Two Husbands/New Life

The Part 110

"What is Miss doing here?" Zian asked as the two had already entered into his private room.

Before starting to talk Zian had to look around his room that was a little neat and clean. I don't know when the mistress got into her room and cleaned everything as if she was used to cleaning like a housekeeper. Zian felt guilty imagining a princess doing a job she shouldn't have done.

She could not imagine if the princess who had been living in a large mansion with so many servants served had to be a housewife taking care of herself without the help of servants. Zian felt more guilty.

"Eh? Ah, a. I followed my husband." Zian jerked to look at Anin sticky.

His body froze and stiffened. 'Home?' A word that somehow makes Zian feel happy. But soon he controlled his feelings, he did not want to be big head because of the name 'husband' from his guise which is only as a substitute husband.

"I'm just a surrogate, you shouldn't be doing this. Miss is free to do what she wants to do." Zian tried to dodge because kege er annya did not want to expect more.

Anin silently lowered her head, feeling rejected. Though already trying to accept her destiny as the second wife of a Zian even though no love is felt for Zian now. She just wants to be devoted to her husband even though she doesn't love him now.

"So, shouldn't I be here?" Anin asked looking up at Zian with a sad look filled with disappointment.

Zian looked into those eyes, eyes full of sadness and disappointment. Zian felt guilty for saying words that might hurt his wife right now.

But he had to do it so that the lady would give up and it was better not to be with him who might make his wife suffer from having to live without being served by a servant like in his master's mansion.

"The marriage was intended only to preserve the good name of the family. So, miss, there's no need to take all that seriously." Anin speechlessly looked at Zian fed up.

Huh, don't you take that marriage seriously? Ah, so he thought the wedding was just a joke? Somehow Zian's words made Anin angry.

Although their marriage was only serial and could not be registered legally because Zian was still a husband, but for Anin the marriage was not a joke. He highly upholds what marriage is, no matter how their ijab qobul is done in front of the crowd and in front of God.

And it was as easy as Zian, whose now-husband sir had so easily said their marriage was nothing and meaningless.

"I'm upset, aren't I?" Said Anin starting to dare, she looked up at Zian's face.

"A.. What does miss mean?" Zian was even nervous to see the angry face of Anin who looked wrathful in the look in his eyes.

Moreover, a glimpse of Anin seeing Zian's ears flushed inexplicably.

Zian himself was already feeling nervous, embarrassed and happy, again with the call 'gold' Anin mentioned to him felt different when Rima called him. Zian turned his gaze the other way.

"If you think our marriage is just a mess it's up to you, I just don't want to feel guilty any further for not doing my duty as a wife to my husband. For me marriage is something sacred that should be respected even if it's just a series. I wouldn't have forced you to take responsibility for me if it was just a toy for you." Anin immediately left the room without waiting for Zian's answer, who had stretched out his fingers to touch his wife's shoulder.

That's really not what it means. Even his intention to speed up the handling of his divorce papers was simply to be able to make Anin his only wife. Although Anin later asked for divorce after caring for her ex-husband. Zian was willing if they were going to get a divorce.

But this is not what he wanted. They thought their marriage was nothing. Not that, no,

Ah, I think I mis-said what I meant. I'm happy, it's really nice to see that he prefers me even if he doesn't love me. But since I love her too much, I won't be able to make her suffer by my side. Inner Zian raged tightly clasping her fingers which failed to reach Anin's shoulder to straighten out the misunderstanding.

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"What's up, son?" Maria asked to see Anin coming out of the room with eyes that were not okay.

"There's nothing ma'am. Mas Zian wanted to rest, so I better not bother him. Maybe he's tired." Anin replies trying to cover up the bitter reality of their marriage.

I don't know why Maria felt something was hidden. And Maria just nodded her head in affirmation Anin who chose to go to the bathroom that was behind the kitchen.

Anin washes her face in the bathroom sink and somehow her chest feels tight and tears slide against her will. Anin a mouthful in the bathroom felt a tightness in her chest considering she was denied being here. But Anin immediately rubbed the rough tears many times because the melt of her tears also repeatedly melted without her will.

'You are strong Anin, you must be strong. You've made your choice. You must learn to love her husband, though you cannot yet learn to respect him.' Inner Anin encouraged herself.

She felt karma from what she did some time ago because she ignored her husband. He realized that Zian did it might not want to feel anymore disappointment because he had been dumped by it.

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