WAITING FOR YOU ON THE PATH OF DESTINY

Am I the Third Person

After leaving Azhar's house, Nilam decided to stay alone. When in Cafe, Nilam's face was very pale.

“Mba Nilam why? better to go home,“ said Shinta.

“No Shinta I don't want to go home,“ replied Nilam.

A little while later Azhar came with her son Shinta. They are as familiar as a Father and a Son.

“Shinta I want to take you to lunch,“ said Azhar. 

“Sorry Azhar I can't. Mba Nilam is sick better you take him to the hospital,“ replied Shinta.

“Have Shinta maybe Nilam is just an ordinary pain,“ said Azhar with no care.

As a husband Azhar did not care at all about the condition of his wife who was sick.

“Shinta if you want to go with Azhar go. I can take care of myself,“ Nilam said and smiled.

By being forced to go together, as a wife, Nilam's heart was devastated to see their togetherness.

“Am I the third of them? azhar's smile came off when she was with him,“ said Nilam his heart and then shed tears.

Often Nilam sees them together like a family.

“I'm his wife but I'm like a third person to my husband. Should I end this marriage? “ said Nilam in his heart saw their togetherness.

Every night Nilam continued his stitches of danger. Although it hurts but for the love and happiness of her husband, Nilam is willing to sacrifice.

“Maybe right now I don't mean anything to you. I want this kebaya to be a witness of my love for you,“ Nilam said and shed tears.

Nilam wrote a heart that was hurt by love in his diary.    

***I realized that loving someone was not as beautiful as imagined. Does someone who loves feel recognized?

If so, where is the sincerity in love? I know that loving doesn't have to ask for reciprocity from who is loved or even recognition from who is loved.

I don't know why I feel that sometimes. Let this taste pass with time until God picks me up for the rest of my life. I'll keep waiting for you until my last breath***.

Nilam was sad and devastated to write a love story and it felt to Azhar who never arrived. Nilam's love for Azhar was so great that he accepted all of Azhar's hurtful attitudes.

 Together with Shinta makes himself like a third person among them. Azhar could only smile beside Shinta. Maybe it is very painful for the heart of a wife who must let her husband be happy in the arms of another woman.

Nilam tried to hold on even though he had to walk on a thorn that was so painful for him. Seeing the togetherness of Azhar and Shinta made his heart even more sad and tormented.

“Azhar I love you so much at all times I always wait for you.”

“I want you to smile freely while with me, hug me Azhar like any other wife. Love me like a wife, wipe my tears and wrap the wound in my heart,“ said Nilam in his heart and cried.

The condition of Patchouli increasingly decreased long hair has begun to fall out because of chemo.

“My hair is as fragile as my heart is fragile because of love,“ Nilam said and cried.  

Will Nilam get Azhar's love and heart?

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