Aryana Hanna

What is the name of destiny

"The bitterness of life that I have to live with is actually a picture of what? I don't know myself either"

Since graduating High School Hana is eager to continue the level of education to a higher place, majoring in medicine. But what power, Hana had not been able to express feelings about her wishes, other than when her mother invited Hana to have a small conversation. Saying that Hana doesn't need to have more desire to go to college, "Your sister just doesn't go to college. Later if forced to stop in the middle of the road. Dear money that has come in, you know for yourself the nature of your Papah! If being kind heart all does not matter but if it is bad it must be indifferent" Hana can guess the core of this conversation

In Hana's heart was eager to say" I haven't even talked about college but it's been banned"

Mom suggested that Hana find work immediately. Because most girls or boys after graduating from high school must immediately look for work. "Where do I know to look for work? No acquaintance or exact destination"

For me, finding a job is not difficult. Just hand over the application letter to PT and wait for the call

Without further ado the next day Hana's mother ordered Hana to make SIM C. Hana begged her mother to accompany her "But mein ya mah?" Hana asked in a clear voice

"You've never been to such a rich place! I know a lot of police. Go alone"

Hana was upset"But different mah, where Hana PKL's office is the same place where the Office to make SIM different districts"

"Give up, go it alone"

Surely early in the morning Mother had ordered Hana to quickly prepare to take care of the needs, Hana departed very lethargic. "Why doesn't Mom want to hear what I want! I never take care of this kind of thing. Nor do you know what to do there" Along the way Hana continues to shed tears, not for fear of facing off in the stewardship office, just that Hana is sad because her mother's attitude never changes. Just like when Hana begged her mother to understand her desire to be escorted to school

Since that day Hana harbored a deep desire to become a doctor, Even though Hana knew forced even the state of the family economy still would not be able to pay the cost of education is very expensive

I don't know what exactly God determined on the line of life that Hana was living. Hana's here and there applying to find a job, it's still hard. There was no phone call or because Hana was not trying hard anymore

As if Hana's life brings bad luck and bad, why is it always her who is blamed in the name of dissatisfaction. Dad used to cheat, he was considered incapable, considered a shame that is always troublesome. Even his mother was sick of seeing the look on his face and drove him away

And now when he grew up, his father also felt hate for him because it continued to be troublesome without anyone to be proud of

While her male sodara continues to compare the appearance and behavior of her biological sodara to others who she considers better appearance and deserve everyday to be seen

Be ill. That was all Hana could say in her heart

Why does he always seem to have bad luck, pathetic-looking "I don't want to be pitied"

Since the day that Mother and Sister were much closer, after that day. Mother looked at Hana differently "Hating me. When he was angry he always said that I was the son of a stepmother. Go home to your mother" Hana cried every time she heard these words

"I used to always look bad. Now, nothing else looks the same"

"Just because I don't show hatred to my stepmother doesn't mean I'm defending her and not because I never talked about it and then I can just conclude that I like it. I never wanted to talk because I was a child. At that time I was only 10 years old, and I could only join Papah when Mamah was not home, even though I had to live with my stepmother for 1 year"

His mother chose to go to work out on the grounds that she wanted to change her life. Earn a lot of money then build a decent residential house, dearest after almost a year all outside the initial plan. Hana's father had begun not to feel able to take care of children while working, then he invited his young wife to live together.

Both of Hana's sisters are teenagers, while Hana is still hugging the teddy bear.

Mom came home after hearing all the bad news. Without success he came home with a little money. It was unexpected to see a scene unlike a shadow

Papah Hana's somewhere. While Hana and her brothers live in a house without parents. All are lived with all their might without complaining of hunger or lack

Thought Hana she got back her mother who was as gentle as daybreak. According to the memory of three and a half years ago, of course, just a joke

The way you talk and your attitude are a little different. But the hatred of his disappointment never changed even more.

Now when Hana has reached the age of an adult girl exactly 24 years, she is trying to accept destiny with a spacious chest. Although sometimes being daydreamed he remembered the spark of his sadness experienced

This memory is the saddest memory, where Hana fights to her mother about the job she will try to enter the application form. That night Hana said quietly, but her mother disagreed. Trying to say firmly, there was a debate between Hana and her mother. That night there was only Hannah and Mother at home, Hana ran out the door with tears that continued to pour. His mother screams and orders Hana to go back inside, but Hana refuses to obey her mother's words

With a burst of emotion, a word came out of his mother's mouth. Saying "Basic whore. The child cannot be taken care of" said in a loud voice, in the yard

Hana seemed to fall because her feet were limp hearing her mother's words just now. Somehow her mother said so because Hana did not want to go back in the house, choosing to stay outside

Without looking Hana walked away to her Grandmother's residence, to just forget the quarrel. Unexpectedly his mother chased after him and when she got home Grandma Mother almost slapped Hana's cheek. I don't know what was felt at that time, felt mixed "Hit, hit aja Mah" Toh at home and along the way several times Mother hit and clenched fists, directing to Hana even hit. Then now this hate slap why should it be arrested? Daru used to just kick and drag is normal why only this feels heavy and stiff! I won't give up even if it hurts

Dikira Hana, his father never harbored hatred for his daughter all this time. Things out of mind, Hana never understood the nature of her Papah other than about Household Kisruh, Judi and mistress or other girls

Hana is very sorry why she once told her Mom and Dad that she had a lover, 'Sister was in the place of the PKL now calling Hana. Ask to get to know each other more closely'

Every time the frustration you experience is always vented to Hana "Where? Who said they wanted to come?" The part where Dad said with emotion hating Hana "Basar was high school even just being a bego child. Wants to be blocked by men, Dimanfaatin. You moron"

Hana cried without answering anything, was silent shut down. Hana never wanted to discuss her relationship with Setyo to both parents or small talk to brothers

One day, the eldest brother was getting married but problems re-emerged where the brother asked to bring 50 million as a sign of marriage. That's too much money

Father did not vent his anger on his eldest son

When Mom will soon harvest rice, I've been looking for people to immediately harvest rice in the rice field, regrettably the person canceled without giving news. Hannah who doesn't know what's going on. Saying "Udah the hell" to his mother who keeps nagging in the kitchen

My answer was unexpected. He was even more angry and said loudly, Daddy came while running from the TV room to Hana who was washing dishes. Without a stale father immediately flushed Hana with dishwater laundry, kicking Hana like a bal. Hana cried out in shock as she ran to the bathroom, locking the door. With full of emotion Dad kicked the door, Hana who was holding the bathroom door until it bounced, felt a pain in her head

In a loud voice, Dad said rudely, expressing all his emotions and hatred about Hana who likes to talk about uncertain men, begging a man who does not know what. Just want to be played

Sad, as if it were just a dream. Didn't want Hana to remember what sentences had been thrown by her father did not also want to remember the pain of his father's abusive treatment

Since the exhausting day. Hana always tries to forget the fondness of Setyo because all the memories remind that Hana is a bad girl who is not pleasing to the eye "Don't dream in the middle of the room, don't digress at night. Just accept all your fate" Hana smiled at a glance, revealing the falsity of how she wanted to rebel to just say This is not my fault