As sincere as Zara's love

#5

After his first chat with Fatan their relationship improved a little although Fatan was sometimes still cold to Zara but not as cold as when Zara first went to Fatan's house.

"Bang, Zara's been in touch with Zara's friend who has a school problem she said we were sent there to look around" Zara said.

"later if I finish our meeting there," replied Fatan while enjoying his breakfast. Zara nodded and smiled she did not expect Fatan to answer her because usually Fatan just kept quiet without answering.

"pa, Lana will go to her eye home with papa and mama yes," Pinta Lana.

"Is there a meeting this morning, baby next time?" The word Fatan made Lana pout.

"Honey there is a mama, to the house with her eyes only mama, yes" said Zara.

Lana nods even though her lips are still sweet, "Lana smart child, beautiful must be even more beautiful if Lana smiles, show Lana's sweet smile to papa, "pinta Zara, look at her, Lana faced her papa and displayed her sweet smile.

"Smart kid," praised Zara.

Zara Fatan got up from her seat and picked up her bag and office suit.she kissed Lana and extended her hand to Zara, Zara kissed the back of Fatan's hand as usual.

"Be careful bang assalamualaikum," Zara's message.

"Waalaikumsalam" he answered.

"Lana!" Calling Zara seemed like she was still angry with her papa because she was silent as her papa extended his hand to her. Finally he reached out his hand while his face was bent making Zara smile at the behavior of her son.

"Tomorrow papa among ya dear," promised Fatan.

"BeSok mama at home," answered Lana and went into the Kitchen Zara could only shake her head to see Lana who was still sulking.

"Just let the Zara bang take care of it, brother just leave," said Zara.

Fatan nodded and immediately left as usual without a kiss dear. Zara steps up to Lana who is crumbling .

"Lana darling, why did you act so to me you can't be so childish" Zara advised.

"Papa does not love Lana ma, papa seling ngantelin to the house of Eyang but becalang Lana asked inter-pa would not," he said.

"Lana can't say that, baby, dear papa Lana. papa work also for Lana and papa also love Lana otherwise dear papa will not buy Lana a lot of toys," Zara said.

"so papa darling Lana?" lana said, Zara nodded,

"later if papa comes home apologizing, father," said Zara. Lana nodded and hugged Zara.

*****

Fatan returns home with the documents missing, he steps into his study when he wants to climb up Fatan to hear Lana talking to Zara.

Fatan heard Zara advising his son that what he did was a bad deed. Really Fatan did not expect Zara would teach her son like her own biological child even though she had no experience taking care of children.

After Fatan retrieves the documents left by Fatan immediately leave and Fatan promises to finish this meeting as soon as possible and pick up Lana to take him to lunch together.

Fatan finished his meeting smoothly and brought satisfactory results.

He lay his face on the table tired with his mind and heart.

"Is there a problem bro?" God's question made Fatan almost fall down because of his shock.

"Can't you knock on the door first?" fatan said a little annoyed.

"I knocked on the door from then on until my hand was red no response from you yes I just went in" said the God without any guilt.

"What's up?" Ask Fatan.

The god offered an invitation to Fatan, Fataisi an invitation and observed the contents then nodded.

"Take your wife" said the god.

"Tomorrow nights?" Ask Fatan.

"Yes tomorrow night remember coming with your wife," said the Lord remind Fatan once again and leave.

"Wa!" Call Fatan. The god looked up and raised his eyebrows.

"Meeting you will come? I'm going to pick Lana up to take her to lunch because this morning she had time to snack on me" Fatan said.

"Okey," replied the Lord briefly then left

While Fatan tidied up his documents that had been made meting and prepared to leave.

He walked out of his room to the exit he walked to the car park and drove his car to Zara's boutique not until half an hour he had reached Zara's boutique.

Fatan could see Zara who was busy serving her customers from the outside. Zara, who saw her husband coming, stood up and greeted him at the hand of her husband.

"Assalamualikum brother! What's up?" Zara asked as she invited Fatan to enter her room.

"Lana how?" Ask Fatan.

"it's okay bang, maybe now he's playing with mama earlier Zara had a phone call mama said Mama Lana again playing with Erika."

"Zara make me drink first" said Zara and passed out.

Fatan who was in the room looking at the photo hanging on the wall of his wedding photo with Zara, Zara looks graceful when wearing the white dress.

"Drink bang!" Zara said to make Fatan shocked because he was too focused on looking at his wedding photos.

"Sorry to make brother kage, t" Zara said as she placed a cup of coffee on her desk in her study

" Zara lived in front of a lot of customers" said Zara.

Fatan just nodded, "Zara!" call Fatan when Zara wants to open the door.

"yes bang?" Ask Zara

"later look at Lana's brother, let her be happy" Fatan said. Zara nodded and went out.

Fatan who wanted to know more Zara started exploring Zara's neatly arranged workbench.

he opened Zara's desk drawer and found a small notebook opening it was just a note of his work visit.

Fatan began to open the next drawer containing a small black book with the cover letter 'Fatimah Azzara', He opened the first sheet.

04-06-2016

Assalamualaikum

I'm Fatimah Azzara is just an ordinary girl with nothing special, have a family that is not whole but I'm still grateful to have a mama that is always there for me only mama who always understands me.

Mama she was my paradise right now before there was another heaven for me, my husband.

Fatan closed the little book it was rude to read people's diaries but his curiosity made him eliminate the manners that he had he slipped the book in his work coat he would read later at home.

just as he wanted to get out Zara entered Zara smiled sweetly as usual which was always shown to her.

"we go now bang," said Zara. Fatan nodded and walked out first.

Fatan smiled at Zara's employee as he passed by the door.

"Aunty Zara lives first!" Pay attention to its regular customers.

"Yes Zara!" Answer aunty named Linda.

Fatan walks to his car followed by Zara they will go to Fatan's parents' house first to pick up Lana.

Fatan's car stops in front of his parents' house Zara sees Lana playing with Erika.

"Mr...!" Call Lana and hug Zara.

"Papa pick up Lana lo" whispered Zara Lana looking back at Zara, Fatan was smiling at Lana.

"Father!" Call Lana.

Fatan stretched out her hand Lana walked towards her papa embrace.

"Sorry Lana papa!" Lana Fatan said, nodding,

" pa also apologizes for being too busy" Fatan said.

"Let's go!" bring Fatan.

Fatan took Lana by the hand and left Zara behind.

"Why?" Asked Fatan when Lana suddenly stopped and looked back.

"Mama missed papa!" Lana said while looking back.

"Let's go!" Take Zara and walk with Zara's other hand.

"Papa mama entered the house first, Lana still has Erika," said Lana while releasing her hand.

"okay darling," said Fatan.

Fatan walked away from Zara, who was walking behind him, into his parents' house.

"Fatan, Zara," called Maryam shocked by the arrival of Fatan and Zara so early.

"assalamu'alaikum mama" said Zara, kissing Maryam's hand.

"what's up? the clock is here" asked Maryam.

"want to take Lana to school ma, coincidentally near Zara's boutique there is a school and the manager is a friend of Zara," said Zara. Fatan just shut up and went into the kitchen.

Lana who just entered directly embraced Zara. "mama Lana wanted to school kayak Erika," said Lana.

"it's a pity we wait for papa yes later we will go to school to register Lana," said Zara. Maryam smiled happily at Zara's interaction with Lana, Zara was so painstaking with Lana's sometimes spoiled attitude.

"papa come, said mama papa want to go to school," said Lana when she saw Fatan coming out of the kitchen.

"yes let's now go with Fatan," said Fatan as he held Lana while running out leaving Zara and without his mother's say goodbye.

" yes ma, inshaAllah Zara will be patient," said Zara "Zara pamit first ma," said Zara.

"be careful" said Maryam.

Zara walks to Fatan's car to go to school to enroll Lana in school.

Fatan's car stopped in front of PAUD Zara's school while carrying Lana, followed by Fatan who walked behind him.

"Assalamu'alaikum" said Zara as she entered the school.

"waalaikum salam, uh Zara please come in," said Yeni Zara's friend and the administrator of the PAUD school.

Zara expresses her goal of coming to school and wonders about the school that will be the school for Lana.

After the goal is finished Zara resigned and starting tomorrow Lana will go to school and it makes Lana very happy.

In front of the school Zara did not enter the car because she would not come home she would return to her boutique.

"Bang, Zara's not coming home, Zara's job is still a lot and Zara's customers are still a lot?" Ask Zara.

Fatan nodded and ran his car earlier he explained to Lana that her mother came home later because she was still busy Lana nodded in agreement.

*****

Zara is very busy she has to finish her job now also she does not want to bring work home because for her at home is the time for family not for work.

"Sir Zara!" Call Sachi.

"Yes?" Ask Zara.

"it's time to go home" Sachi reminded, Zara, looking at her response clock that had shown five hours and over ten minutes.

"Astagfirullah forgot it was too late in the afternoon, sorry Chi so the coming home of the afternoon," said Zara and tidied up her work assisted Sachi.

"it's okay mbak, his work today Alhamdulillah," said Sachi.

"Thank you Chi, yes Alhamdulillah, let me drive us home in the same direction, right?" Zara said.

Sachi nodded.

After Zara drove Sachi home, he immediately directed his car towards Fatan's house. Zara had reached the courtyard of Fatan's house she put her car in harmony and immediately ran into the house through the connecting door between the garage and the main house because she heard Lana crying.

"Assalamualaikum" hail Zara.

Lana hears Zara's voice running straight to Zara.

"Hey why are you crying?" Zara asked while cleaning up the tear marks.

"Mama did not go home" he whined, Zara felt guilty was too late afternoon than usual, usually he came home at four in the afternoon and this was almost magrib.

"Sorry dear mama was a lot of visitors and God willing will no longer go home this afternoon, sorry mama huh?" Zara said. Lana nodded while still hugging Zara. Zara saw Fatan who seemed to breathe a sigh of relief seeing his hand.

"In exchange, Mama will make Lana's favorite meal agree?" tawar Zara's.

"Again" Lana replied softly.

Zara stepped towards Fatan who had seen her earlier.

"Assalamualaikum brother!" greetings and kiss her husband's hand.

"sorry Zara was late" Zara said apologizing.

"Yes!" Answer Fatan short and go to his study.

"Prophe Zara" Bathin Zara.

He immediately went into the room to change his clothes and remove his hijab and returned to the kitchen to cook dinner for his family.

Lana was drawing on the front carpet of the tv. After cooking and preparing the dime Zara approached Lana to invite Lana to eat.

"Darling, eat yuk first!" bring Zara.

Lana looked at Zara and then she reached out to her hand for a sling.

zara happily carried Lana to the dining table and occupied her seat.

"Honey mama wants to call papa first yes Lana wait here," Pinta Zara.

Lana nodded obediently.

Zara immediately went upstairs to Fatan's office not until Zara knocked Fatan's door out.

"The dinner was ready" Zara said as usual Fatan did not reply and left.

******

After Fatan's dinner back in his study he sat down in his chair and opened the drawer he picked up Zara's little book which he had picked up earlier in Zara's study.

05-02-2016

Assalamualaikum. Wb

I accept with sincerity what God has ordained me,

Today my father came to bring me some shocking news.

papa's? Yes papa, papa who left when I was 17 years old today papa came.

He wanted to match me with the son of a friend of mama and papa, and,

What do I have to answer ?

God is the only one who can answer all of this.

Wassalam´s.

Fatan opens the next sheet.

06-02-2016

Assalamualaikum wr

today I will decide what my answer is.

With bismillah I agreed to papa's request not because they are rich families or friends of mama and papa but because my heart has made its choice to approve it.

07-08-2016

Assalamualaikum wr.

Today my future father-in-law came and brought a very beautiful little girl.

she was named 'Alana Queta Anggara' a beautiful name. Who her? Is he the son of my future husband?

as she called me 'mama' the other side of my heart was touched. Oh my God who is this little girl? my heart was so happy when she called me Mama.

08-02-2016

assalamualaikum wr.

I will never end my outpouring of heart only with this I can pour out all that is in the heart.

Oh God, he's not a bastard!

Why everyone thinks that pregnant outside marriage is an illegitimate child, a baby is born without the slightest sin, like a plain white paper without any ink streaks in it.

Being born out of wedlock is not the will of the baby, the baby does not have to be responsible for the sins of both parents.

if he could choose he would not have chosen to be born that way.

I continue to deny every word Lana is not an illegitimate child she will be my son, the pearl of my heart

I will love him, love him like my son.

09-02-2016

Assalamualaikum wr.

Today is my happy day a wedding that I dream of simple is not so festive just a big family and business relations mama papa.

First seeing him my husband subhanallah this man in front of me is the man I met 3 years ago I still remember how cold face how he looked at me.

O God what are your plans You brought me up with him the first man who made my heart not calm you betrothed me to the man who first knocked on my heart door.

Fatan closes Zara's diary, where did Zara meet her three years ago?

Fatan kept remembering when he met Zara as he remembered he had never met Zara. His daydreams ran out with a knock on the door and he immediately kept Zara's book in his desk drawer.

"Sorry Bang, Lana wants to sleep with her brother" Zara said. Fatan just nodded and Zara closed the door again.

Fatan went down to see Zara teaching her son how to write.

Zara is a picture of a good mother and not always stepmother is cruel proof Zara is very fond of her child, Zara, in the past, his mother often offered a photo of the woman he wanted to be betrothed with him, but he always refused to be seen from the picture how the woman would be with his son.

But when his mother wanted to match him with Zara he did not want to see her picture and immediately agreed to it. Is it fate? He doesn't know either.

"Honey said to want to bob the same papa?" Ask Fatan who was sitting next to Lana. Lana looked at Fatan and nodded.

"Mama Lana is bobok first huh?"

"Yes, baby" said Zara.

Fatan and Lana leave Zara, Zara tidying up Lana's books scattered on the table she collects and puts under the table.

****