Vortice In Vendetta

CHAPTER 34: Am I Halal to Him?

"Why?" asked Yudha, who had woken up from her sleep because she had not found the existence of Jea in her arms. The girl was standing on the balcony of her room staring up at the sky as if she was having a dialogue with the night star.

"Just can't sleep" she replied coldly.

"Don't habit, forget the same old experience? I don't like it, if you try to lure a crocodile in a way like this "Yudha pulled her hand a little rough and closed the porch door by slamming it.

"What the hell? Suddenly a sewot." annoyed the girl while jerking her hand.

"Forgot, who used to invite me to care about you? Because you pretended to be a poor girl and cried alone on the balcony. That's why I often come quietly to your room." he accused with a tone of voice made high, typical of someone who was upset.

"Trus you mean, I did it to seduce you?" the snaps don't take it.

"No, but I am attracted to you." Realizing his attitude was wrong, Yudha immediately relented and pulled the girl into his arms.

"When you look like a star makes me jealous. You seem to pour out all your complaints with them, but never open with anyone. My heart is wounded, because you bear it alone." he said.

"Aren't you touching me?" jea asked suddenly to make Yudha let go of her embrace.

"I'm confused. I am guilty of myself. You said you wanted me to complete my duties as a wife, but you acted as if you were not interested. And all that attention, I just feel like a normal little sister. Not your wife. Did you marry me out of pity or vengeance?" Yudha. He nailed in his place.

"I don't want you to mess around and think dirty. I don't mean weird thoughts especially since our marriage is unnatural, but.." His tongue was stuck.

"But what?" asked Yudha nervously.

"They say that men are easily tempted. Especially if you have a chance with a girl. He used to say that, wanted to reward me and not touch me. But just because I'm his wife, why would he touch another woman instead? And it's in front of me. Now you are the same. Am I not attractive?"

Yudha took a deep breath and tried to neutralize her thoughts before replying.

"If you mean Aksa, he just gives you the chance to wait until your relationship is official. He's keeping your pride Je." Jea suddenly felt a sense of guilt for having to discuss another man in front of her husband. Moreover, Yudha's expression seemed to be not being good at the moment.

Is he hurt? Because my statement.

"I'm..." Yudha again took a deep breath. Makes Jea's mind wander around thinking of the worst answer.

"I'm waiting for you to accept me. I believed when you said you weren't jealous of Aksa. But I was also hurt when you told me about the responsibilities as a wife."

"meaning?" ask the girl not to understand.

"There has never been a girl in my life. And I don't like their benefits just for my satisfaction. Especially about something related to the rewards of money or responsibility."

Yudha stepped forward and further eroded her distance with Jea. He could feel the roar of the girl's breath sounding extremely loud at this moment.

"I know you're at an age where status and relationships are important. Confession, but everything shouldn't lead there. You've never been in love with Je." The girl was about to answer but Yudha cut her back.

"notwithstanding. I can make sure of that. You only care about your ego and try to satisfy it. I know your ego is hurt by Alicya's statement. But believe me a girl who can keep her honor is the best of all girls there is. And the man who can be so sturdy as to keep his girl's honor, that's real love." Yudha gently stroked the girl's head and guided her walking towards their bed.

"Not many thoughts. Especially for unnecessary things. S*x is not always about your lust or duty as a wife. Even though you have rights and obligations over it. It was the deepest moment to accept someone."

"Love." The girl was silent with a questioning look.

"Do it with love and you'll know how much it means."

Yudha took the girl back into her arms and slept comfortably with her arms. A daily ritual they have always done since marriage.

Lying if Yudha is not provoked. How is he a normal guy. And Jea was also a very beautiful girl. His body was also very good and managed to interfere with his faith.

But he loved her so much. He did not want the girl to regret it later for doing it without love.

Forcedness is the thing he hates the most. Especially since it was the thing that took her brother away from her. Duress and honor taken away.

Suppose he had done it with someone he loved very much and without coercion. Yudha was sure that her brother would never regret it even if it was a mistake. And that's what he's keeping from Jea right now.

"Wait until you love me. Only then will I never let you go in my entire life." she whispered in the girl's ear before inviting her back to sleep.

Damnit damnit! You're not even J*l*g\, why ask for such a weird thing. Fucking Alicya\, I was really lured by her. The girl grumbled.

The girl went in and got worse in Yudha's arms. He buried his face in Yudha's chest and fell asleep listening to Yudha's sweet-sounding heartbeat in her ears.

"Say people, a closer relationship brings you closer to love. If you want him to love you, sleep with him. I slept with him, brother. But I won't touch her until she loves me." she talks while staring at a picture of her brother Jea on one of their walls.

"I want him to be tied to me forever. This is one of my strategies. I am lawful to her, and by sleeping while hugging her and staring at her sweet face like this, will I be able to make her opiate and not be far from me. At least people say that getting used to is the beginning of love."

he ended his dialogue with his older brother and grabbed the remote behind Jea by tightening his arms. He turned off all the lights and did not loosen the embrace.

He simply inhaled the girl's scent deeply and tried to break through into his dream realm.

Sweet dreams baby. I'm here just in case a nightmare comes your way. I'll take that dream away from you.

And sure enough, because Arsen found them sleeping smiling at each other.

"Aish shit! Can you lock the door so that I don't keep being tempted to enter and end up leaking into envy." he exclaimed.