Aryana Hanna

hushed

why was I born like this?! I wanted to go as far as possible. Despite all the unseen burdens, I ran away hoping I would never look back. I squeezed the skin on the chest very strongly but could not feel the squeeze to the heart

what big mistake did I make first? why am I to blame for being born in this world, it's not me who made him leave you, it's not me who made him separate from you

is it wrong for me to be born as a flower? what wrong! is it true that all the curses experienced are pure arrivals that I carry with me being born on earth?, sorry am I. I don't want to live long if all the pain you've been through starts since I was, I'm sorry....

will I leave all this, the curse will come back with me to go forever?. Let the curse be away from all that I love, I won't get hurt again too far.

***

the byuur......

"what's that sound...?" a pecel seller mother screamed in amazement at the sound of falling from the water "Eh, please, please someone splash" ran, yelling to and fro calling anyone.

some young men approached the mother who shouted for help "what's wrong?"

"please, some are plunged into irrigation, like a child, it's as simple as his own still. lying on the edge of the linen"

byuuur, a young man jumped into an irrigation stream, looking for a child who was washed away by the water.

"close your eyes, don't be afraid.there's mom here, grab mom's hand...."

the 4-year-old boy grabbed the five fingers of the woman in the water "mummy..."

"close your eyes, do not be afraid.you will not be carried away by water, it is not yet time you go. Hold your hands tightly"

"mama.." the little boy closed his eyelids, imagining he was sleeping on a comfortable soft bed.

someone grabbed his body, feeling like a lump of gravel.

suddenly, haap......

"aaaaha..ha...nga'haa...ha...hiks....hiks. mamah.." a little girl crying hysterically in the lap of her mother "mom, hana is afraid of mamah"

"shut, don't cry. cup diem a lot of ngeliatin" mamah hana whispered in her ear

"yes.. meet...."

"yes, I don't know. hana don't move place. tetep under the place of the beginning of the fall, not at all laughing at the water" the bachelor of responsibility who took hana from the water was chuckling in wonder! how can you not get carried away by the water flow

"strange, but again the floods" a young man who almost jumped to find hana was astonished, he almost jumped if he did not see how out in the water in a matter of seconds

"jatoh has been a long time, it is impossible not to drift" mih nyaik tried to explain to the crowd

"it's gone to take it home. change clothes, get wet. Kasian will catch your child's wind" grandpa hana quickly cut off the conversation of the crowd so as not to continue

"already..had not been continued again.the important thing is that it is safe, do not get scattered everywhere.just all of us who are here only know" grandpa hana continued to forbid everyone to gossip about the senseless incident just now

everyone nodded in agreement

***

this afternoon just got home, just changed clothes. Mamah asked for help hana go to the stall, buy sugar

mamah called hana from the kitchen "hana sugar abis, to the stall first. a moment"

hana was in the yard, sweeping the leaves of the fallout.strewn everywhere "yes, for a moment"

"Eh, hana! buy what?" she looked at the mana who had just arrived

"buy sugar" want to go quickly hana do not want to chat with the neighbor's mother, the feeling is already uncomfortable

"Oh yeah! you didn't want to be 12 years ago, when my son called you? if not the child I want to call you, surely now you are not here. have died from the past. if the leafan play the same silahtuhrahmi to the house om joeny.you have a debt of gratitude, if you have, don't forget that"

after having paid for the sugar, Hannah simply passed by without answering a word from the words of the neighbor's mother

"eh, hana.... once said thank you om joeny already nolongin you, do not forget it. You do not forget right?" the neighbor's mother screamed from inside the shop

hearing that annoying scream, no matter what nonsense words 'debt'. "foolish time" hana ngedumel, passed without looking let alone answer the rant. for how he never owed anyone a debt of gratitude, the one who shouted was just a self-informed person

in the past, bujang tanggu who helped hana was stiff in the cardboard 'hidden'

his father is a lecherous man who likes to watch a dance show, every time his father came home drunk. always beat, scolded him and the bachelor of responsibility was hiding in the cardboard because he was too afraid of his father

it's cold and hardened.....

searched by many people until the sky turns yellow keorange, meet in the warehouse 'hiding'

his pulse was suppressed, it seemed there was still hope of life.by his family was brought to the residence of his grandfather from papah, his grandfather had ordered to find two chicken eggs as well as moringa leaves and more

the bachelor was breathing again, his body began to warm up. he managed to save his life by using two eggs, then the egg was ordered to be laid

everything passed, his parents just forgot about it. throw away" as if all that happened never happened, the single father promised not to beat him let alone scold him as long as he wanted to survive. his father deeply regretted his actions

***

hana thought, what is meant by two words 'hutang_budi' hana never knew the language.....

for him all is the message of fate, because falling from his bed and then into the flow of irrigation water.for him all is the way of life, life is dead is the business of God. no human being has the right to say about another human's life_death rule

hana is a very haughty and arrogant girl, for her there is no need to teach her about life and death. many things remain secret but many things can be revealed mystery so as not always a question mark...???

he hates things that are exaggerated when they are only pretenses to get flattery and praise, useless. maybe he can see the future of someone he looks at face or gestures, starting from happiness, suffering_lara, to suffering and death. however, Hannah could not see the past because she continued to spin on the time axis

hana is always at war with time. 'rejecting' but hana remains plunged into the valley of darkness.* greedy souls

what is he looking for exactly? every time Hannah looked, she saw pain, happiness, suffering, death.

hana will turn to the back that she looks at. there is or is no black shadow, when she sees there, then she will talk and say the agreement 'rejecting but can also accept'. renouncing curiosity, accepting to be a silent witness, but that is specific to greedy souls.Greedy souls are souls that dwell in the valley of darkness, and yet are especially true, sometimes it looks faint dark aura from the owner of the body, but can not be a definite benchmark, because God is the one who determines about all the records of life/death creation

when he meets a pure soul he will not find anything in front of what he sees. Pure souls are souls who have mengikhlaskan whatever has become a record of life/association 'suratan destiny'. it cannot be changed any more than God is willing to change

not all the same for the soul that fell in the valley of darkness is the same as himself.he is still not pure, something that is pure is difficult to find. it is possible that people called guardians are people who can be said to have a pure soul

hana always thought that he was also included in greedy souls, could not explain everything between life_death 'suratan' was very heavy lived.heavy burden was carried on the shoulders

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