Trying To Be Faithful

Luka

"You're nothing, Mas. Where are you going?"

Raden ignored Hasna's remarks. He did not care how strong Hasna was, trying to escape from Raden's clutches. The man continued walking carrying Hasna to a place further away from where the party was taking place.

"Let go Mas my hand hurts. Where are we going exactly? how do people see Mas?"

Raden didn't care what Hasna said he didn't care Although everyone else saw the two of them.

"Mas!"

Hasanah pulled her hand from Raden's grip until it was released.

"You are why the hell you realize that what you are doing is dangerous for me, you and Dewandaru."

"I don't care about Hasna. Let everyone know who you really are, who I am and the relationship between the two of us."

"You're selfish. Maybe you don't care, but at least you think about my pride. Mr. Mahendra has introduced me as his son-in-law. Then what would people say if I were now both with you! Have you thought about getting there?"

"Hasna I-"

"Enough Mas! Stop it all getting here. We have no relationship anymore, it's all over. Aren't you also going to rejoin your ex-wife? What do you expect from me again."

Hasna's hand shook, she held onto such intense anger. His anger was not directed at Raden who took him elsewhere. Hasna was angry at herself. It turned out that the disappointment in his heart was no greater than the longing and love Hasna had for Raden.

It felt like Hasna was scattering and hugging Raden tightly, letting go of all the longing she had endured all this time. However, he realized that it would only add to the wounds in his heart.

As much as Hasna could hold back her tears, she did not want to look weak in front of Raden.

Sometimes that painful longing is not missing the person we cannot meet, there are times when it hurts so much when our heart misses the person who is in front of us but we cannot touch.

Raden's eyes were red, his tears were shimmering. He could only be silent when he saw Hasna's gaze so filled with hatred for him. Raden realized what he had done earlier had Hasna hurt so deeply.

"I hope after this you can get happiness and so can I. I want to get some peace even for a moment, Mas. So please according to what you said back then, just assume we never knew each other."

Raden's tears that he held as strong as possible were finally unstoppable. Raden was waiting for his tears. The man showed his weakness in front of Hasna. Raden knelt down but not to beg for forgiveness from Hasna.he knelt down because he was aware of the stupidity he did to the woman he loved.

True what people say.making decisions when we are at a high level of emotion is an untreatable folly. That is why regret is always at the end so that we can be careful in behaving and speaking.

Regret is the most painful punishment.

"I'm sorry. I hope we can meet at a better time and day than this. I will always pray for your happiness. Say hello to Akhtia and Airlangga. I'm sorry for them because I couldn't fulfill their desire to live together as a family. Even so I'll still love them from afar. Goodbye, Mas."

Hasna's increasingly distant steps made Raden finally fall he collapsed and prostrated on the ground while bothered.

"Where do I know. Good thing I didn't ask the security guard for your nyariin."

"Ngapain asked the security guard for help? Thought I was a boy. This is proof that you can go home alone again, right?"

"Where from?" ask the curious god.

"Meeting old friends by accident."

Hasna lamented the God with a question mark filled gaze.

The god smiled as he lowered his head.

"I saw it all, Ma'am. You don't have to lie to me."

"Don't discuss. I don't want to talk about things that make my heart unhappy. We better get inside so your parents don't get suspicious."

"What can I do for you Ma'am so that your wounds heal, and you feel happiness again. If this fake relationship of ours makes you depressed then I'll cancel everything."

"It's too late God. There's nothing we can fix. We can only live what lies ahead. All of this is just a scenario made by God. We're just puppets playing a role. Just look what it's gonna end up like."

That guilt now enveloped the heart of God. He felt guilty for sacrificing Hasna's feelings just for his personal sake.

Not only that God feels guilty for breaking Raden's heart. It wasn't just once the Gods saw how frustrated Raden was after Hasna left. All this time the Gods secretly told someone to spy on Raden. He wanted to see how much regret Raden had for hurting Hasna.

Not just one but two hearts at once had been destroyed. And maybe in the future there will be another heart that is hurt by the lies he has done.

"Where are you, baby? Mami's been looking for you?" ask his mother God to Hasna.

"Sorry, Aunt. I'm not used to parties like this. I was out to get some fresh air."

"You want to go home now? ask the gods to take you home."

"Yes aunt. I don't seem comfortable lingering here better I go home.where is Mahendra?"

"The fireman was talking to his business partner. If you want to go home, go home first. Later Aunt tell me the same papi."

The god approached Hasna and her mother who were talking.

"God deliver the results home it seems like he is not comfortable here" his mother said.

"Yes Mih. I'll take the results home first, yeah."

"yes you guys be careful on the road."

"I'm saying yes, Auntie."

"Yes dear. You be careful huh, just take a break as soon as you get home."

The god grabbed Hasanah's shoulder and walked out of the party room.

Raden who saw his lover touched another man looked so upset.he took the glass that was on the table right next to him. The glass broke into several pieces in Raden's palm. until the inflamed hand is injured and bleed.

"Papa." Achtia screamed hysterically seeing blood dripping from Raden's hands. He immediately approached the papa and took it to the medical center in the hotel to do the first treatment on the wound in Raden's hand.

Apparently a lot of small glass shards went into Raden's hands, so the man needed further treatment. Akhtia immediately took Raden to a hospital owned by their family.