WHIRLWIND
Part 1 | Night Longing
Missing teaches us
How hard it is to wait patiently
In the silence of the night I delivered
I miss the people I love
Give me my message
The night wind adds to the mood
To follow my steps to your heart
Every day I miss you
Every breath of mine
Remembering your face
I really miss you
This miss I can't keep forever
This miss is getting so intense in my heart
I want to be always close to you
And let go of all my longing for you
I hope you're there to miss me
Please remember me once
I am always beside you
And I want you to be a part of my life
NIGHT LONGING
Tonight means a lot to my life, which tonight is my birthday with Sidia. Yes, she is my girlfriend who is currently very far away from me. His name is Cintya. He is currently studying in Yogyakarta, precisely at Gadjah Mada University. He got a scholarship because of his outstanding achievements in the academic field, he always achieved perfect results.
Oh yes forgot, introduce my name Fakhri, I am currently studying at Pakuan University Bogor. I am separated by the distance from my beloved, but this feeling will remain faithful awaiting his return. I am a very loyal person, I have no intention at all to look for a replacement, because I am a man who is very difficult to fall in love. And only one woman can melt my heart, this man, she managed to take my heart. I am the ignorant, and quiet managed to be melted down by his heart and his attitude.
By the time of High School we had promised to stay together forever, but he left forgetting the promise we made together. But I understood that his dream was to become a doctor. And I will always support any choice even if it is heavy.
And he has promised to remain faithful and guard his heart. But the question arises in my heart
“Will he remain mine”.
I tried to get rid of that question in my heart. Because I believed and believed that he would come back to me.
I looked at a picture of the two of us together. I smiled to myself, the word appeared
“I miss our times together past”, I murmured in my heart.
And I took my phone and congratulated our 3rd Aniversery. We dated on November 24, 2017.
“Happy 3rd Aniversery dear may our relationship remain lasting despite the distance and time apart. But I will remain faithful waiting for your arrival and embrace you” tightly, I said in a chat.
He soon answered my message and replied to it
“Sama-sama dear, and I will still take care of my heart for you, and only you are in my heart now”, replied Cynthia.
I called him and asked him all the questions in my heart. Until 10:00 wib. I turned off my phone screen and stared intently at the photos of the two of us.
At this moment I can only look at your picture, I can't get close to you even I can't hold you. It is only the feeling of longing that is stored in my heart. How much my longing is so great that I feel unable to withstand the turmoil of this longing that hurts me even more. Only words and sounds can take all that away even for a moment, but I am grateful to be able to control it.
I unlocked the phone screen and opened the music file and started playing the song. While accompanying my miss in the middle of the silence of the night in a garden. I followed a couple of lines, this song that represents my feelings right now.
“Maybe we're always together
Even if the distance between us
Let me embrace your shadow
Tuk let go of all my longing
You're my darling, I'm always looking after
I won't take it off, forever
Eliminate it. Your doubts
To me. While you were away from me”.
****
I took a cup of coffee next to me. And turn off the phone screen. After I finished my cup of coffee, I went inside the house and put my coffee and my phone on the table and I immediately went to the bedroom. Tonight means a lot to me. I closed my eyes and immediately opened my eyes to welcome the new day.
****
I'm getting ready to head to the campus. Today there are morning hours and daily repetitions. I have to be on time and I can't be late when I get there so I don't have breakfast. I went to college on my favorite red motorcycle. This bike has given me memories between me and him. This bike reminds me of when I was with him and we always walk together using this bike. I rushed quickly but by keeping the rules and regulations that apply on the road.
After I got back to my classroom. There was a woman sitting on my seat. I went to him and asked to move somewhere else. This guy I haven't known before maybe a kid
other faculty.
What are you doing here? ask me.
Where is your phone? pinta Goddess.
What's your cave here? ask me back.
Where was your phone? the Goddess Pinta is back.
I didn't want to argue for too long either and I immediately gave my phone to him, I don't know what he wanted to do with my phone. I opened the lock and gave it to him. He shakes something in my heart, I don't know what he's doing. After that he returned my borrowed phone.
His hp. Next time you want to ask for a phone number, say it! dewi.
Who asked for the phone number? my word
He left without answering my question. I shouted at him.
“Basic girl freak”, I screamed loudly.
Then someone came along, Dion and lectured me.
I don't like weird girls like that. After all, the cave will remain faithful to the cynthia of first love and forever and will never be replaced.
"You don't want to mend for me. Can ya?" dion pinta.
"Take me not to like him!" my orders.
Shortly afterwards came a gentlemen with glasses, wearing green and tiered clothes approaching the classroom. He is the lecturer who will teach us on today's lesson.
****
After finishing college today I'm Dion, Rifki, Santi and Michalle going to the cafe where we hang out. They were my friends and Cynthia in High School. We always talk about unimportant issues. To the extent of gossip about the decline in meatball prices on campus. They're all brain food. I also kept quiet and did not want to follow with their trivial gossip.
Suddenly there came a beautiful girl with long black hair, and with glasses, she was a strange girl I met in class. And now he comes to me again.
"Can I sit here?" ask Goddess.
"May you please" said Dion.
"What's wrong with this weird chick?" my scolding on Dion.
"It's okay to be familiar" Dion said.
"May Ri, I'll sit here. BTW we belom acquaintance
ayeh?" pinta Goddess.
This girl extended her hand to me and I returned the hand.
"My name is Dewi Safitri Your name is Fakhri right?"
"Do you know the cave?"
"Udah long time. You always write poetry and
quetes is upset in the sosmed, right?" dewi.
"She's upset about her boyfriend's death" Michalle said
nimbrung their conversation.
"What ansi follow ajaloh. Kayak invited?"
"So how can I sit next to you?"
"As far as you!" I said firmly.
"Oh means can?"
"Yes, sit down I'm not forbidden. Biaran
Fakhri he is my cutie who permits" said Dion
the Goddess's question.
Then the Goddess sat beside me. I felt awkward close to him so I just kept quiet and said nothing and I took out my phone and started playing Mobile Lagend the last time I played 2 days ago. Then this girl told me why her boyfriend left me. I replied that he wanted to pursue his ideals, so I supported the important thing I love him.he nodded his head indicating understanding with what I was saying. After that we stayed silent for a while.
Then he let out a voice at me and asked.
you have free time tomorrow?
I can't be busy!
Can you make me buy a book?
Oyolah tomorrow Sunday will all holiday activities!
This time bus?
He begged me to accept his offer while being urged by my friends except Dion.
Ama I am. Can I do you?
I don't want to be with Fakhri!
I too have a heavy heart to accept his offer. I can't hear the babbling of my friends that are this carousel.
****
Time has shown at 21:00 p.m. I asked everyone to go home. When all my friends got to the parking lot I saw the Goddess following me.
Why are you following me?
Can I get anterin to come home?
I didn't bring a motorbike!
Keep you here on what?
I was with him and he went home first. Your time will leave me alone here. I'm a girl of the night coming home alone. If anything happens - do you want responsibility.
Apaansi. Yeah-yes I anterin you home!
With pity I drove him home safely. On the way he asked me
Can I not hug you? You see, I'm afraid of falling (with bases)
Whatever?
Mean can?
Did I hug yaudah?
Without answering the question from the Goddess I remained focused on the streets to deliver her home safely and the Goddess hugged me tightly. I don't know with my heart why it beats so fast as it used to beat when it's close to Cintya. But I have to keep my heart going for Cintya because I don't want to be a playboy. I want to be a loyal person and make my partner happy. After arriving at Dewi's house, I was told to stop by her house first and leave with her parents.
"want to stop by first?"
Don't let me go straight home!
not going to papah mamah?
Don't bother your parents. I'll go back first, right?
Yaudah. Be careful on the road!
I also did not answer the question from the Goddess and went straight to the motor.I rushed to leave the house of the Goddess and she immediately entered the house.
