Unite In The SAME Amen

I still love you.

I rejected it because I felt bad for Aisyah, I immediately felt self-conscious. I love her but I can't have her back, now she belongs to Aisyah.

"Yuk ride mey, ntar waste time again"

"No Farel makasi, let's just go later I'm on foot to do what really"

" Ee don't, let Sam anterin you alone than you have to walk hot gini! Sam was there anterin Mey!"

I saw Farel's face that had to be made when Sam wanted to drive me home.

Instantly I wanted to hug her to make sure I would be nice and not be weird.

While riding on Samuel's bike I and Farel stared at each other when Farel was still looking at me.

Guilt also arises.

I don't know why I feel so wrong.

I want to go home with him but I don't want to be selfish just because of my love. I'm also a woman, I understand how to see our loved ones together with others.

I don't want any woman to feel my heartache, because no woman can withstand heartache, not everyone can get through this.

When I was on the way I asked Sam to stop the bike and just put me down.

"Sam.sam...stop snapping"

"Ha why?"

"I stopped here. It's so close from here, you're back to Farel wait a long time" I said as I left Samuel.

"Eyy where are you?I'm going up Mey! eeeeyy!"

I ran away and left Samuel.

Arriving at home I took a bath and daydreamed in the bathtub. I was thinking about why Farel would leave me if he still loved me.

I decided to stay away from him, I just wanted to see him laugh like he used to……

I'm gonna stay away from Samuel so he doesn't marry me.

The next day I came so fast that I didn't see them all, I didn't even go out of class.

When the clock came home I deliberately went home a bit long so I wanted them to go first so I could not meet them.

I've been waiting for them to leave for 1 hour, now it's time for me to go home.

When I got out of the school gate I saw the school parking lot was no longer a vehicle. And it's true they don't exist.

I have been doing that for days, until the month of December when we have a long holiday to celebrate Christmas and the new year and I also have a birthday in December as well.

We're going on a long day off, I feel a little upset because I can't see Farel long enough.

Unlike the holidays yesterday I can still see it because we are still dating and often meet.

We had a long day off, Farel came to my class and found out he was looking for me.

"Mey bothered to come with me" she immediately pulled my hand and left the classroom.

when outside the classroom he looked at me for quite a while without a word.

"Why not talk?" I said while waving my hands before his eyes.

He still won't talk and just looks at me……

For a long time she looked at me and finally she spoke.

"I want to look at you long enough, because we won't meet long enough, I just want to look at you so I can fill the day without you"

I cut the conversation, too.

"Don't I not fill your day anymore? I haven't spent months filling up your day, why are you staring at me? looking at me won't fill your day!"

I'm getting weird the day I see Farel's behavior.

I don't know what he really wants, why didn't he take me back if he still loved me? If he doesn't love me anymore why is he still looking for me and not letting me be with anyone else.

What Farel is hiding……

From the first time I remember him once away from me and the reason we are different religions, now what is the reason when he broke his relationship with me.

I knew he must be hiding something.

I wanted to do that but I asked after our long school break.

When the holidays came I was very bored.

The day I spent at home there was no work.

I also intend to leave the house to visit the place I used to spend with Farel.

I visited the playgrounds that Farel and I used to visit.

I also remembered the things I used to do with Farel during the courtship. One by one, my memories remember. All the memories I have forgotten.

I went to the car game and intended to play the game.

It turned out that there was Farel playing that game next to me.

We both looked at each other and laughed but I cried a little.

We don't just laugh and play.

When I finished playing Farel, he asked me to talk.

"Remove your tears, we're both having fun"

I wiped my tears but strangely my tears still flowed but I laughed.

Is this what you call happy crying?

When I finished crying she "asked why are you here?"

"I'm just bored at home and I remember this place that made me happy first so I intend to come here to relieve my boredom, if you? what are you doing?"

"I miss you. Well I miss you. That's why I'm here to treat my longing for you by remembering our story here…"

"Where is Aisyah? why don't you bring her here?"

"Dear of? I don't want to talk about Aisyah when I miss you and remember you"

I was silent for a moment, and he was silent as well.

Soon I was going to the beach.

"Where are you going?"

"haa? aa..aa.I want to go home"

"Be careful, remember to eat regularly and don't cry much, I still love you"

When I heard that I did not reply to anything, he said, I just heard and left.

I lied to her……

I still want to go to the beach to remember our story…

Arriving at the beach I cried why our relationship is like this, am I the one who is too forced relationship? since the beginning we are both different and cannot be combined.

Why would I want to continue this relationship.

It's all my fault, I forced him too much to be mine.