Tone & Sound

#35 [Bab. a pair of orange shells]

[Recommendations Backsound fitting when reading this : Nadin Amizah - an unfinished dance, and Jef Martens - Homeland]

Who wants to stay in difficult times? Who wants to live in the same cry? There's nothing. Everyone wants to get away from that. Living and living in good things. Delightful. Passing the day with a cheerful laugh.

In the past, when little Nada found out about the departure of Mr. Karso, he always tried to ask Bara about it. When are you going home, or any other poignant questions. But Bara never answered all of Nada's questions. Yes, because, the one who lost Mr. Karso was not just Nada. It's like that too. Bara doesn't know what to give Tone an answer. He doesn't even know where to look for Mr. Karso.

As they grow older, they begin to understand that sometimes tears are not just about loss, and laughter is not always about happiness. At that time, the teenage Tone and Bara went to various places, looking for their father's whereabouts.

Moving places, just to find answers, and to find the lives lost. But they forget, if that answer comes to them. Because in every place they go, everything is nil. No one knows. Mr. Karso is lost like an earth swallow.

There is a point where a person can get really tired. Not the same situation. Except for something that doesn't really exist. Hoping, but already know that hope is only as a blank sheet that until anytime will never be filled with the shortest word. Nada and Bara tried to let go of Mr. Karso.

When Ms. Ann decided to marry Mr. Tio, Nada was like holding two knives in her hand. Because, on the one hand, Nada didn't want that to happen at all. Nada still misses and hopes that her real father will return. But on the other hand, Bara reminded Nada about how to mengikhlaskan and about the importance of healing the heart of Bu Ann who was very devastated after the departure of Mr. Karso.

Accept one thing about the limits of pain. Tone, it is necessary to re-set the heart. Without Mr. Karso. Nada, I really need to know that her father is gone.

But, despite being gone, Nada would still remember her father. Mr. Karso has taught little about the world. From Pak Karso also Nada learned, if you want to be happy, yes, please find it yourself. Don't expect others. Because if you hope that happiness comes from others, it is the same as hoping for a rainbow that appears after the rain. There's not always.

And Mr. Karso also taught me all about music. Jazz and others. Mr. Karso explained that music is magical. A broken heart can recover quickly because of it.

But also the opposite. The heart that was not why-why, can quickly turn into why-why. With just a few notes, humans can cry loudly because of music. Hidden. And as the sharpest.

Night fetch wishful thinking. Sun goes. There is no moon either. Closed by the rain fog that rained increasingly heavy. After a while of struggling in the room, Nada finally fell asleep on top of the gray book. Repeating that memory back. Walking on the dream sky. Beautiful woman who has a pink heart, slumbering carried by the shadows.