Very Painful Feelings

Section 32

At 8 a.m

Silva Heartlifia, has already arrived at his campus. He rushed straight to his class, but after he got there the atmosphere was still quiet. It seems Silva's day was too big.

"I thought I was late" Silva sat in the second row.

She was a very diligent and studious girl, and all this time she always tried to be the best in her class. However, behind his cold, closed-off attitude, there was one thing that was always on his mind - Hiro, the chef at the restaurant where he worked. Every time Silva sat in class, he would be reminded of the delicious aroma that Hiro made in the kitchen of the restaurant. He recalled Hiro's gentle smile and his loving way of cooking. Every time he opened the recipe book to learn cooking, he would be reminded of Hiro's words on proper cooking techniques and how to blend the right ingredients.

Silva felt strange because Hiro always appeared in his mind. Although now they only interacted at the restaurant and always talked about work, she felt like there was a strong bond between them, not as Big Brother and Sister but more than that.  One night, after he finished working at the diner, Silva sat in the living room of his apartment and pondered. He suddenly felt troubled by his feelings for Hiro. She felt that she not only saw him as a co-worker as well as an older brother, but also as a friend and perhaps even as someone more than that.

Silva began to think about the possibility of expressing his feelings to Hiro, but he felt fear and hesitation. He does not want to take risks and ruin their good relationship. He also did not know how to express his feelings well.

The next day when the atmosphere of the restaurant was a little calmer, Hiro sat down beside Silva who was busy reading books very seriously. In Hiro's mind, Silva studied very hard. As soon as Silva finished reading he immediately closed the book, he was shocked to react a little excited when he saw Hiro who was sitting next to him.

"Hwaaaa Mas Devil? W-What are you doing here?!" Silva immediately shifted seats and kept his distance with Hiro, not because it was a covid-19 pandemic but he kept his distance because he was very nervous if he was close to Hiro and he did not want if Hiro knew the true feelings of Silva.

"I'm Hiro, I'm human. Stop calling me the word Devil. Hey, why are you keeping your distance? You really think of me as a demon, don't you?" hiro asked a little annoyed

"Bu-not that, you surprised me. I'm still in shock" replied Silva who then tried to calm himself down.

"Alright" Hiro took the book Silva had dropped and gave the book to him "This"

Silva, who just held the book. But Hiro immediately pulled the book, it seems that Hiro does not intend to return his book Silva. Silva who became a little more upset with his attitude Hiro immediately pulled his book hard, but what happened was Hiro was attracted to him. Actually Hiro could have pulled the book back, what else he was a man must have been much stronger power. But this time Hiro instead let himself in the pull towards Silva. It looks like Hiro has other plans that Silva doesn't know about. He used Silva's hard pull to hug Silva. Yes, after his plan succeeded Hiro felt Silva suddenly like a statue. It was because Silva was so nervous, his heart was beating so fast.

"Silva?" Hiro called out to her while taking off his embrace

"Yes" Silva tried to stay calm

Hiro returned to his original place and enjoyed the warm tea that had been made before. He looked at Silva.

"What's wrong? Stop looking at me like that" said Silva who began to feel annoyed

"Silva, you're like the sugar in my cup of tea" Hiro said

"Haah?  What do you mean, Hiro?"  ask Silva

"You made my life sweeter and more pleasant" Hiro said

"Yes, that's your view as a devil. But as a victim I feel very tormented" said Silva, who again recalled his past.

"But seriously Silva. I feel so lucky to be spending time with you again. You're like a key to my keys. Yes, you made things go smoothly" Hiro said clearly

"Hiro, what are you talking about?" asked Silva who was still in disbelief also did not understand what Hiro meant.

"It turns out I'm not cut out to be a romantic guy" Hiro said

"Huhuh?" Silva is still confused

"Give me a chance. I'll say it again. This time it was better" Hiro approached Silva again this time he became more serious. He held onto Silva's already ice-cold hand due to his nervous rank.

"Silva, do you want to be my assistant? Yes assistant chef? I feel you have good potential talent" Hiro said

"L-yes, I will try my best" Silva said, asking him as an assistant chef why Hiro was holding his hand.

"In addition to being my assistant, I also want to ask for something else from you Silva" Hiro said

"Hiro, how much do you want?" ask Silva

"What else are you asking of me?" ask Silva

"Please accept my love for you Silva" Hiro

"Hiro?" Silva is still not convinced by Hiro's feelings

"Silva, you may not believe what I'm saying. I've actually been holding this feeling to you for a long time. Yes, you may be hesitant or afraid to remember our past, but now will do everything to make you feel safe and comfortable with me. I will always be there for you and I will always love you. I want to give you the happiness and security you need in your life and then live life lovingly" Hiro explained

"Hiro, I don't know how I'm going to respond to you" Silva said

"You don't have to respond. All you do is accept me, accept me and my love" Hiro said

"Hiro, do you know? The way you convey your feelings is like forcing" Silva said

"Yes, I did force you Silva" Hiro

"Yes there is no other choice but to accept and live it if Hiro asks and forces. It was always like that, right?" ask Silva

They looked at each other while feeling the feeling of falling in love blooming in each other's hearts.

"Silva... I love you" Hiro hugged Silva

"I love you too Hiro" Silva said in Hiro's tight arms

From a distance, Mega sees them both. "Shina, look at that! What are they doing?" ask Mega to her sister

"Oh no, that's Hiro and Silva hugging. What do we do?" ask Shina

"We have to get closer and see what's going on" Mega walked up and approached the two of them

"Duuuh Kak Mega" Shina pursues Mega

Hiro and Silva are shocked when they realize that Mega and Shina are nearby.

"Hmm, that's it" Mega saw Hiro and Silva

"But unfortunately, beauty alone is not enough to make someone happy forever, Hiro. You know that, right?" Shina

"Yes, of course I know. Silva also has a good personality and that's what makes me love him" Hiro

"But Triana also has a good personality and is also beautiful. Maybe you could consider getting into a relationship with Triana as well, who knows better than Silva" Mega said outspokenly

"Don't listen to him, Hiro. He just wants to match you with Kak Triana because he himself did not manage to get a girl like Kak Triana idol" Shina

"Hahaha, you two are so funny. But sorry yes, I already love Silva a lot and don't want to ruin our relationship" Hiro

"Okay, okay, sorry Hiro. We were just kidding" Mega

"Yes, may you both continue to stay" Mega

"Thank you, Mega and Shina. I also hope so" Hiro said he looked towards Silva "Oi, Silva speak. Where have you been that likes to talk and argue a lot?" hiro asked him

To be continue