Aerospace

Chapter 62 - Endiburg Castle

Nathalie Pov's

Edinburgh Castle is a historic castle that dominates the skyline of Edinburgh, Scotland. The fort stands on a former volcano called Castle Rock. Archaeologists estimate that humans have occupied the site since at least the Iron Age (2nd century), although the type of settlement at that time is still unclear. The royal palace dates back at least to the time of David I in the 12th century and continued to be the royal residence until the Union of the Crowns of England and Scotland in 1603. Since the 15th century, the palace's residential role has been reduced, and in the 17th century it was used as a military barracks. Its importance as Scotland's national heritage was recognized from the early 19th century, and various restoration programs have been launched. As one of the most important fortresses of the Kingdom of Scotland, Edinburgh Palace was involved in many historic conflicts from the Wars of Scottish Independence in the 14th century to the Jakobit Rebellion in 1745.

I've been here one week. Not just for traveling but for running errands. Traveling around Europe with a travel group from Indonesia. Meeting people from that country reminds me of someone also to my extended family living in Indonesia. Honestly, I miss them very much.

Seven months ago I traveled around the world. Exactly since my return from Indonesia after Camila's marriage. I have decided to start a new life. Working as a tour guide.

And it is my work that has brought me to visit tourist attractions all over the world. A job that is very fun for me even though sometimes it cannot be denied if the feeling of fatigue is also extraordinary.

But with the work that I am currently doing a little amusing me. Forgetting me about the incident the other day.

May the path I have taken be the best. And I always hoped that what I was doing right now would keep me away from someone.

A man more precisely. A man who has influenced my life. Daffi Juliandra, somehow his name, the shadow of his face is very difficult for me to remove from my memory. I insisted on erasing the memory of him.

It's not that I hate Daffi, not at all. I feel so ashamed of him. I feel like a woman who has no price, no shame even . I feel bad for everything I did before. And damn it again why should I drag Daffi into my life.

I closed my eyes. Flashes of the past reappear in my memory . How heartbroken I am to see Brother Dirga who is married to my sister, Camila Wijaya. Maybe because at that time I felt so obsessed with Brother Dirga that I did not know shamefully I thrust myself to replace Camila. And the worse was with the light of Brother Dirga rejected me.

I am heartbroken, sad and heartbroken. My biggest mistake was why I had to vent it on alcohol. I was drunk and Daffi was kind enough to force me to drink with him. Daffi is actually good outside of his annoying nature. I don't know why the man had been so incessantly teasing me and chasing after me even though I clearly did not like his actions. Daffi was still not discouraged and remained kind to me.

Until the incident that night made me run away and run away from him. Daffi is a good and responsible man. After that incident Daffi kept looking for me offering an answer that I knew he was sincere about.

But I can't accept his kindness. I was too ashamed of him. All because of my fault and not his fault. I don't feel like I deserve his kindness. So I decided to stay away from him. Disappeared from his reach  . Even with the heart I blocked his phone number. Cut off her access so she can't call or find me.

I knew that my actions had hurt Daffi. But this is the best path. I don't want to drag Daffi deeper into my life. Daffi is a good man but I have not been able to give my love to him and I do not want to give him false hope. Daffi deserves to find his own happiness and he deserves a woman who is better than me and who is able to love him sincerely. I consider what happened between me and Daffi to be a mistake. One night's mistake that I myself will bear.

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A name I remember right now. Camila. I miss him. I took my phone out of my pants pocket. Looking for Camila's contact. Dial the number through the video call application through whatsapp.

Camila's face was clearly displayed on my phone screen . I smiled broadly. Very happy with her.

" hey....Mila...miss you.." I waved my hand at her.

" Nath.." Camila's face was glazed.

" where have you been. Why just call me so often "he said again.

" sorry if I just got in touch with you. I'm in scotland now. "

" what ? Hey why are you there ? Around europe ?"

I'm nodding.

" i'm a tour guide now. "

" oh yes, is it ? How can you ?"

" yes can.. eum.ini I again bring a group from Indonesia. When can we come if you want. "

" you're really good to be able to travel around the world now  . "

I just grin

" how are you Mil.."

" mother, Brother Ken, sister Danisha are they all healthy. I miss mom's cooking." Tanyaku.

" thank God they're all healthy."

" thank God, then. Uh if Dirga's sister. He's good too.I wish Mil well that you two are always happy. If I see Dirga's sister it's love for you. Well despite the reason she married you because of her mama. But I'm pretty sure that he actually really likes you Mil. "

I saw Camila's countenance change.

 

" Mile.... Are you okay. "ask me worried.

" i want a divorce from Om Dirga. "

" what? A divorce? Hey don't be kidding. "

" i'm not kidding Nath. "

" continue..... I can suddenly get divorced. "

" Of Dirga who will divorce me."

" how can you?" ask me curious.

I took seriously what Mila was saying. I don't know why I get so mad at them both Om and niece just as have no heart.

" Fuck that Danu. So the point is all because of Danu right ?. "

I don't think about my childhood friend. Why would you want to separate Om Dirga and Camila. As much as Danu's love for Mila shouldn't be like that. Danu should give up anyway in this world there are still many women that he can love.

" i have to talk to Danu." I said.

" what's Nath doing."

" it is as if to make him realize that love cannot be forced. He should have realized who you are, Brother Dirga. And brother Dirga should not easily want to hurt you and surrender yourself to Danu. It doesn't have any brains."

" patient Nath. I also talked to Danu. I can't be with her even if Om Dirga is more separated from me. "

" keep Danu saying what."

" whether Nath I didn't know I was dizzy thinking about my way of life. I never should have accepted Om Dirga if I knew this was the case. "

" Mila is patient. There must be a way out. I helped you talk to Danu. "

" thanks you Nath.... Uh Nath was already yes I hung up. Still at this college. We'll connect again. Okay. "

" your ops are still on campus? Okay okay..... Yes, greetings to mother and brother Ken and sister Danisha... Love you Mil's.... "

" Love you too Nath....."

I smile and save my phone.

Thinking back to Danu, it seems like I should talk to her. Kasian Mila cook is still young already want to be a widow..