When the heart is no longer

Episode 3

Why your forehead sella, who hit you until the blue, you are a child papa do not be weak, fight if there are people who interfere. Sella just bowed quietly, papa does not want Papa's child to be a weak person, who hit you at school, the general's child even though papa is not afraid.

even if you are a woman, you have to be brave. Sella's teary eyes couldn't say a word out of fear, I just kept quiet. Sella is my oldest child who sits in 3rd grade Elementary, a well-known private school in our city, the majority of which are high school students, my husband initially disapproved of my son's school there, there are many reasons for this and that, but I answer that the school is 1 foundation with where I work, besides the school building is located next to each other, so if the morning can go together, in the afternoon he can go home like the children of my other friends.

Sella fell silent and cried sobbing while saying that she was hit by no one's head, but was hit by a drink bottle of her classmate when she climbed the stairs to the classroom, the classroom she was on the 2nd floor, it might be fitting to climb the stairs in a hurry behind his friend so that he was hit by a drinking bottle, but my husband did not care about Sella's explanation, he was still angry, saying that the way to look around, slowly do not have to run, his eyes are beautiful everywhere. I just kept quiet. If I defend my son later the story is longer and the edges of the quarrel, after my husband went out I approached Sella, while I held her hand I comforted her not to feel sad, it was son, no need to cry, no need to cry, here mama give her head medicine, next time brother if the way to class do not get too close to the same friend, let his head do not get a bottle again yes, already this sister took a nap first, just take a nap, later in the afternoon shower continued to study, he just nodded while going to the room. I do not feel my tears dripping, my husband sometimes outrageous if angry with his son, his emotions are not controlled, the little child is yelled at, very disturbing emotional he, very disturbing, until there was one time my mother again visited my house to stay, at that time Sella was taking her friend's money she said 10 thousand at school, she said her money her friend fell she took but not returned, my husband was very angry, Sella said my mother, when I was out of town training for a week in a hospital in Jakarta. In terms of educating our child does not agree, he tends to be rude and does not hesitate to hit, I am sad even joined to cry if my son is beaten, I am sad, let alone being hit with a loud bang nor do I strongly disagree. My parents until I was an adult never yelled at me let alone hit, if angry they pinched my thigh until blue, even if I was too naughty when I was a child. While my father was a very wise man, if I make a mistake I am called, not only me, my brothers and my brother are also so, advised, while being told the cause of our wrong actions. Therefore with my father I have great respect and great disdain, even now if there is a problem my father has always been the way to educate us. Once I reminded my husband how to educate a child does not need violence, but he does not accept my opinion, according to him the way he is right, even he compares with the way his parents used to educate him, he said, if there is a belt error floating to the body, it is my answer that it should not be so, from the beginning select the school Sella he has not agreed, he has not agreed, though the money entered 5 millions including uniforms and money development he did not know.

But on the way is not as beautiful as imagined, sometimes I have a 7 o'clock operating schedule that requires me to leave at 6 am from home, if not definitely jammed and will be late, too late, Sella was hit by the impact he had to come earlier than usual because he went with me, on the contrary sometimes I came home late if I was hit by a schedule on call and many operations, Sella had to wait a long time, while he came home from school at 13, sometimes had to wait until 16, where my husband was increasingly upset with me, said not to know the feelings of the child, and my husband was increasingly upset with me, once I was with a motorcycle taxi driver who used to go to the front of the hospital, the father already knew my house, and already knew my house, every day he denied there so he understood, my husband was more angry. He in between his spare time can pick up children but often can not, sometimes with reason again far away in the place of consumers, sometimes picked up but with a sour face and ranting is not clear, but, my son was the victim of his anger. In my house there is one more child just 2 years old, there is a nanny at home, this little boy is independent, has retrained to change caregivers for various reasons, there is a new 2 days not at home, there is a new 2 days at home, some have been told to go home from their parents for a long time, some have been told to go home from their husbands and so forth. As much as they are sought after by my mother, and people who of course already know, this caregiver is what helps the house activities ranging from cleaning to cleaning in addition to the main task of caring for my child. Sometimes I think of my household affairs all my parents help, from home to the nanny, while from the side my in-laws don't know knowing, that they know we live well, already have a home, already have a home, already have a vehicle, no problem anything in the household. Instead my family those who gave the capital, those who helped for us had a place to live, those who helped meet the needs of the household, she said, especially my mother she was a very considerate person with her children and grandchildren, every time the phone would ask this and it made sure we were okay, she said, they already know the state of our household, so they worry, my mother who has the most sensitive feeling if there is anything as if there is a premonition. And it's happened over and over again.