Aryana Hanna

Grief

Until when do I keep going like this? Lament the inner lara nasip. I want to run as far as possible, as far as I can. Disappear covered in smog, let me go. Let go of myself so that I may be free from all the heavy burdens that I carry everywhere in every walking step

I want to stand on a solid foundation, not on a greasy ground

I don't want to be sucked into the muddy ground, I'm afraid I can't save myself. I was afraid I could not endure waiting for help to come to me, saving me from fear and disappointment

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Hana's ancestors were from the Tiger Demon faction, yet they. Hana's great-grandfather was in the highest tier of 'Maung' it was the Great King's designation for the Tiger Kings

That's what makes Hana afraid of water, too. It can't be much different, Hana can't swim too much for fear of diving in the water, She feels like cramping all over the body. Vibrates

The power they teach cannot be learned can only be passed down by generations to the next generation

But it has a ban. Cannot do dirty, dirty deeds in the sense of defiling purity. The ancestors of Hana before coming to Islam they first embraced Hinduism. After Islam came they converted to Islam and then said the oath

The vow that their knowledge could not be learned could only come down to their descendants, their flesh and blood. To always protect their safety, but on condition that they must not oppose religious teachings, they must not perform acts prohibited by religion. That's a benchmark

But not all descendants get what they have inherited, not much. Teikat for descendants who are able to carry out all the prohibitions and rules

A Maung does not have a slap that is also why it cannot be learned, if only all can learn what will be the next generation? Pitting against each other's knowledge? Boast about yourself?

Everyone must have ancestral origins, right? Never forget them because they love their children

Their love and affection are always protective as well as guarding. Hana does not assume all is wrong or right, for Hana if having that trust is better than having no role model at all

Sometimes Hana often found ancestors in certain places, wherever every Hana stepped foot to walk. They were always looking, staring far away as if endless. That's them, even Hannah did not understand what they were really doing

Hana realized they must be sad to see this all. What Hana can not explain, sometimes they appear in the form of humans but their faces and all over the body covered with white robes glowing fur or sometimes also in the form of certain animals

Grandpa great-grandfather, Grandmother great-grandmother had indeed died that was left behind is a form of ordinary called Khodam or their false knowledge that can not be brought to the grave

Pure Shadow is the shadow of a person who can understand the meaning of life _death

Ancestors are no longer there but they pass on the knowledge of the World and the Hereafter

All religions come from God. All that lives is made because the Almighty God created it

No creature, let alone a man, can be as good as the mouth says that he is an infidel, he is a polytheist, he has no right to say so. Before talking to others try to first look at the mirror, then see what the reflected form looks like

Hana had never heard the sound of other creatures fussing over a contentious matter to the point of churning. In excess besides humans, sometimes humans have the intellect and majesty but humans sometimes more humble themselves to get glory and power

When the creature laughs with laughter laughs at the humans who are in their trap,

If Hana was in that place, she would look at someone. The creature laughed and said maybe God must have been disappointed

Yes the religious scholars see them so differently but in Hana's view they live in peace, just as live life. They are kind, friendly and polite

The often disturbing creatures incited the humans out of what Jin faction! Hana also did not know, which Hana knew they were sent directly by Satan. They-they're clever at disguising themselves, it's hard to see their true form

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Maybe everyone's views are different. Hana realizes that she has her own religious beliefs, sometimes Hana wants to cry to see people squandering food. Like strolling rice, logic only if rice and side dishes are surrounded by waves who wants to eat? Fish eat rice?

But if the way is changed, for example, eating rice and side dishes together on the beach after celebrating the ceremony is good to go home full stomach. That's Hana's mind, innocent girl's mind

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Hana is furious with the lover of the heart. After he just returned from the house of his cousin, Hana called Setyo back

Tut's....Tut's...Tut's..

"Hallllooooo" Setyo's voice raised a phone call

"Hal'llooo, you're talking about Erna?" Hana opened up the trust with emotion

"What's the deck anyway? Brother didn't say anything"

"So Erna said that Brother Andri kept brother was the same old phone call with him"

"Call?? The deck, it was once. The brother knows his ex, whose name is Andri, continues to give Erna numbers. Brother Denger from Andri that the same adek Erna is a cousin, brother nanya called your real cousin Hana? That's not saying anything"

"Lying, he still likes Andri, he considers that Brother is really Andri. Adek disappointed with Brother, Brother if you want to tease girls outside whatever but do not have the same sodara relationship adek so complicated Bang"

"Who's the tease! My brother is not rich"

Setyo's voice began to panic should how to calm Hana's emotions burning jealous fire "Dec, Brother did not say anything, it used to be the deck! Her brother is actually your cousin Hana's sister"

"Don't know she's pregnant with her first child still think that she doesn't love her husband. Tetep said love with Andri, kok Abang even pretended to be Andri. Where is Brother's mind? O'on Abang inih ya"

"Why so say Brother this o'on the hell deck? It's up to you not to believe"

"Indeed Brother is rich so o'on. Do you want to get angry? Here's how dare! huh uh?"

"Yes a grand old! I'm lazy Abang said it continues. tired Brother"

"All because of Brother" Hana closed the phone call full of emotion.he scavenged as hard as in the bedroom, wanted Hana to say I believe in you but emotions want to be forgotten

Hana wants to vent all the anger because Setyo never bluntly knew Andri's ex-Erna. While Erna and her husband had children, not long ago their son died due to disaster

Accidentally Setyo called Hana who was playing at the sodara house, caught Erna without hesitation Erna eavesdropping on the conversation since that day Erna made Hana feel disappointed in Setyo

there was something strange on Hana's mind. Strange Erna betrothed Hana to Andri widower one child but as if Erna very well knows that Andri on the phone is still single, she like to want Setyo even though she already has a husband

It is fitting that eight months ago Erna's husband always complained about the disharmony of their household. Hana thought it might be possible that Erna expected a further relationship with Setyo

Setyo told Hana on the phone that, yesterday Erna called him, saying that she does not have to be in touch with Hana no need to date any friends do not. It's strange why Erna spoke so, she already had a husband then why she wanted to stab her sister snatch her sister's lover!

Want Hana to say I forgive for all the mistakes you've made but can't. Erna's son has just died there is no way Hana forgives Setyo and Setyo continues to do so again. Indiscriminately claiming to be someone else

Indeed, in Hana's heart never blamed Setyo for the death of Erna's son, it was all the business of Erna and her family, which Hana hated was Erna utilizing the hoots of her household in order to get a divorce, then continue the relationship with Setyo. Seizing Hana's lover

Hana continues to vent emotions on Setyo but never the slightest problem let alone to quarrel with Erna. Hana does not want to be a thorn in the flesh to avenge when it is just a matter of no need until revenge_return

there is no need to do that, hurt even yourself

The mess that made Hana frustrated. At the time of the quarrel, Hana's ponder will be born soon and a very beautiful boy was born. However, Hana was already traumatized by the death of Erna's son. Hannah always imagined the disaster

Every time Hana tells Setyo on the phone Setyo will always encourage Hana to be tough, keep Hana's body together.don't be afraid again, all must be fine because it is always guarded together

I want Hana to forget that trauma

Tut's.. Tut's...Tut's...

"Abang, you're not calling Erna anymore?" Hana started the conversation

"Dear, that was it! Brother is just how we know Hana? it's aja"

"Keep brother what else?"

"Yes nanyain about adek, not weird loh deck! Believe the same Brother the deck, brother not bo'ong"

"Until anytime you're still a bo'ong. He will never believe in me. All because of Brother"

"Sorry Brother on deck! Don't be angry anymore"

"Don't want to"

"Well, if you don't want to"

"Abang adek still can not forget the incident. Brother adek kelso why even so rich gini squeeze adek, brother"

"Dek don't cry. There will be a brother, adek can not be tight, dah ya Brother work first, dah!!"

"Yes, drugs"

Before the disaster happened, Hana had seen the picture but at that time could not recognize a boy aged less than 3 years who was lying on the table "Who died?" Ask Hana

Time makes Hana forget that picture, forget where and who Hana saw. Hana wanted to scream, all for nothing

"That's it, maybe that's what God best gives" Hannah regretted not being able to turn back time, not being able to change time

If only it were sooner to realize whether it was possible that such a deep painful event did not occur? Hana wants to ask God directly in order to get a definite answer

Right now all Hana could do was continue to blame Setyo. "That's all her fault, it will never be forgiven" Hana's angry thoughts whenever she recalled the events of the bad picture

Regret where Hana can not recognize the face of the vague picture, where Hana can not recognize the room of the house is very familiar