
It hurts to see the man we love has chosen another woman, only tears and wounds can she show. Harboring a love is not an easy thing, where we have to endure pain, disappointment and even longing.
Lovely love is only a pseudo-shadow in his life, but it is Nilam who wants to see Azhar happy even if not with her.
Every day Nilam hid his tears in front of Azhar, seeing their togetherness made his heart very broken. The two are getting closer and always spending time together. Every time Azhar comes home from work, she picks up Shinta at Nilam's cafe.
“Azhar what are you doing here?” ask Nilam and smile.
“I want to pick up Shinta, today I want to have dinner with Shinta,“ Azhar replied with a very happy face, not long after Shinta came to them.
“Azhar we so dinner?” shinta asked, they finally left together. Nilam just fell silent to see the togetherness of the two.
“Azhar looks like you are very happy with Shinta, the love you have always wanted you to have. While I have to endure the pain of seeing you with him,“ Nilam said in his heart and left.
Nilam felt very devastated to have loved Azhar very much, but Azhar much preferred Shinta. Sitting on the bench of the park Nilam lamented his love story that never arrived.
“Is the love I feel just a pseudo-shadow? Azhar I smile in front of you, but my heart cries because of you,“ Nilam said then shed tears while looking at Azhar's photo.
the next day Shinta saw Nilam crying and then tore a photo of Azhar.
“What's with Nilam's mba? why did he have to tear Azhar's photo?” shinta asked in her heart.
At lunch Azhar comes to meet Shinta. Nilam saw them very friendly. Azhar hugs Shinta with a very affectionate embrace of love. From behind Nilam saw her and tears wet his cheeks.
“I should be happy to see Azhar happy, but why does my heart hurt? See them unite?” nilam said in his heart and left.
Cuddled by Azhar, Shinta knew that Nilam had seen her. After that Shinta met Nilam who was crying in his room.
“I did not cry Shinta,“ replied Nilam then wiped his tears.
“Mba need not lie like that, I know that Nilam is jealous to see me with Azhar,“ Shinta said and then held Nilam's hand.
“Why mba? do you still love Azhar?” shinta asked again and then shed tears, Nilam immediately hugged her and cried helplessly to endure the pain in her heart.
“ I'm sorry Shinta. I still love Azhar and can't forget her,“ Nilam said and let go of her embrace.
“If Nilam really loves Azhar, let me back off to love her. Although I realize now I have started to love Azhar,“ Shinta said.
“No Shinta, Azhar is just happy with you not with me. You are the woman he has been waiting for. While I was shackled with the love of a pseudo shadow,“ replied Nilam then smiled.
“I know that my heart is broken to see me and Azhar together, I am not a woman worthy of Azhar. Mba Nilam is worthy of Azhar because Mba Nilam has always been waiting for Azhar's heart" said Shinta.
“If the heart can be forced I will definitely force Azhar to love me, but that is love that cannot be forced. Azhar's happiness is with you, Until this very second she is still waiting for you even though your status is a widow because that is sincere love. No matter who he is and his past,“ replied Nilam and left.
Shinta feels so guilty with Nilam, that such a good woman must feel the pain of loving without being loved.
“At the time when I started to love Azhar it turns out there is another woman's heart who is also the same expecting her heart. Is this love? a choice that was so difficult in my life? although I do not want to hurt his heart but love has made a wound in his heart,“ Shinta said and cried.
Love is hard to guess to whose heart our heart will be anchored. He used to hate her now he loves her. At the time when the sense is just behind it all there is a love that so expect his presence.
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