Two Loved Wives

My daydream

In the afternoon I was just daydreaming about it, about this relationship that could not be blessed.

I hung on the corner of the balcony of the room with crouching leaning on the pole while thinking about what I should do, because on the other hand the blessing is important and on the other hand also the heart and mind is always only about it.

Months have we passed together, spoiled together, although nosy but to his proposal that makes me miss him.

While looking at the small size photo while together with full of joy, I enjoyed this farewell that I could not express, without realizing the tears were dripping.

"Honestly I'm not strong at losing, but I have to."

"I miss your pain, your smile, your laughter, your sudden warm embrace, I miss everything from you."

"I miss the moments together, the laughs together, the jokes together, the mannerisms when angry and spoiled."

"I can't forget all this."

"I don't want to lose you" hugging her picture.

"But I can't fight the old man either, let this be our story, even if there must be a wound."

"Maybe I can't find a replacement like you."

"I feel like my heart is breaking, even my life is breaking."

"It hurts so much."

"This heart is so painful."

"May you be happy with her later, even if I'm sick but I'll smile for you."

"If indeed we are destined to be together, God will unite us, but if not forget me, even though it is hard to forget."

"I will always watch over you to see your happy smile, because I love you too much and miss you."

"I'm sorry I always miss you."

Then wipe away the tears that keep dripping.

Then I tried to toughen up and stand up and then went into the room and laid my body on the mattress with a supine position while staring at the ceiling of the room.

"What's my happiness is just getting here."

"What happiness is my life is over and only pain and suffering will be left."

"I can't live my life without you by my side."

"Till here is my life."

"Pierced thorns on the legs I can still hold it and I can heal it, but this one can't."

"I feel like my heart was made to be broken."

"The memories of our love last only a little while, the rest is just the pain lasts my whole life."

"Better my broken arm than this broken heart" while hitting my tight chest.

"Loving but not being able to be together is the most painful thing in my life."

"Losing you makes the world feel empty without you here with that smile."

"I hate my place in this world."

"We once promised to fight together, to live together until old age that separates us, but this."

"In every beat of my heart you're the one I remember with your powerful style."

"This affection, this love of the heart will always be there for you, will always be strong even if it is eroded, slashed, and obliterated, there will always be."

"Your love and your love are for me, but your parents didn't give it to me."

"I'm not the one who is, but my heart truly loves you for who you are."

"And I keep this longing for you in heaven, I hope God can unite us there."

"Blessed is my earthly angel this heartfiller, my canis I love you always i love u."

And then I close my eyes.