When the heart is no longer

episode 2

I sat in the doctor's dugout, playing my phone in between breaks after several scheduled surgeries, mixed feelings, sadness, anxiety, and other feelings that could not be expressed, she said, suddenly there is an inbox coming in, you can contact, I don't know where the person is fad I just ask. After some time passed we communicate smoothly like people who have known and have met for a long time, we often tell each other stories and support each other, from this comfortable side that I have not felt for a long time present from someone in cyberspace.

In the real world my life is getting worse, my husband is constantly angry every day, which ends his efforts began to recede, causing debt and he talked about that the car must be exchanged for lighter installments, which is not clear, I just say yes because he does not want to make a fuss, besides that he invites me and the children to go home to his parents, by selling our house that is still on credit, he said, by saying my parents are conservative girls who go to college have to work, while the mind is that if he is a college boy, being a wife, people have to be home. Maybe he forgot first we married my parents who gave 20 million for the rice business, then the money from it to credit electronics, he didn't work any other than that, he said, suddenly there is a person who he said friends he invited for the housing business, he said, with the profit of each investment 1 house the cost of capital of about 32 million can be fortunately the price of the house was 50 million after the credit was paid in full.First, both payments are smooth, the time of the house is 3, the time of the house is 3, starting to falter, the house of the 4 developers ran away somewhere and the investment money that had entered, including my mother's adek money of 50 million was lost, at that time we already had a house with initially 12 million from my parents, the house was also rehabilitated, with the reason for the capital of the house was sold at a price of 120 million without my parents' knowledge, the money to pay for the land built by the house, which is located in the housing that he cooperated with, at that time we contracted in a small bedeng with 2 narrow rooms, sad it feels🥲.

at such a time there is still about 50 million leftover money, in addition to paying the debt here and there that I do not know anything, I only know work and payday, payday, suddenly there are people to the house offering stock investment, without thinking long because tempted by the profit of 50 million invested, and the story finally how, the money was scorched in that investment, he said, he cried apologetically, the rice had become porridge, I was just speechless and unable to answer anything, at that time my brother came from another city, my brother's life was quite decent, out of pity for my fate he gave 5 million for any venture capital, at that time my first child was a year old, I worked to pay a nanny and support my family. From here life began a new chapter, he began to dare to sell a new motorcycle with a letter just STNK out of town, and the bike was a leasing motor, he said, I know but pretend not to know maybe he is also dizzy about what business makes a lot of money in a fast time, not only that on the other hand he also sells cars people out of town cooperation with his friend, the car is also a leasing car which is certainly a very big risk.may be good luck is still siding, he said, but as smart as it was to keep the carcass long ago smelled too, suddenly there were police and car owners coming to the house looking for a stolen car, I did not know anything of heavy shock, he said, and he was still out of town, on the phone he answered, said he didn't know anything and I didn't know anything, somehow he solved the problem, it was over.

Before marriage, many people disagreed with my husband because he had no permanent job, other than that said the person's face is ugly, but I don't know why I didn't listen to the words of those around me, who were there at the time to marry her. On the other hand somehow I was not so happy with his family especially with his mother, my mother-in-law was indeed chatty but had never vilified me before my eyes, but somehow I didn't like it so much, even communication by phone is rarely done, they live in another province is quite a distance 10 hours away. I don't know why after 10 years of my household everything started to unfold everything I knew was slowly coming to the surface, some say I used to be useful after a long time began to lose his power, Allahualam, which must be every day my feelings are depressed and increasingly do not believe everything about him. Especially after knowing the nature of the original and all the black magic it has.