When the heart is no longer

Episode 4

Your house was something wrong, before being built there was planted something in the same living room in front of the house, besides the jackfruit tree in front of your neighbor's house there is a waiting, astral creatures like kuntilanak, and, he didn't interrupt but he stayed there, I heard Astuti saying.

Astuti is my adoptive brother, he is a Lampung Javanese, who according to his own claims can see something astral, even said he can see all the magic sent people, he said, I don't really believe in such mystical things, and I don't really think about it, because I often go out at night, even come home almost at dawn if the schedule of operations is tight, and I don't think about it, if you remember the words he certainly did not dare to go out of the house.

My house is 7 km from where I work, we take housing like from the initial story sponsored by my family. This house is type 36 but has been developed with a building area of 200 square meters. Actually not far from the city but according to the region has entered the district is not a province anymore. The house consists of a living room and 3 bedrooms, a kitchen, as well as 2 bathrooms, while the right for the garage, there is no remaining land.

One who said the paranormal also saw that the living room of our house there was a bright red light that caused this house nas, this was because it was planted by my husband who said he to reject the balak. There were planted objects that I got from a clever shaman from Banten, said my husband at that time, for what I said because I did not believe in such things, let it be far from the vices and evil intentions of people he said, I just silently do not believe his words. According to my thinking there are mystical things, but if the protection of Allah SWT is the one who dominates the heavens and the earth and everything in it, so why ask for help with such foolish things, he said scholars graduate but thinking is still primitive. You know, believe God is number 1, but use things like that as intermediaries, avoid bad things, not I don't believe in God's power, we just need to use that, you know, husband says. We live in the environment of many people who we do not know what he wants, good what evil we do not know, hair is the same black but our hearts do not know. He was still angry because I didn't agree there were mystical items in our house. You know I'm a business person if not using things like that won't work, you don't talk about it, but don't know what it means.

I just keep quiet, free against the nonsense will not be accepted and the end is stormy.

This morning after breakfast the four of us sat in the living room, Mr. opened the conversation, son you tell me what happened, I already know but I want to know directly from you said Mr. I started talking about our lives now, about the drastic changes my husband tends to make and likes to curse without guilt. About my position at work, about the judgment of my friends at work, carried away my emotions crying, the youngest who was with me was also crying.

Father said if your husband no longer wants to be with you return to us as a good parent, because he asked you in a good way, it doesn't seem like it's getting any better the longer it's getting more verbally obscure and violent after I've learned all along. Yesterday I also talked to your husband when you work, first I told him what the problem was so that the storm continued, so, complaints from your brother and the people where you work I've heard everything said Father, but it seems that the hard character of your husband can not be invited to cooperate, and does not want to change the stance, the point is he spoke, he said, you work as he wants, I understand the situation, it seems like something is wrong in him, no matter what influence.

You are patient first, we keep helping with prayer, everyone in the household must have a problem and there must be a way out, whether it's improving the relationship or ending the relationship, it's all undeniable, if the situation is no longer possible, one way must be taken, I am silent to listen to the advice of the Father, a person whom I respect a lot and I disdain. Father is a very wise person even though education is only limited to Junior High but the knowledge is amazing, it is because my father is a person who diligently read the news, watch television and is a person who was raised in our village. That's every problem many people come to our house to ask for his advice, in the past when he was young he often traveled out of town to go out of the province for training and seminars both from the village and from places of worship. That is the knowledge of many fathers and many relationships everywhere. Even in my village my family is famous for being educated, because my parents educated their children after they were released from first-rate school to have to wander out of the area. From the first child to the youngest all treated equally, after junior high school wander, including me, although I was the only girl I also wandered far outside the province while studying high school, even coming home a year was only 2x. The first time I cried for almost a month when I remembered my parents at home, early in the morning waking up tears dripped while making the bed. I was living in a girls' hostel in a town 24 hours by road from my village, the beginning felt heavy because it was the first time I wandered away from my parents, but after a full moon I finally felt at home too, too, although it can not be denied sometimes the feeling of longing to go home remembered my parents and brothers. After high school I tested at a private college in a town that was closer than when I was in high school. This is where my first meeting with my husband, originally introduced to my older brother who is still related to my family, he is the sister of my husband's mother, we call him aunty, after a long time knowing we finally often walk and committed to be together, I was still in the 2nd grade of college, until I graduated and a year of work we just got married, approximately 5 years from knowing to marriage, but in the past its nature was not like that, it used to be very good and not much to say, either after 9 years of marriage its nature changed drastically, and the, much controversy has arisen and his behavior has become more and more bizarre.