When the heart is no longer

episode I

I had just walked into work, immediately in front of a receptionist shouting angrily, if on the phone lifted a lot of work from night until this morning, he said, he said, I just smiled as I passed, a smile that implied various answers that only I knew the meaning of.

I was a nurse operating room in a private hospital, because the limited expertise in this matter of my strength was needed. With the number of operations almost reached 200 every month with 3 operating rooms available and 1 special operating room for eye surgery.In this case, of course, it takes my time other than during working hours at the outside work hours I have to be ready to come any hour comes if needed, because the service hours until 21 if there is an operation above 21 hours the guard on call must be ready to be called.

In this case my husband who is not a medical person is often angry if I participate in the operation outside of work hours, it is a dilemma for me because on one side it is the responsibility of the job, he said, on the other hand the responsibility as a housewife.

This is the beginning of it all, my husband has no permanent job, the job he sells and sells a second motorbike every day if there is more sustenance for money if there is no income at all. The initial capital from my parents even additional capital I also borrowed from the employee cooperative of 25 million who cut my salary every month, we also took the housing that dp originally from my parents, from my parents, because they don't want his son to contract here and there, monthly installments of my salary, here he sometimes doesn't realize.

Not only that, we take installment car loans every month also from my salary.

Hey dog you haven't come home, it's what time, dog just know time to go home for family while you from morning until 10 pm is still there, that's what he said, he said, when in fact I also want to go home on time, but at this time there is a cataract mass operation love braided from a private television station that doctors and tools from Jakarta, we only provide a place, we only provide a place, and tbsp who helps other accommodations. I went home soon after when the work was not done and everything was still a mess.

The earlier of it all the more the day our relationship got worse, he got stranger and every day noisier, I felt uncomfortable at home if I went home to hell for me, because of the insults and anger I received every time.

It's not strange that my family finally found out, everything I told them and they said they had to be strong for the sake of the children.

As the days went by, the nature of him grew worse, he began to terrorize my comrades at work if I came home late, this further caused me to break down, I was ashamed of my friends and superiors for my husband's behavior, the reprimands and calls from superiors I finally accepted, no day without tears.