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Chapter 14: Anastasia

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..._Safrank...

The plan invites Ana my way is canceled unilaterally. He was angry, that's for sure. And the girl's anger made me even more convinced to stop this unhealthy relationship of mine. Ana refused, that's for sure. But I insist.

Something that is forced is never fun. That's a quote I've heard all along among many other quotes. I honestly wanted to tell Ana that, but I'm not sure. Not because of my shaky beliefs but because I couldn't apply that sentence well.

Have I ever done anything with pleasure? I forgot when I last did it. All this time, I was always forcing what I wanted to do. Including small things when I should go to bed and what time I should wake up. Then the big things that unknowingly turned out to be controlled. Like why this shouldn't be that.

I smiled stiffly. Ana's still with her teeth clenched in front of me. Looked at me with his anger. I made her angry, again.

The girl then looked down. Then hold my free hand beside the body. I'm not evading. The touch of Ana's hand I let caress the back of my hand. Then the girl clasped him with her two little hands.

"Old time, huh, Bra? Ever since you said you liked me that time." he opened the sentence. Without looking at me there once.

Been a long time. One year ago.

"One year together is not enough for me, Sabrang Aditya." Ana raised her chin. Parallel eyes to mine. "So we'll have to be together a little longer."

"Dad!"

"Gue nolak you break up, that's the point." Ana dropped my hand.

"Dating with one feeling isn't enough Anastasya." I tried to convince her.

"Just like the decisions you make." Ana comes closer to me. Almost made me flutter. "Gue just wants time. Short again. It won't take much time, I promise."

Ana's holding my tie. He loosened it and patted me on the shoulder. Then he left me. He walked away. His back that I used to miss is now very ordinary or I can call it bored. He took off the blue bando that was stuck in his head. Freeing her inner brunette who even though I can't see from behind here, I know that she's still very pretty. Ana ditched her band. He looks pissed.

A second? How long does that word take. Something that is never certain. I hate that.

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This time I spent the break on the basketball court. No Han, no Felix or the Moon. I enjoy the reflection of the basketball that someone is playing. Following the direction of his agile movement here and there.

Just sec. That's what Ana said this morning. I want to believe that for a moment it won't change my final decision. I also tried to be sure for a while what he meant was just waiting.

After how I was treated by Ana. I just want to end it quickly. No more making memories that I might regret one day. I don't want that to happen.

When my daydream was heading wobbly my phone vibrated from my shirt pocket. I'm a little surprised.

The moon sent a message. But the message did not want me to reply with a message anyway. I was even moved to contact. Not wearing it for long, the Moon replied.

"Where, Bra?" sound heavy. Definitely not the Moon.

"Basketball field."

I'm appalled. Standing up quickly made the box of supplies on my lap scattered.

"He why?"

"Strees said. I just want to ngabarin. You're afraid of nyariin."

I just kept freezing. Not knowing what to respond to. Then I hung up the phone.

What's wrong with my heart? I don't know either. It felt like there was a big object filling the narrow space that made my chest feel stuffy. I tried to take a deep breath where the result was that my eyes felt sore. Am I scared? For what reason. Moon is not who, he is just a friend. And I guess, it's inappropriate for a friend like me to worry too much about him.

So what am I feeling. I'm still frozen with my phone clutched tight.

I picked up my lunchbox without regard to the food spill that is now strewn about. Run to class.

Wait for. What I run for. The moon has come home.

Stopped right after the corner of the corridor to class, I stopped. Ana waves in front of my class. He stopped the conversation with someone in front of him, then walked towards me with a smile. My chest is getting crowded.

"Abra!" his distinctive voice wastes my consciousness. The stuffy that was a little loosened.

"Why are you here?"

"You?" Ana is correcting. Right too. Why you.

"We have no relationship, right?" the answer is short.

Ana is approaching. "I'm asking you a little time, Sabrang."

Ye?

"I won't make you regret it. It may be time to end, but not now. In a moment." after that speech Ana grabbed my arm. He led me to walk to class.

Me? Ye? It seems like breaking up with Anastasya will not be that easy. I just started to then be greeted with another game Anastasya that I never understood what.

Now you know how toxic Anastasya and I are. I've always been stuck in the game. Diaman came out dead and followed the tormented.

Which is better? Stuck with a monster who doesn't know when to eat us. Or die the accelerated.

I obviously can't choose.

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