Two Loved Wives

Deep wounds, heartaches

I woke up from my sleep that could not really fall asleep that there was only a shadow of Tia who had casually appeared while trying to close her eyes.

"Where's not going" said Mama, who was beside me.

"I can't sleep, the shadow always appears" Fariel said, waking up from her bed.

"I'm going out to calm my mind, I need some alone time" walking out of the room.

I also walked out of the house without responding to some people who called me, I kept walking silently towards my motorbike.

Then I turn on my bike, which is still the key on the motor. I drive my vehicle, where the direction doesn't know, which just follows instinct.

Now it is hilly at the top of the mountain, which is a tourist spot behind the clouds.

Then I sat looking at the city down there with a feeling that could not be interpreted.

With a feeling filled with a wounded and unsettled heart and mixed with these tears that were dripping down a little profusely.

"Where are you."

"Don't make me suffer."

"Don't leave me with this guilt of mine."

"Maybe it's our destiny that can't be together."

"Go home."

"I want to see you happy, even if you're not with me."

"Don't make me this way full of guilt."

"I remember my promise to be with you until old age to see our children grow up."

"But maybe God said something else."

"Maybe God has only given us happiness together just up here."

"Maybe God is testing us to pick up our own happiness."

"Go home, don't let them down, they want what's best for you and your family."

"Don't ask me my love for you, for at any time it will remain the same, you are the owner of this heart."

"I'm sorry if I can't keep my promise to always be with you."

"Let this be our shared memory, even if it hurts me and you."

"I admit I still want you so much, to always be by my side as my life's encouragement."

"I miss your behavior."

"Sweep."

"Your voice when you call me with my dear CAMI."

"Smile."

"Your laugh."

"Also your promise, and the way you're mad at me."

"I will never forget those words that always come out of your mouth, and your behavior."

Then I shouted in a voice so loud that some visitors looked at me.

"CANIS WHERE YOU ARE, GO HOME" AND cry.

"Go home" while falling with the knee on the ground.

"Go home." started to swallow his voice.

"Go home."

"Go home canisku."

"home."

"Home home I miss your attitude."

"home"

"AAAAAAKKKKKKKKKK" I shouted with my head facing the top and my hands clenched and dropped my body back and my arms covered my eyes and my right hand hit the ground.

"I'm not strong."

"It hurts so much."

"Here is this heart."

"Don't be like this."

"I can't."

"Where are you now."

"I want to meet you maybe the last time before I can really take you off, even though it's going to make a deep wound in this heart."

"home."

"When canis comes home."

"I'm not strong and I can't."

"Go home" and still hit the ground.

"Home canisku darling" while beating her chest.

"It hurts me."

Then unconscious