9 Requests for Love

zia's shadow

He arrived in front of the house he was heading to. No one accompanied him because Syifa was from a broken home family, especially his extended family was abroad, his family in Indonesia is only the family of his mother and since his mother and father divorced Maira has been far from his mother's extended family. not without reason but the love of his mother and father is a forbidden love because it is easy for them to remove Syifa from the extended family of his mother especially after his mother died ten years ago.

Syifa breathed her heavy breath several times, not because she was groggy but her small heart seemed to be in revolt with the decision she was about to make. Syifa has not finished installing mentally Razik has been knocking on the car glass. Syifa had to lower the windshield of her car.

"let's get down"

Without his consent Razik has opened the car door for Sifa, so that he immediately went down. inevitably Syifa must follow Razik's will.

He got off and sure enough his guess was he had been awaited by the Razik family. Stiffly he greeted Ummi and Caca.

"Abi and Ummi have spoken to your papi and everything is okay.they will be here before the wedding"

Syifa was downcast, there was actually a sense of shame in her, she was ashamed because her own father easily handed her over to the family of a man she had never even met at all.

"tomorrow we carry out his engagement event along with his charity event Rasya"

there was clearly no happy look in the house.

"how's ca? make it a habit to slip your sister's engagement at Rasya's charity event?"

Caca nodded heavily.His little heart was very rebellious and did not accept if his sister replaced Zia with another woman.

"ummi arrange how good it is. Caca wants to go to Rasya's room first"

Caca prefers to leave rather than later he is unable to stem his anger.

after Caca's departure, the others followed Caca's footsteps.

now there are only Ummi and Syifa in the living room, there is a sense of anxiety in Syifa's heart because he knows very well Ummi does not like it.

"sorry if the welcome in this family is not so pleasant, I hope you can understand that"

Syifa just nodded, of course she understood why this family seemed to corner her and looked at her with hatred. and now he also understands that replacing Zia is not that easy because it not only won Razik's heart also must melt the heart of his family.

"i'm also trying to accept you. Please don't push yourself too much, let us accept you as time goes on"

just a nod, that was the best response he could make.

"do you know what Zia said?"

Syifa clenched her head and looked at Ummi curiously.

"she told me to give you love like a mother who loves her child and she also told me all about you and your relationship with Razik before they got married"

Syifa bowed again.he hated Zia because she was still a good pretentious in front of her prospective in-laws and she hated herself for always hurting Zia.

"i can understand all the injuries you've been through but still I can't justify your ways"

Syifa was still silent, she was even afraid to say a word because she was afraid that the words she put out might backfire on her.

"have it. Better now you rest. Mia please take her sister to the dormitory huh"

a santri who had just arrived reminded him that Syifa needed to rest. Mia is one of the head of the Santri Wati dormitory in this cottage. To prevent Syifa slander will stay at the dormitory of the Wati santri. Mia nodded and took Syifa along with her.

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"gold happy?"

Razik fell silent, his eyes busy watching the calm puddle.

"wanted, Caca, happy mas?"

Razik is still silent.The question really does not feel appropriate to be asked at this time.

Caca forced Razik to look at her.

"the heart of the mas is gone ca. which now lives only a corpse.whether it's happy or sad I can no longer feel it"

Caca was also hit by Razik's current condition.right he said, he was just like an undead who gave up on his wishes and dreams.

"i'm just living my destiny and right now this is what God's destiny has given you to deck"

Caca did not hold back his tears. She hugged Razik tightly.The apparent emptiness in Razik's eyes illustrates how tired his inner self is right now.

Caca had also witnessed how her brother had been for this one month. He is no longer the one he used to be, Razik prefers to lock himself in the room, eat just to survive and even he ever wanted to end his life. Until finally Abi focused his attention on Razik, Abi always reminded Razik to pray to the mosque, making sure Razik to follow the study every day even not infrequently Abi slept in Razik's room to wake him up praying in a third of the night.Slowly Razik looks more like his life today. the wounds given by Caca greatly slapped the psychic Razik, so Ummi warned them to better support Razik instead of cornering or blaming him. Even when Razik decided to marry Syifa Ummi could only accept her decision without asking her why she accepted the match.

Caca let go of his embrace and left without leaving a word. Not long after Caca's departure, Syifa came to him, because Syifa was not far from that place.

hearing their conversation makes Syifa even more meaningless, because Razik himself does not think it means anything.

"hi..."

Razik remained silent, he was just busy with his thoughts.

"you're getting thinner"

"yes"

"are you as sick as that left?"

inner Syifa. he looked at the man he loved was fixed. whether he had to regret or be grateful for this situation, which surely Syifa can no longer afford to retreat and also felt difficult to continue.

"tell me if there's anything you want to say"

Razik could realize Syifa was looking at him earlier.

"why would you marry me if I wasn't in your heart anymore?"

"the color of the child in your womb"

Syifa held her flat stomach.

"and because of this wound I understand the wound you had when I left you"

Razik turned his gaze to Syifa as soon as their eyes clashed. Although Syifa no longer occupies his heart but he also does not hate it. Because thanks to the wound that Zia gave Razik can not hate Syifa just like that.

Syifa smiled heavily, it was obvious that the smile was just a forced smile.

"and I want to fulfill Zia's wish, I don't want her sacrifice to go to waste. I know one of the reasons left me so that I can marry you and now I'll fulfill it"

Syifa is silent, wherever she goes people in this house will only tell about Zia. Even she will always be in the shadows with the name Zia.

"i'll go first"

of course Syifa felt sick because she increasingly realized that Razik was never his.

"i'm taking you"

"not necessary"

"you don't know this location very well"

Razik led him in front, with his pouting face Syifa following Razik from behind.