Two Loved Wives

Second letter

"Why should it be like this" Fariel said.

"Why should I Bang."

"I'm confused about what to do."

"I also have an appointment with Ervida."

"What must I do to fulfill your last wish."

"I'm afraid I can't do it."

"I'm afraid I can't make it what you want it to be, I'm afraid."

"Don't make me choose the hard thing, which I can't choose."

Then I opened up again the last letter that Fida made.

...Make you my beloved wife. ...

...Siti Rofida's. ...

I'm sorry if Mas didn't make you as happy as you wanted.

Sorry if I left only memories and wounds for you, my dear wife.

I leave my son to you completely, take care of him, and love him as much as you love me.

Maybe after this letter comes, I can no longer look you in the face, and our son will.

Lately I've been having weird dreams that don't know what it is.

For sure I'm afraid this thing I never wanted would happen to me later.

But we don't know when that time will come

when will that time come near me.

Don't be sad and cry after I leave you and our child.

But I will be willing and sincere if there will be a man who comes to propose to you to continue my struggle all this time to make you happy.

I'm sincere if you marry the person closest to you in our family.

I'm sincere if you marry him who is now our brother to be our brother who Papi and Mami want him to be his son.

I'm sure he's a good boy, a kid who can make you and our kid happy.

Marry her, with Fariel.

I'm sure he's the one who can guide you and our son.

Forget me, be happy with him and our son.

It's not a request but my wish after I've gone so far won't come back.

I'm sure our son can be happy with her.

I'm sure he's the right man to be my successor, to be his father.

Don't cry, wipe away your tears, smile.

Welcome your new happiness.

I can't always be with you and our son.

So before I really fall asleep, you can forget about me even if it's hard, but I'm sincere.

Don't think of me sleeping and just covered in white.

But think of our son, his happiness, his future.

I'm sure you can, he can and will be my replacement.

May you live a new life with your family and a new life with them.

I hope you grant my wish this is my last.

I just want to see you and my son always happy and cheerful who has a complete family, because I'm afraid that if our child is born no longer Dad by his side will suffer because unlike his friends who have Dad, it will definitely be a mockery.

So marry her, please this child of ours, she needs a father who really loves her as well as you.

I'll always smile looking at you from here when you're happy and our son is too.

Good-bye, good-bye, keep smiling and happy.

...Mas Rendi Ardian. ...

I immediately closed the letter again after reading the contents.

"Why is it like this" Fariel said.

"Why does it make me have to choose."

"I can't choose."

"I'm afraid I can't play the role you want to bang."

"I'm not the right person to be your replacement."

"There are still a lot of people out there who might be better and could be happy and accepting."

"I can't afford it."

"I'm afraid to hurt her."

"I can't make him happy."

"I have another promise too."

"I'm afraid I won't be able to choose him and forget my promise."

"Please don't make me choose this difficult thing."

"I can't afford it."

"I really can't afford it."

"My head hurts thinking about this."

"I'm not strong."

Tired of thinking about this, I fell asleep.