A Dusty Photo's
Chapter 20: Friends or more than friends
...- A Dusty Photo...
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Nine nights enough. Bang Lino and Juna have been in contact many times. Felix and Han also sent a new message that I could reply after I came out of the apartment nyokap.
Sebastian was asked to drive home. And I'm not resisting. Because it was night and I was afraid to go home alone.
"You look so happy." Sebastian drew a smile when I saw him.
"Maybe, yes."
"That's real."
"To thank you earlier, I'll respond again." I put the phone on my lap. "Gue thank you very much. I know what you were doing."
"You're also a whim."
"Yes. Why can I be that cool." I forced a smile. A different smile. For the reason of my happiness is too ambiguous.
Was I really happy or just an alibi.
"Thank you."
"This is the umpteenth time you say thank you." I looked at Sebastian.
"This time for Mommy. Not me."
"What reason is this time?"
"Udah makes Mami smile."
"Aren't you guys happy?"
"Yes. Before I died."
I'm speechless. Died off? I don't know about that news.
"Sorry?" I want to make sure. Is he joking or is he really talking.
"I died two months ago in Bali."
I'm bowed. It does not mean to bring sadness.
"Nyokap has been quiet ever since. That's why I took him to Jakarta. Decided to stay here and meet you."
I'm speechless.
On the sidelines of silence I had no other words from Sebastian until I decided to go down in front of the alley. Do not enter because it will be difficult to find a way to turn around. I just looked down when Sebastian waved for farewell.
I walked towards the budhe house and as long as it was only nyokap that was on my mind. Is he okay. But the debate began to come when I thought about what he had done to me.
Maybe he deserved it.
Arriving in front of the house bang Lino and Juna were sitting on the porch facing off playing chess. I walked closer to them.
"Cock just got home, Lan?"
"I'm new from Mommy's house, bang." I looked down. Sitting in an empty chair near the Lino Bang.
"Your mom?" bang Lino looked at me and Juna alternately. Like not understanding. "It's not like he's in Bali."
I even cry. I covered my face with my palm. Prevent tears from falling by pressing them tightly.
I felt the touch of a hand bang Lino rubbed my back. And Juna's words were not so clear I heard. I want to confide.
A few minutes later my budhe came out. He was a little surprised by me crying and hit Juna instead.
"What are you doing on the moon?"
I even stood up. And squandered a hug into my budhe. I cry without knowing why I cry. Is it for the nyokap state or is it because I am too acting strong.
Righteous. I was acting strong. From the beginning, I contacted me and asked about missing. I really want to answer yes. I'm real kangen. That afternoon. But what I felt was different.
"Budhe. "I'm crying. I do not stop even if I force.
I miss Mami. I want to hug her like this. But I am not able to.
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Twelve o'clock at night. The sky was so clear for some reason. And the wind gently caressed my skin. Like a sympathetic rub.
Juna beside me didn't talk at all. Only occasionally sipping his soda can either already how much he changed cans.
My eyes are burning with tears. My cheeks are also swollen. Why is there sadness in my brain. Responding to the eyes to remove the eyes even though it is only a little. I rubbed my nose. It can no longer breathe.
"June? If I sleep in." I spoke without looking.
"It can be annexed by Mama, Lan."
"Sorry."
"Not to apologize."
I lowered. I rubbed my runny nose back.
"Gue can't tell you."
"Don't fall asleep you think. I understand." Juna squeezes a can of soda. Throw it away. "Where would I care?"
I'm looking. It seems better than being quiet with each other.
"Since I was a kid, I had no story. If the story is the same Bang Lino, you know the person himself like how. Can be mocked at my end. My mom's story couldn't either. I'm just a prestige kegedean. Look to lo, I know your life is more miserable than mine, sori for this one. The only friend I have is Lana. But even Lana's story can't. He's smaller than me, obviously I have to take care of him or have to beat him up. Not the other way around." Juna took a breath. I am still excited about the story.
"Pas Junior High, I finally have a friend. But you know, he's just as troubled as you are. His life is not that calm. Play far for habituation, in the end I have no friends vent."
I lowered. I don't think I'm the only one who suffers the most. At least I still have Han Fan Felix. Ah, I remember them.
"Month. I don't know what it's like to live in a broken home. Do not know also it feels like letting go of the light and bokap I took another couple. Same thing I want." Juna looked at me. "Gue also does not know, Lan, as disappointed and as hateful as you are your parents. But I know you have a place for stories. You have a place where you can take a moment off the load on your shoulders."
Juna still looked at me. And it felt like something hard hit my stomach. It makes it very painful and responds to the brain for me to cry even harder.
"From the beginning I just want to nemenin lo here. There is no intention to horrify kesuh lo. Because you have a friend."
"Gue?"
"The same Felix clearly knows who you are. They're friends of yours from long ago. I am sure, they will be wiser to give advice to you than others. Because your positions are the same."
I was as much as a fan. Looking at Juna with a look of thanks.
"Ah, yes.. Lo know? Han the same Felix didn't stop spamming me today." Juna pulled out his phone. It shows contact messages that are mostly just Han and Felix.
"They asked you about it. Not home yet. Where else. She's okay. I answered him."
I laughed a little. Han and Felix. Ah, I forgot to have them.
"June? But is it not awkward if I always tell my problems to them?"
"Who? They also tell each other stories. I mean, you know their story, it wouldn't be fair if they didn't know your story."
I looked back at the sky. Right too. Han and Felix are always there for me.
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