Two Loved Wives

I'm cursing to God

I woke up in the morning sleeping on the front bench of the room alone with nothing else, because auntie had come home to live bi Sumi who was inside accompanying Fida.

The dawn prayer was heard in my ears and I woke up to the Mushala hospital.

I took Wudhu and went inside to perform the Fajr Prayer with some people who were here.

After my prayers as usual pray for both parents to always be healthy, long life and devolved fortune and facilitated the path to your paradise.

Then I pondered some time ago when I was sick and met someone who did not know who the little girl who kept calling me.

"Dad."

"My dad's here."

"You're my father."

"Don't leave me, Dad."

Not only that, even the figure of the late husband of Fida was also present several times in my dream by telling me.

"Bring my wife and son."

"I entrust everything to you."

"I'm sure you can guide him, build him."

"Don't forbid my son to call you Father."

"You're the one who's gonna be his father."

"I entrust everything to you."

"I'm sincere if she's with you."

"Because I'm sure you're the one who's been wanted all along but me."

"Make her happy with you."

"Don't make those tears fall again, because her tears are precious to me."

"Go home and make her smile."

"Kutitip my wife and children to you."

"See you later."

I always remember those words, always spinning round in my head that meeting.

I poured it all out and I poured it all out on God, hoping to give me a way soon.

"Is this a sign that I should be with him."

"Do I have to marry her."

"But what about the others who have always wished me."

"Will he be able and will accept it, if I choose another."

"I must do what and how, O Lord."

"If it had to happen, I wouldn't be able to pick one of them."

"Help your servant God."

"Don't make me in a dilemma because I have to choose between them."

"I'm not sure what I don't choose can accept this decision, accept it with grace."

"But I'm afraid I'm going to break this family apart just because of my choice."

"Guide me and take me to your path, the path that is able to choose correctly, and is able to accept the reality."

"Let me paint a smile on all of them, whether I choose or not."

I immediately closed my curses to God this morning and went back to the room to check on Fida's sister and the Sumi bi inside.

I'm knocking on the door.

"Tk tok tok, Assalamu'alaikum" Fariel said.

Because there were no words or answers from inside I went straight into Fida's ward.

I woke bi Sumi who fell asleep on the floor with a small mat and a blanket, then hands as a pillow.

"Bi, bi, bi Sum, wake up at dawn" Fariel said, slowly so as not to disturb Fida in his sleep.

"Bi woke up early."

"It was dawn" said Sumi.

"Yes bi, aunty hunted to Mushola for dawn prayer, there is still time for prayer" said Fariel.

"So your aunt's gonna come home, I'm gonna have to get changed or something."

"Let me call Mr. Ari to pick up aunty here."

"Well Den, if that's my aunt Prayers first Den" said Sumi.

"Yes there bi, this let me take care of it" said Fariel.

"Well Den, if that's aunt excuse me Den, Assalamu'alaikum" Sumi said.

"Waalaikumsalam" said Fariel.

When the aunt left I saw a tiny baby in a box that was sleeping in his sleep playing his mouth that was like drinking or chewing.

"That's funny" said Fariel.

"I can't wait to play."

"When I'm gonna have this funny kid."

"Feel."

"Pisan gumes."

"So I can't wait to hold."

Suddenly even this tiny baby crying makes me panic myself want to do something.