A Dusty Photo's

Chapter 4: The Story under the Stars

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Hanin greeted me with a smile when I was officially introduced by the homeroom teacher. Then follow the direction of my path which turned out to be sitting next to him. Back corner, the only bench left.

My class is a Science class where the whole lesson will deal with the object of research. I am between Seneng and 'not because I will definitely be busy.

But Hanin said he was never that busy. Or he is too lazy to be called busy.

Felix was already waiting in the cafeteria when me and Hanin came. Already ordered iced oranges that even now live half.

"Your boys are in class" Felix said for the first time.

"Why don't you take science first?"

"Gue doesn't like to think."

"Felix's special answer." Hanin said then our laughter was created.

Thinking about it, I felt this atmosphere for a long time. Sitting three and then joking without direction. Spreading gossip about regional artists, capital artists, to foreign artists. Although sometimes the conversation is nothing heavy.

But that's the moment I miss.

The cafeteria was getting crowded and I saw that every seat was almost full of students. I saw my Budhe and two other busy employees back there who immediately made me want to help. Han and Felix were trying to help, but I forbid it. This is not part of their job. And the rest hours should be used to rest, not vice versa. But it does not apply to me because now my status is the nephew of the canteen mother. And he is my guardian. At least I helped deliver the order.

That's so. I sent a tray of food and drinks that had been ordered to the table. Budhe forbade fearing that my uniform was dirty, but I insisted. You can use apron.

My first day at school broke a record for me as a troubled new student. But I was not intentionally.

A student was chatting with a man when I came with a dirty glass and bowl. For the excessive capacity of the tray I admit it was me wrong. To cause me fatigue and accidentally bumped it into a girl.

Spontaneous the girl screamed. Looks very angry at me. All the bowls and falling glasses made a loud noise. It was so easy to be the center of attention. The girl in front of me wagged her dirty clothes then looked at me sharply and shouted. I'm dead flea.

A guy next to her suddenly brushed off my arm as I tried to help clean up, making me feel even more guilty.

Then just like that. After saying all the making in front of my face as well of course in front of all eyes in this canteen they go. And I petrified. Fear of moving, even breathing seems crowded.

Then Han and Felix came up to me. Not to calm or pat my shoulder. But to sit cleaning the shards of shard on my feet. Who scattered until under the table. I want to cry.

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"Sorry, Budhe." I was still in the cafeteria when the cafeteria was a little quiet. Maybe only leave a few visitors who are still cool chatting.

And Budhe did not answer. He just kept quiet. With his constantly moving hand wiping several tables.

After the incident in the cafeteria this afternoon my feelings became a real mess. Whether it's thinking about what's going to happen next is also thinking about other people about me.

Ah, it turns out I'm an adult.

I've never been this scared of other people's judgments. I was too unconcerned about the remark as well as that gaze. But over time I felt that other people's views were always important to my life.

After school I decided to go back to the cafeteria to help Budhe clean up everything. With the other two employees we were silent. Until I get home. Until dinner.

I'm desperate. Did I screw up Budhe's day. Or did I cause his heart to ache so that he could not forgive. I kept thinking about it until my oldest son Budhe invited me to sit on the roof of the house. In tile quotes, because Budhe is not as rich as it could have a house with a rooftop.

"Why, Lan?" bang Lino opens the conversation. He was looking at the sky.

"The month you should ask, why did you bring Moon here."

"So in the sky again there is no Moon, so brother invite you here. The sky is complete."

I laughed a little.

"A long time ago, yes, Lan." bang Lino once again said. I just look.

"Yes." Yeah."

"Here brother always angry Budhe you if you ngajak brother same Juna go up to the tile. Good brother's intentions."

"Complementing a celestial object, bang?"

"Exactly," bang Lino laughed at me too.

I looked at the sky. Connecting every star to my liking. Shaping this and that.

"Formerly, you once made Budhe you angry, "I stopped my gaze to the stars. "and this time not only angry because you don't want to turn on the yard, but also, or take you with Juna even Lana to the top of the tile. This time it was a mistake. Budhe you are angry and angry always make your brother kapok. No more making Budhe angry. Budhe you're just diem. But his demi is just the same brother. After dinner brother is not called, fitting breakfast is also brother is not called. Brother woke up bad luck also Budhe you just diem. Pocket money that is usually given before we say we want to go to school at the breakfast pass. On the taroh in front of my brother's plate. But just brother. Three days Budhe you're angry. At that time my brother knew the cause of your angry Budhe. It's not about brother's fault, Lan. It's not that brother made Budhe that you pay the damages. But because the brother who can not control the emotions brother. Brother also can not think clearly, brother can not be shaken said older people."

I lowered. Then Bang Lino looked at me from the side and patted me on the shoulder.

"Budhe you're angry not because he lost. It was not that he had to brand the bowl and the glass fold up. Open up about the embarrassed Budhe too. But because you ignored Budhe. There may be a word Budhe you do not hear. Maybe you're a wayward for breaking one of the rules that Budhe made you."

I looked back at Bang Lino. It's probable. Maybe because I don't want to hear what Budhe has to say. Budhe has banned me from doing so many times. Forbidden me to get involved in his job even if it was just a small job. I feel guilty for that.

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