Trying To Be Faithful

Disillusioned

Throughout the night Raden guarded Hasna, changed compresses, wiped sweat and was on standby giving Hasna what she asked for.

At 04am, Hasna woke up. He wants to pee. As soon as Raden fell asleep on the single sofa by his bedside, Hasna was shocked. At the sight of Raden who was sound asleep, Hasna's heart became warm. The sympathy began to come, amazed and proud to feel loved sincerely, he felt.

Hasna approaching. Raden's face was covered with tiny hairs. Staring at him up close, made Hasna's heart pound.

"Are you satisfied to see it?" asked Raden who suddenly woke up. Hasna.

"What's wrong? Why do we have to be quiet like that? Just tell me if you want to see my face. I will gladly invite you."

Hasna turned around, she immediately walked over continuing her initial intention to urinate.

Raden smiled thinly.

Azan dawn reverberating. Hasna goes to the Achtian room to borrow Mukena, the boy is still sleeping with Nay and Shaki. Not wanting to interfere, Hasna secretly took the face and returned to Raden's room. Raden had already prayed.

"Why not be together, Mom?" asked Hasna when Raden finished praying.

"I forgot you were here."

They laughed a little.

After finishing the prayer, Hasna headed for the kitchen. She wants to make breakfast for her children and also Raden.

Raden sat while watching Hasna cook.

"What breakfast do you want?"

"anything. I'm not fussy about food. Whatever origin is non-toxic, I'll eat."

Hasna nodded.

Raden was still watching his lady. This kind of atmosphere he hadn't felt in a long time. Accompanying the woman he loved cooking, only this time Hasna was not his wife.

"I'm still waiting for your answer, Na. Still hope you open your heart and accept me."

Hasna glanced at a glance without looking. Hasna was still unsure about her feelings. He was confused that the feeling he felt was a sense of love, admiration, or kasian.

"Kids why haven't they woken up, yeah. It's noon already. Is Tia not going to be late for school?" Hasna diverted the conversation.

Raden was disappointed.

"I also want to take a shower, and get ready for work."

Hasna stopped her cooking activities as soon as Raden pamit. Hasna clearly understood if Raden left because he was disappointed.

Sorry, Mas.

Food is already in session. Hasna bathed Nay and Shaki. The children were wearing new clothes that Hasna did not know when they bought the clothes.

"Nay, eat it slowly, yeah. That's not messy like that."

"Yes, Bun."

"Maybe afternoon, Auntie. There's an extra lesson."

"Oh, so. Oh, yes, which Airlangga? How come aunt doesn't see him from morning."

"Ang out of town, Auntie."

"Ohh."

Akhtia repeatedly glanced at Raden who had been silent since. Akhtia who is a teenager towards adulthood, understands if Raden is upset even though he does not know what because.

"Well, what's wrong?" ask Akhtia.

"You get home from the driver, I have important business in the hospital. Tia, Papa first yes. Nay, Shaki, the meal is spent huh, Om go to work first."

"Yes, Om. Be careful, Om." Shaki waved his hand.

Achtia turned to Hasna, trying to find an answer from there.

Aware of being noticed by Achtia, Hasna spoke.

"Papa was angry with Auntie, rather he was disappointed."

"Why? Is it because Aunt still ignores papa's feelings?"

"Deciding whether or not to accept someone's feelings isn't easy, Tia."

"At least do not give hope if it does not have the same feelings. Just say if you don't want to let papa not expect much with Aunt."

After saying goodbye to Nay and Shaki, Akhtia left without saying goodbye to Hasna. Akhtia was equally disappointed when he saw Raden this morning. Seeing the sadness on Raden's face, Akhtia felt annoyed at Hasna.

Being at someone else's house while the host was angry at him, made Hasna feel uncomfortable. Waiting for his children to finish breakfast, after which Hasna went straight home.

The work that made Raden mumet, as well as the feeling of guilt for being cold to Hasna this morning made Raden upset with himself.

Cars drove down the highway, splitting the hustle and bustle of the city. Everyone seems to be busy with their activities. Travel cart merchants whose merchandise is still seen a lot, online ojeg who repeatedly check the phone who knows there are customers, also those who are in the car are either thinking about what.

Raden was at his house. He met his personal driver.

"Where, sir? You came home safely, didn't you?"

"Okay, I'm sorry, sir. I got home by myself by taking an online taxi. I forced her to take even mother nolak. I'm not good if I keep on making it."

Raden took a deep breath.

"Let's go, anyway, Pah. Papah want to call? Don'tdon't. Maybe Aunt Hasna is confused about herself. Papa gave time to Aunt Hasna mused. Let him think about his own feelings first," said Akhtia who had just arrived.

"Papa's worried."

"Once in a while let Aunt Hasna worry about not getting word from papa."

Achtia walks into the house. Leaving Raden hesitant between contacting Hasna or not. He stared at the phone screen for a long time, until the small flat object went back into Raden's pocket.