kill

"Emotion, wisdom, constancy, concern, and above all. How does he separate his heart and mind"

"I don't understand"

"I know"

Back Fredrick chuckled amusedly and Edward began to get annoyed

"By my sword Fred! Lady Victoria is seventeen! what do you expect from a spoiled and arrogant girl who doesn't know the world?"

"Don't be reckless Ed, you don't know him"

Fredrick's sharp voice this time made Edward undaunted and spoke sharply

"And do you know him well?"

Fredrick's big smile came up.

"Quite a lot. He is very interesting and very special"

With a face and a gaze full of inquiring, Edward looked at Fredrick

"You like it?"

This time Fredrick was so strong that his shoulders shook strongly. Still with the rest of his laughter, Fredrick looked at Edward amusedly

"You think?"

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On the other hand, Diana was looking at one by one a pile of invitation letters that were increasingly coming to her non-room. Victoria was still with her habit of staring at the window without caring about everything else. But fortunately, today Victoria ate all her food well, which made Diana quite relieved.

"The vic?"

"Hmm?"

"I want to go to Di's garden, don't follow me"

Victoria's sudden remark made Diana want to refute but, as if knowing, Victoria immediately looked at Diana firmly. Diana let out a sigh and nodded

"Good Vic"

With her mind in a state of turmoil and feelings that have not improved, Victoria heads towards the park. When she stepped on the ground of the park, with her eyes closed, Victoria tried to feel all the wind that invaded her face. I hope the wind carries a little bit of thought and strange in her heart.

Still standing and closing her eyes to feel the wind, suddenly, Victoria felt her shoulders become heavier which made her open her eyes immediately. In front of his face, Fredrick's hands were busy laying down and closing his coat on Victoria's body, then looked at Victoria who had been looking at him in silence.

Not enough shock Victoria who saw his voiceless figure suddenly appeared. Fredrick again surprised him by lifting while hugging his body like just lifting a chair in his chest.

Victoria screeched and tried to get away from Fredrick's body but, gently and quietly, Fredrick landed Victoria's butt on the garden table and let go of her slight embrace to look at Victoria.

"What are you doing!"

Without warning and shamelessly, Fredrick brought his face closer to put their foreheads together.

"A.p....."

"I missed you...."

With eyes closed and Fredrick's warm breath hitting his face. Victoria could only shut her mouth.

"It's been days I haven't seen you Vic"

Slowly the pair of gray eyeballs began to look and immediately collided with the two Victorian leaf green eyeballs. Fredrick stared with in both of Victoria's dark beads. Both her hands moved to pull Victoria's hand to her side. Fredrick further tightened their bodies with his bediri body and Victoria who sat on the table with her legs open, making it easier for Fredrick to be able to share the warmth of their bodies.

"Your face looks thinner"

Fredrick's hand lifted and pulled his face so that he could freely caress the face of the sweet girl in front of him

"Don't think too hard, Vic, you're gonna get sick"

Victoria smiled bitterly and returned Fredrick's deep gaze by diving into Fredrick's two gray beads

"Do you think I can bash?"

Without answering, Fredrick re-embraced Victoria when Victoria's eyes were already shiny because they began to fill with tears.

"How can I not think of it Bash? how's it?"

Victoria's cry broke until her voice shook violently. Fredrick tightened his hug while gently stroking Victoria's fragile back, as if it was capable of giving her strength.

"Until any time I won't forgive you, I hate you so much"

Gently Fredrick continued to caress Victoria's back without answering, he just wanted to make Victoria talk and let out all her feelings and thoughts. She knew very well that if not forced soon, Victoria would be devastated and sick again. The small body will not be able to withstand all the storm exposure even though the contents of the head and his beliefs are as hard as a rock

"I. I hate you, you tyrant thieves! y'all...."

Victoria could not continue her words with growing crying. It felt as if a huge dagger had slammed into his chest as everything went back to spinning inside his head, all the screams and cries of his family coming back ringing in his ears, when all the footage on the night of the tragedy again continues to be imagined in both eyes.

Victoria was devastated and drifting in an uncertain direction, she did not know where her pain and pain should be directed, where she should scream in anger, where she should blame all her destruction, where she should blame all of it, where should he look for a crutch to stand up again after this. The facts, facts, and facts he got were like salt water that waded through all the wounds all over his body.

Victoria couldn't stand it, Victoria began to doubt the God who never heard of her and helped her but, where else should she believe? where else would he look for strength? if not to the creator?. What is the real max of all this? how much longer would he have to endure this ordeal? How much longer will he have to continue to accept his pain? and most importantly, how much more pain would be gnawing at him?

"I. I can't stand it. Please....."

All the cries, all the cries of pain that Victoria tried to struggle to just let out in a soft voice in the middle of her cries made Fredrick shiver poignant, she said, his heart was like in an iris and then he was pulled down tightly. Fredrick tightened his arms as Victoria's body felt weaker, as if he wanted to give up, as if ready to be carried away by the storm.

"I'm here Vic.. Hate me all you want, use me all you want, don't give up, please..."

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"I know it hurts, It's hard to breathe sometimes, These nights are long, You've lost the will to fight"

"I know you can't remember how to shine,

Your heart's a bird without the wings to fly"

~Ruelle - Carry Your 🎶

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