Young Master Handsome

Episode 129: The Painful Decision

On the beach I saw Hasasi constantly daydreaming and his mind looked very empty like thinking of a heavy burden, I rubbed Hasasi's shoulder to calm Hasasi with all the chaos in his mind

"Hasasi.." I muttered softly and Hasasi just looked at me.

"Is there anything in your heart?"

"Nothing, just a little bit of disappointment"

"Looking because of what?"

"Nothing, let me sniff myself"

"Remember the story"

"No"

"Hasasi.." I whispered softly in his ear.

"Hmmm well I'm telling you .. but you don't get mad"

"Yes. tell me"

"Hmmm.. actually, I still have a taste with Cindy Wu, but not approved by my parents because it will be in a match with someone from a small who turns out to be from the Shinju family... and actually Amelia was the business marriage that my father gave me when I didn't find my soul mate who was betrothed as a child, so when I found out that Mr. Shinju's son is alive, he still asked me to marry you according to your father's and your father's agreement"

"Oh so yeah.." I murmured softly.

"Makanya Cindy Wu is also still chasing after me because she still has feelings for me and asked me to marry her again but that is impossible..."

"Why is it impossible?"

"Because we were not blessed by my parents and I have accepted our engagement"

"Since when have you known Cindy Wu?"

"Since I was in class with Cindy when I was in school before I knew Sari Lie. I was dating Sari Lie just for my outing while I was with Cindy Wu really liked each other... Yes we dated for many years but often broke up mulu but we still feel until now until we both agreed to get married yesterday but it did not go smoothly because of the events that happened befalling you at that time father came and knew your incident was humbled and knew I was married quietly - silent so father was angry with me... so you could say when my parents didn't approve of me with Cindy and it turns out you also chose me let alone my parents blessed me with you so I ended up choosing you to be my future wife and eventually Alex proposed Cindy Wu when you rejected Alex"

"If Cindy's with Alex aren't you mad?"

"I'm angry but I want to do it again..."

"You still got a taste for Cindy?"

"You want to answer honestly or lie?"

"Yes be honest"

"If honestly, I still have the same sense of Cindy"

"So you chose to be with me because you had to?"

"No"

"Don't lie, if you lie I'll be angry" I murmured

"Well.. well..honestly I.. was forced, albeit a little"

"Oh so.." I muttered sadly and tried to hide my sadness.

"Why is your voice sad?"

"Not really"

"Don't lie to Fifiyan"

"I'm not lying" I said smiling

"Hmmm I guess...."

"I went there for a while" I muttered straight away from the Hasasi side and walked away from Hasasi, not feeling my tears falling down my cheeks

"Oh yes Hasasi..thank you" I muttered looking at him who was shocked when I found out I was crying.

"Fifiyan.. are you crying?" hasasi asked in shock but I kept going and got into the crowd

To be honest my heart immediately ached when I knew Hasasi still had a feeling with Cindy, if I knew from the beginning I would not accept Hasasi, but why would Hasasi still accept me and want to be my husband when if I knew from the beginning I would definitely look for other men. Why is this happening to me?

I kept running away from Hasasi and I ran towards the room and locked the door and sat behind the door. I still can't believe all this time Hasasi still had a taste for Cindy Wu and was with me because of the compulsion, why our feelings were so contradictory. Am I wrong to love Hasasi?, then all this time Hasasi gave me what because of the pioneer of his father alone?

I was pensive to myself, sad, upset, angry and mixed up in my heart. I do not know what to do with the current situation, whether I should run away from this reality or I should give up and surrender to the circumstances

Tookkk.

"Fifiyan you're inside?" hasasi knocked on the door of the room but I did not answer him

"Fifiyan, open it first. Don't get angry like that, we're talking about it well" said Hasasi while continuing to knock on my door continuously but I was silent and immediately turned off the room lights.

"Fifiyan baby, what is it you locked yourself in the room" said Steven knocking on the door slowly

"Nothing"

"Try opening, you want to chat with you. There is no Hasasi here" said Steven slowly.

"Don't want to"

"Oh, I love that we talked together"

"Hmmm alright" I muttered open the door and Steven came inside with me

"What's Fifiyan?" steven looked at me who was silent

"So I want to get out of here"

"Where to?"

"Go away from Hasation"

"Why?"

"Nothing, I just want to"

"Try to explain to brother what's really going on"

"Hmmm brother.." I murmured with glass.

"Hasasi still has a taste with Cindy and she's forced to be with me" I muttered as I continued to cry

"Hmmm you still remember the words of big brother who said you don't expect too much, I mean you don't expect too much because actually Hasasi still loves Cindy Wu"

"Why brother didn't tell me directly" I protested as I continued to wipe my tears

"Because you don't want to curb your happiness"

"Hmmm okay, brother, I understand now..."

"Understanding what?"

"Understanding what I have to do, can I call Hasasi to come here?"

"Alright, brother call me Hasasi for a moment" Steven muttered past leaving me alone but not long after Hasasi came to my room with a face full of wrong

"Fifiyan.." muttered Hasasi softly and I dared to stare at Hasasi's face.

"I'm sorry Fifiyan, I will..."

"Quite Hasasi, I know what I should do" I muttered as I removed our engagement ring

"Hasasi .... if you want to pursue your love, I'm fine" I muttered smilingly as I returned the ring to Hasasi

"No Fifiyan .. I. I don't want to lose you"

"No problem I also do not want to be a burden on you let alone be your impingement, so whatever your decision and whatever your desire is the best way" I murmured

"Fifiyan ..."

"It's okay, I'm fine now, forget about me and let's just say we never met at all" I muttered straight up and put on my clothes.

"No Fifiyan, I don't want to. Don't go"

"I'm sorry I'm Hasasi because I'm tormented you accept me with compulsion whereas I don't want to force you no matter what"

"Fifiyan. I don't want to lose you, really"

"It's okay Hasasi, forget me" I muttered leaving Hasasi

"Fifiyan, don't leave me" muttered Hasasi holding my hand tightly

"Ak.. I love you really, I fall in love with you" said Hasasi.

"Sorry Hasasi, may you get happiness with Cindy Wu ...Cindy Wu" I muttered to see Cindy leaning against the wooden wall in front of the room

"Fifiyan, don't do that"

"I'm happy if you're both happy Hasasi..I say yes first" muttered I let go of Hasasi's grasp and left the room and walked out of the room, but while I was in front of Cindy I purposely stopped my steps

"May you be happy and please take care of Hasasi for me... Cindy" I muttered with a smile and walked away to the two of them

I don't know if my decision was right or wrong, but I obviously wanted to find a man who was serious to me and not because of coercion so I didn't want to be hurt myself. If Hasasi is happy I am also happy even though I am sick